My Feminine Side

I'm not sure if it’s my apparent lack of testosterone (a "late bloomer", feminine mannerisms, non-macho, limited facial hair…), or the fact that I’ve been raised by nothing but women, even down to having a daughter as my only c***d, maybe it’s a bit of both…but I was always very domesticated, my mother made it her mission to make me independent from women so I could take care of myself and not be a stereotype.

By the time my half-sister came along (3 weeks prior to my 10th birthday), I could wash dishes, clothes, run errands for my mother like depositing giro cheques at the post office, I was even babysitting my baby sister, playing the “father” while my mother went out raving with my “cousin’s” mother; changing nappies, sterilising bottles, feeding my baby sister. I loved this responsibility, I guess that ties in with needing to be depended upon…I’ve learned that this is a great trait for my adulthood, women especially love a man in touch with his femininity, and I’ve even been mistaken as being homosexual on the odd occasion…sexuality is a spectrum, just like ASD, I can’t consider myself heterosexual (although I’m not attracted to males) when I enjoy anal play and am attracted to MTF Trans women, but there’s not yet a label for that part of the sexuality spectrum.


The stereotype goes that males internalise their emotions and females do the opposites, I’ve always been an open book (which is why I’m able to be so candid now), a “wear my heart on my sleeve” kinda guy, this shows off my vulnerability, some take advantage, some find it admirable. I can’t help but be the passionate, emotional being I am.