My Weekend - the girl in me?

This happened 2 weekends ago... and then last weekend again... and now a little bit again this weeknd but the first weekend was really freeing. Sorry if it doesn't all make sense...


I get migraine headaches sometimes and take a prescription and hope it gets rid of it. Sometimes it does and other times not at all. A friend of mine mentioned a long time ago that her husband takes medicinal marijuana (before it was legal) to get rid of his migraines sometimes. I used to smoke a lot way back in my teens and twenties but I don’t smoke at all anymore... until recently.

Last weekend I had a joint that someone gave me a few months before. I did have a mild headache when I woke up that morning... so I thought I’d try smoking some of it like maybe 2 or 3 puffs. It takes nothing to get me high now....lol. Anyway it was feeling really nice... a bit of a head buzz and also a bit of a body buzz too. My body moving a bit differently more relaxed and it felt nice. Anyway, it was the weekend and usually on weekends after groceries and whatever, I end up going online... to get off. This time I was going to be high.

Years ago one thing weed did to me was make me horny and sometimes really horny. I’ve been with maybe 7 guys (one a few times) and I was a little bit high when I was with 5 of them. Being high makes me really horny for a variety of things... allowing myself to indulge a little in my fantasies but that was so long ago.

So I’ve got this mild little buzz going on and my body is feeling really good... and I notice I’m moving differently as I’m doing stuff in my apartment... my walking is a bit different, like I’ve added a hint of a sway in my hips and being a bit fem... I reached for something and then I thought to myself... a girl would move like that..? My mannerisms were changing a little, more gentle and idk ..dainty? But I was enjoying it and becoming very conscious of how I was feeling and acting. Sometimes catching myself adding a bit more girly swish to my ass as I walked... thinking “...omg where did that come from?”“god what a girl” I felt very fem and girly.

I didn’t feel “like a woman” but I still felt like something changed. Getting a bit high seemed to have removed this heavy cloak I seem to wear as I’m deep inside my closet. It seemed that for a little while though that I was released or set free... heavy weight lifted and let me be and feel without judgment... allowed myself to feel like this... feel fem and gay. I just had an overwhelming feeling of femininity and gayness and OMG I loved it.

Being slightly buzzed just allowed me to feel fluid I guess... being who was inside and feel that coming out. It was kind of thrilling and also to allow myself to feel safe and comfortable and enjoy the feelings, that just felt incredible knowing I was ok and allowing myself to let go and be.

My balcony is really private, there are no other buildings or balconies facing me only some houses 20 floors below. So although going out onto my balcony is not risky at all... it still felt thrilling and exciting and energizing because I was “out in public” wearing a bra. A bra and my shorts all pulled up high and short... my cock bulge ‘right there’ for all to see... mmmm. I felt naughty and liberated all at the same time.

I was even just wearing a camisole all afternoon... because it feels nice. It feels nice on my body and... it makes me feel nice about myself in a weird sort of way.

The feelings of my hands on my skin felt amazing and slowly caressing parts of me just came naturally... and as always find my nipples... oh god. At this point I’m already wearing a silky pair of white man panties (in my pics) and those blue shorts in my pics... they feel pretty silky and they stretch really nice on my ass and bulge
I felt so calm and relaxed and free... very free... and kinda ‘girly gay’ and really wanting to fag out so much with another ‘girly gay’ guy. Panties and bulges and kissing and grinding... arghhhh.. I was SO horny wanting to be with another guy who is just lusting like me to let his gay side out... be a little girly with another guy...

I definitely discovered ‘the girl’ in me
Published by Cock2CockFun
4 years ago
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vikkicd16
vikkicd16 3 months ago
hang w me
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 2 years ago
to MoS64 : mmmm   sounds wonderful.
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 2 years ago
to Tomgirls : The 'pot butter' sounds nice.  I've had some really nice body buzzes years ago, but would be curious to see if it made me horny and hard.  I'm sure it would.

" I am sure it would be quite exciting to be with another guy wearing panties and rubbing our hard cocks together until we make a big cummy mess in them."    OMG YES.  YES it would
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MoS64
I find that cannabis has the same effect on me too!  I get a bit flamboyant, sometimes dress up fem and get really horny. Sex is amazing in this state and can go on for a long time. Sounds like we would have an amazing time together. 😉
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Tomgirls
Tomgirls 2 years ago
I don't ever get headaches but I grow my own cannabis so I have an endless supply and smoke often.  Last year I made my own, "pot butter", and added some to my banana bread.  It is a totally different sensation from smoking.  More like a body buzz and it sure makes me feel horny and wanting to dress up and be a sissy fem boy.  I am sure it would be quite exciting to be with another guy wearing panties  and rubbing our hard cocks together until we make a big cummy mess in them.
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BigA69N 2 years ago
Not much on pot but I let my girly side out every chance I get. I got so I wear a bra and panties almost everyday.
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edwinsb51
edwinsb51 2 years ago
I would like to live as a woman 24/7
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DezDigger
DezDigger 2 years ago
I know I've experienced a "euphoria" when getting high. I find my alone time, and dressing up, was a lot more fun. Really enjoy your site
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kgbcd 2 years ago
Pot not so much but ecstasy definitely makes me feel all fem and gurly and yearning for some like minded company.
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dicknick555 3 years ago
pot has the same effect on me! i love it!
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sindy609
sindy609 3 years ago
i think we'd all like to have a panty pal!
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cds4me 3 years ago
to Cock2CockFun : Sounds like fun.  I would love to "fag out" with you.
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dicknick555 3 years ago
to Cock2CockFun : wish i had a friend, too
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 3 years ago
to dicknick555 : Isn't it just amazing and wonderful?  god I wish I had a friend like me to share with
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 3 years ago
to cds4me : Mmmmm   it's all I'm craving.  I want to fag out with another sexy guy and do so many gay things to each other till we are cummed out
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dicknick555 3 years ago
i feel the same way when i smoke
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boyblue55
boyblue55 3 years ago
Wow. Glad to hear that you experienced your softer side. I love wearing my cami too.
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cds4me 4 years ago
I loved reading this.  It really resonates with me.  When I get high I get so horny.  And lately when I get horny, all I crave is cock and cum.
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robbif69 4 years ago
so lovely. I am glad you discovered the guryl girl in you.  I wish we were closer and could help you explore and experiment more.  If you ever want to play on skype, robbif69, or some other c2c, maybe we can.  I know it is not the same, but it is something I have enjoyed doing a bit.
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redclay56
redclay56 4 years ago
to Cock2CockFun : I figured, it's a mysterious affliction. My big problem is the aura effect and the lingering disequilibrium; the headaches I tolerate fairly well. thanks for following up...
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 4 years ago
to redclay56 : The headache I had when I smoked the joint was just a mild one and not quite migraine status.  But it did go away not long after taking 3 or 4 tokes.  The husband of my friend actually takes edibles now for his.  Works for him.  I found a long time ago that the more weed I smoked ... I got headaches.  But because I'm just taking a couple of tokes, maybe it's having the reverse effect. 

I think there are so many people who get migraines but what I understand is that so many people have so many different symptoms and temporary cures that work for them, but don't work for many others.  I don't know what to tell ya man.
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redclay56
redclay56 4 years ago
So...does cannabis help your migraines? Mine have been getting more frequent and go on for days...
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 4 years ago
omg... sounds so slutty
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 4 years ago
to kgbcd : oh god.. those feelings are amazing... so hot knowing I'm not the only one.  I'd love to find someone close to me who really understands those feelings too
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Slutty_Erica 4 years ago
Stay on X-Ham, you'll change completely. Watch the hypno vids.
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mmmichaelmmm
mmmichaelmmm 4 years ago
to Cock2CockFun : I am sure there are many
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 4 years ago
god... you're adventurous... slut
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Cock2CockFun
Cock2CockFun Publisher 4 years ago
to mmmichaelmmm : omg really?   it's so good to to hear another guy say that... I love knowing other guys are hard and horny and love feeling fem
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mmmichaelmmm
mmmichaelmmm 4 years ago
Glad you got those feelings out. You have described perfectly how I feel in sexy satin, silk panties and camis and all things feminine
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kgbcd 4 years ago
Yeah, definitely know those feelings although not with weed, something a bit stronger shall we say...
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