How I returned to crossdressing

I am still not sure why I put on a pair of my wife's knickers when I had not crossdressed for such a long time, but I enjoyed it very much. After being married so many years our sex life had faded away. I had always looked at pornography throughout our marriage, firstly men's magazines and then on the internet.
I liked wearing the knickers a lot but I felt uncomfortable about wearing my wife's. So I bought some of my own and kept them hidden from her. I bought tights as well and stockings and suspender belts. Then I bought a dress on eBay in an auction. It was a teal colour and was clingy and came down to my mid thigh.
I suddenly realised I could discreetly get other women's clothes on eBay without spending a lot of money. I bought very high heeled shoes and watched videos on YouTube about how to walk in them. I bought more dresses and lingerie. I bought my first wig.
My most expensive purchase was a pair of large breast forms that gave me an impressive bust. I felt feminine and I felt fantastic.
I took every opportunity to crossdress at home. I also began to wear knickers instead of underpants when I went to work. Sometimes I wore tights under my trousers. It felt wonderful.
I also began to look at photos of other crossdressers. At first it was to gain inspiration and I suppose to get reassurance that there were other people like me. I soon realised that I was becoming aroused by the photos and also by the photos of crossdressers with men. I still remember vividly the first time I came when I was looking at a picture of a gorgeous crossdresser in sexy black lingerie being fucked by a man.
I started fantasizing that it was me in the photos. I wondered what it would be like to suck a cock and to be fucked by one. So I bought a dildo and then some anal beads and then a butt plug. I built up quite a collection of anal toys.
Of course eventually I got careless and I realised my wife knew about my secret when I discovered she had washed a pair of my knickers and put them away in my normal underwear drawer.
I will talk about that in my next post.