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At one drunken night around 02:00 at the Halls of Residence, where I had a room right next to the Student Union building, me and a very diverse group of about 6 Uni mates were seeing off the concierge on his final night working in the Halls - he was very popular due to his comedic personality and well liked among the resident students and Campus staff. We were all cracking jokes with the concierge while under the influence of alcohol, I was probably smoking the odd spliff too. All of a sudden, a strange, short, drunk woman came crashing through the Halls entrance, into our group, grabbed me an… Přečíst více

Most of the time it would just be me over at my friend’s house across the road, as the third and youngest of us lived in a different borough with his foster family. There was a lot more on offer at his home compared to mine; a short, white MILF who had Yoko Ono vibes, with a fat ass who I used to lust over and fantasise about (is this the moment I became an ass man?), a “red-skinned” father from New York who was like one of the boys, used to coach American Football and took us to Richmond Park on occasion (where his son, my Bum Chum, would train to play for the London Ravens). There was also g… Přečíst více

Upon the regular sleepovers when it was just myself over at my eldest friend’s house, and sometimes with his younger brother (who was about 5 years my junior, I apprehensively add), we would play video games till the early hours, then eventually share a bed and fool around. One time I woke up and we agreed to fool around and attempt sex, pretending we were each other’s playground crush. The only thing I remember is when it came to him penetrating me, it was dry so he tried to force it in and it made me vocalise the pain…I think he enjoyed that part! One night, it was just me and said friend i… Přečíst více

It’s said to be normal for boys to experiment with each other growing up; raging hormones, personal discovery or just downright playfulness among cousins and even siblings, or a close-knit brotherhood over a period of time. Add a combo of pussy-hungry perverts fuelled by porn with relatively liberal parents, and you get the very common slumber parties we had, I think that phase lasted throughout my teenage years… Moving from Leeds to London in Oct ‘82 meant we had to temporarily live with mum’s female friend & her son till we got settled. She too had roots in Leeds with 6 other sisters, m… Přečíst více

I was introduced to pornography at the age of 10, by my “cousin” who was around 16 months older than me. He discovered a VHS tape of his mother’s and wanted to show it to me. I remember him excitedly shoving the tape in…I’m not sure I knew what I was watching, but I do recall enjoying the perverse nature of what I now know as debauchery; a vintage orgy! Another thing that happened to me at age 10, was my first can of strong beer. It was my half-sister’s dad’s birthday and for some reason he thought it was a good idea to hand me a 500ml can of strong beer of around 9% abv! At one point I was w… Přečíst více

I remember playing “Mums & Dads” with a toddler “girlfriend” (4 or 5 years old) from the same block in my estate; rolling around under my bed covers, half naked, trying to get our genitals to connect. Being that young, sexual activity wasn’t possible, none-the-less we had fun with the freedom of being able to play with each other’s bodies under my blanket. Her parents were familiar with my mum, so being in each other’s rooms wasn’t uncommon, we held a bond up until it was time for mum to move from Poplar to Docklands, around the time I was entering secondary school (‘87). Bearing in mind… Přečíst více

Dear Hamsters, I suffered a racist attack on 19th Aug on my estate in Dewsbury. Despite the Police saying they'll do all they can to get to the bottom of things, they took their typical systemic racist route of providing lip service without following through, then leaving me in limbo while awaiting responses to emails and phone messages... As for Kirklees Council, they've discriminated against me from near the beginning of my tenancy, once I voiced the truth around the various racial disparities that exist close around us; the fortnightly mental health check-ins ceased and my formal complain… Přečíst více

I'm not here to be your scapegoat for bad manners, poor attitude and just flat out rudeness! Being a 2nd gen-born in this weirdly divided island, it's so easy to spot an inherently simple racist...just like spotting a brainwashed sheep! So instead of trolling behind a screen, come to my door with your ignorance and confront a suicidal man that has nothing to lose, you'll be sure to get a lesson from the Grim Reaper himself!! The word "Nigger" actually means Black King among other regal, godly and celestial words / connotations like Naga, Negus and the African count… Přečíst více

I'm not sure if it’s my apparent lack of testosterone (a "late bloomer", feminine mannerisms, non-macho, limited facial hair…), or the fact that I’ve been raised by nothing but women, even down to having a daughter as my only c***d, maybe it’s a bit of both…but I was always very domesticated, my mother made it her mission to make me independent from women so I could take care of myself and not be a stereotype. By the time my half-sister came along (3 weeks prior to my 10th birthday), I could wash dishes, clothes, run errands for my mother like depositing giro cheques at the post office… Přečíst více

Certain things I've experienced, suffered through and discovered about myself, through my younger years to my homeless years...specific traits have become evident and crept through the surface. Obviously, mental health isn't something I'm aware of as a youth, especially coming from the Caribbean community, despite being a second generation Black Briton. It's only when my life took me down the marriage and homeless path, that I became acquainted with mental health and its many branches - however, root causes are more elusive... I have very few (inanimate) memories of my 6 years in my birthplac… Přečíst více