When I knew I was attracted to black men
I was 18 and had just started going to a small college in upstate New York and I had a dorm room all to myself ,it was much ,it was real tiny but I didn't have to share with anyone .This was back in the late 1970s and the bathrooms and showers were at the end of the hall . I always waited to late so I didn't have to shower with anyone ,I was self concise because I was chubby and had a small dick .There were only males on the floor so most guys walked around with next to nothing on but I always wore sweat shorts and a tee shirt when I went to the take a shower . One night at about 9:30 I went to take a shower and found somebody else was in there too so I went to the last shower got undressed and took my shower ,as I got out and started to dry off the guy came out of the other shower .He was a black male maybe 19 or 20 about 5'6 maybe 140 lbs., I was 5'10 about 220 ,but what shocked me was the size of his cock it hung down his leg like a snake .I tried not to stare but couldn't help it ,it almost looked like a third leg , plus he was uncut I had never seen one before .Well while I am staring he looks up and catches me ,I get embarrassed and look away but he laughs and say " you like my cock white boi "
I turn beat red and tell him I wasn't looking at him but he walks up to me naked swinging his cock like a rope and a say "that's alright everybody looks at it ,you want to touch it?
I said no I'm not queer and turned around to get dressed but he walks up behind me starts rubbing my ass cheek telling me just touching his cock dose 't make me queer I turn and look at it and it is starting to get hard I couldn't believe how big it was [ now I know it was about 9 in ] .It was like my hand had a mind of it's own I reached out and felt his cock ,it was so warm and big .He took my hand and made me stroke him until he was hard then he pushed me to my knees and pulled my head towards his cock I had sucked off my holder brother a few times while I jerked mine but he wasn't near as big . I opened my mouth and felt him push it into my mouth ,I just knelt there as he worked his cock in and out of my mouth feeling him go deeper and deeper until he started to gag me ,I was loving it my little dick was so hard and then he stopped me . He said if I wanted to finish I would have to follow him to his room . I started to get dressed and he told me if I wanted his cock I would have to follow him naked .I didn't even think twice as I carried my clothes I tried to hid my hard dick but he made me put my hands at my side as he slowly walked to his room ,we passed to rooms where the doors were open and both guys saw me walking naked behind him and when we got to his room he took his time opening the door . Once in side he sat on his bed and had ne kneel on the floor and start to suck him ,he slowly worked my head back and forth telling me how good his black cock looked my white mouth and I was just a closet faggot who needed black men to show me the way .The more he talked the more turned on I was ,I could feel pre cum leaking out of my dick and I started to taste his pre cum it was driving me crazy I started sucking harder and faster ,he was pushing more and more cock into my mouth gagging me I had saliva running down his cock and out my nose ,I must have looked a mess ,He started working my head faster ,then he stopped pushed his cock in my mouth and came ,he came so much more then my brother I tried to swallow but some was running down my chin and out my nose ,when he finally stopped cumming he just held my head while his cock went soft and without even thinking I started to jerk my dick and when I came I caught it in my other hand . He saw that and smiled told me to wipe my cum on my face which I did ,then he told me get out and he would call me when he wanted me ,so I walked out of his room still naked carring my clothes cum all over me ,my head was in the clouds I didn;t realize I walked past two guys standing outside their room .The times I sucked off my brother once I came I lost all interest in in sex but after this i was still so horny when I got into my room I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe it was me ,my face was all flushed and shiny and I had shit dripping down my chest . I stood there looking at myself and jerked off again and ended up doing it twice more during the night .I slept with the cum and stuff still on me.
The next day I couldn't wait to see him but he just walked right past me like he didn't know me I couldn't under stand what I had done to upset him. Every night I would lay in my bed and go over what happened and jerk off ,my little dick was so sore and red but I couldn't stop.When I passed the guys in the hall who saw me ,I would hear faggot or cum face . I found out my black friend was named Neil but no matter what I did he would ignore me .Then about 10:00 afew nights later my dorm phone rang and it was Neil he told me to walk to his room naked and be there quick .I striped and almost ran down the hall to his room and knocked on the door he yelled for me to wait so I stood there naked in the hallway few what felt like an hour but was just a few minutes waiting for him .He opened the door he was wearing just shorts ,he turned around and walked back into his rook and I followed .He told me close the door and kneel ,he had me crawl to his bed where he was sitting .I crawled to him he told me take his shorts off and his semi hard cock popped out He said if I wanted it I would have to ask him .So I looked up at him and said "may I please suck your cock '
He looked down at me and said 'you mean my big black cock ,then say it"
I said 'my I please suck your big black cock sir " he smiled at me and said
"Sir I like that you are learning ,now you can suck my cock " I took his cock in my mouth and slowly started sucking him feeling him get bigger and bigger in my mouth ,he started face fucking me slowly telling me that I was made to please black cock and In was nothing but a white trash faggot .I was in heaven all I wanted to do was please him .He stopped me told me if I really wanted to be his bitch then I would have to let him fuck me .I had never had anything in my ass but my fingers and I was scared to death with the size of his cock but I knew I had to let him so I said ok . He told me if I wanted to get fucked I had to ask him right ,so I said "please sir fuck me with your big black cock . He told me get on my hands and knees on the floor ,he went and got something from a draw and I felt him rubbing something in my ass then he pushed in one of his fingers and it really felt good ,I never used and kind of lube when I fingered myself.Neil then pushed 2 then 3 fingers in me it hurt a bit but then felt good .He then told me to be still this would hurt a bit but that was too bad .I felt him put his cock head at my ass opening and start to push,I saw stars and begged him to stop but he kept slowly pushing into me I was crying I thought he would tear my ass open for good and how would I explain that to my parents .Finally he stopped called me baby girl and told me I was doing good ,then he started to pull out I could swear he was pulling my insides out though my ass ,then he pushed in again and it didn't hurt so bad ,after a few more pushes it stopped hurting and just felt weird like my ass was full then he was pumping away in me I was getting turned on knowing he was fucking me ,my dick started leaking and as he fucked me pre cum was flying all over .He was calling me all kinds of names as he fucked harder and faster my knees were getting sore from being pushed along the rug ,finally he pushed deep into me and he came ,as he shot he slowly worked his cock in and out of my ass .then stopped and pulled out of me .I felt his cum leak down my leg as he stood up ,I started to stand up he told me I had to clean his cock and he started to rub it on my face ,without even thinking of where it had been I took him into my mouth and cleaned him and to tell the truth it wasn't bad tasted like cum and ass ,While he was in my mouth I grabbed my dick and came right away, catching it in my left hand then rubbed it on my chest and neck . When he was done he sat on his bed told me get out so once again I did the walk of shame naked down the hall .for some reason I felt happy and complete like I knew who I was for the first time .
I saw Neil for the rest of the semester and gladly became his bitch ,I didn't care what others said I felt fulfilled .I also found other white guys who like black men and started hanging with them .We would have small parties and invite black guys to cum we would be naked waiting on the dancing and doing anything they wanted ,There were a few guys that could take 2 black cocks in their ass at the same time but as hard as I tried i couldn't .I lost track of how many black men used me in the four years I was there and once I got home I pretended like it never happened ,I started dating females and even got married and k**s but after about 10 years of marriage I got the urge again and started looking for cock and again then black cock and now I can't say no to a black man which has caused some unsettling things to happen
I turn beat red and tell him I wasn't looking at him but he walks up to me naked swinging his cock like a rope and a say "that's alright everybody looks at it ,you want to touch it?
I said no I'm not queer and turned around to get dressed but he walks up behind me starts rubbing my ass cheek telling me just touching his cock dose 't make me queer I turn and look at it and it is starting to get hard I couldn't believe how big it was [ now I know it was about 9 in ] .It was like my hand had a mind of it's own I reached out and felt his cock ,it was so warm and big .He took my hand and made me stroke him until he was hard then he pushed me to my knees and pulled my head towards his cock I had sucked off my holder brother a few times while I jerked mine but he wasn't near as big . I opened my mouth and felt him push it into my mouth ,I just knelt there as he worked his cock in and out of my mouth feeling him go deeper and deeper until he started to gag me ,I was loving it my little dick was so hard and then he stopped me . He said if I wanted to finish I would have to follow him to his room . I started to get dressed and he told me if I wanted his cock I would have to follow him naked .I didn't even think twice as I carried my clothes I tried to hid my hard dick but he made me put my hands at my side as he slowly walked to his room ,we passed to rooms where the doors were open and both guys saw me walking naked behind him and when we got to his room he took his time opening the door . Once in side he sat on his bed and had ne kneel on the floor and start to suck him ,he slowly worked my head back and forth telling me how good his black cock looked my white mouth and I was just a closet faggot who needed black men to show me the way .The more he talked the more turned on I was ,I could feel pre cum leaking out of my dick and I started to taste his pre cum it was driving me crazy I started sucking harder and faster ,he was pushing more and more cock into my mouth gagging me I had saliva running down his cock and out my nose ,I must have looked a mess ,He started working my head faster ,then he stopped pushed his cock in my mouth and came ,he came so much more then my brother I tried to swallow but some was running down my chin and out my nose ,when he finally stopped cumming he just held my head while his cock went soft and without even thinking I started to jerk my dick and when I came I caught it in my other hand . He saw that and smiled told me to wipe my cum on my face which I did ,then he told me get out and he would call me when he wanted me ,so I walked out of his room still naked carring my clothes cum all over me ,my head was in the clouds I didn;t realize I walked past two guys standing outside their room .The times I sucked off my brother once I came I lost all interest in in sex but after this i was still so horny when I got into my room I looked in the mirror and couldn't believe it was me ,my face was all flushed and shiny and I had shit dripping down my chest . I stood there looking at myself and jerked off again and ended up doing it twice more during the night .I slept with the cum and stuff still on me.
The next day I couldn't wait to see him but he just walked right past me like he didn't know me I couldn't under stand what I had done to upset him. Every night I would lay in my bed and go over what happened and jerk off ,my little dick was so sore and red but I couldn't stop.When I passed the guys in the hall who saw me ,I would hear faggot or cum face . I found out my black friend was named Neil but no matter what I did he would ignore me .Then about 10:00 afew nights later my dorm phone rang and it was Neil he told me to walk to his room naked and be there quick .I striped and almost ran down the hall to his room and knocked on the door he yelled for me to wait so I stood there naked in the hallway few what felt like an hour but was just a few minutes waiting for him .He opened the door he was wearing just shorts ,he turned around and walked back into his rook and I followed .He told me close the door and kneel ,he had me crawl to his bed where he was sitting .I crawled to him he told me take his shorts off and his semi hard cock popped out He said if I wanted it I would have to ask him .So I looked up at him and said "may I please suck your cock '
He looked down at me and said 'you mean my big black cock ,then say it"
I said 'my I please suck your big black cock sir " he smiled at me and said
"Sir I like that you are learning ,now you can suck my cock " I took his cock in my mouth and slowly started sucking him feeling him get bigger and bigger in my mouth ,he started face fucking me slowly telling me that I was made to please black cock and In was nothing but a white trash faggot .I was in heaven all I wanted to do was please him .He stopped me told me if I really wanted to be his bitch then I would have to let him fuck me .I had never had anything in my ass but my fingers and I was scared to death with the size of his cock but I knew I had to let him so I said ok . He told me if I wanted to get fucked I had to ask him right ,so I said "please sir fuck me with your big black cock . He told me get on my hands and knees on the floor ,he went and got something from a draw and I felt him rubbing something in my ass then he pushed in one of his fingers and it really felt good ,I never used and kind of lube when I fingered myself.Neil then pushed 2 then 3 fingers in me it hurt a bit but then felt good .He then told me to be still this would hurt a bit but that was too bad .I felt him put his cock head at my ass opening and start to push,I saw stars and begged him to stop but he kept slowly pushing into me I was crying I thought he would tear my ass open for good and how would I explain that to my parents .Finally he stopped called me baby girl and told me I was doing good ,then he started to pull out I could swear he was pulling my insides out though my ass ,then he pushed in again and it didn't hurt so bad ,after a few more pushes it stopped hurting and just felt weird like my ass was full then he was pumping away in me I was getting turned on knowing he was fucking me ,my dick started leaking and as he fucked me pre cum was flying all over .He was calling me all kinds of names as he fucked harder and faster my knees were getting sore from being pushed along the rug ,finally he pushed deep into me and he came ,as he shot he slowly worked his cock in and out of my ass .then stopped and pulled out of me .I felt his cum leak down my leg as he stood up ,I started to stand up he told me I had to clean his cock and he started to rub it on my face ,without even thinking of where it had been I took him into my mouth and cleaned him and to tell the truth it wasn't bad tasted like cum and ass ,While he was in my mouth I grabbed my dick and came right away, catching it in my left hand then rubbed it on my chest and neck . When he was done he sat on his bed told me get out so once again I did the walk of shame naked down the hall .for some reason I felt happy and complete like I knew who I was for the first time .
I saw Neil for the rest of the semester and gladly became his bitch ,I didn't care what others said I felt fulfilled .I also found other white guys who like black men and started hanging with them .We would have small parties and invite black guys to cum we would be naked waiting on the dancing and doing anything they wanted ,There were a few guys that could take 2 black cocks in their ass at the same time but as hard as I tried i couldn't .I lost track of how many black men used me in the four years I was there and once I got home I pretended like it never happened ,I started dating females and even got married and k**s but after about 10 years of marriage I got the urge again and started looking for cock and again then black cock and now I can't say no to a black man which has caused some unsettling things to happen
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