When did I find out that I was an Fat Admirer &quo

The first time that I knew when I was different from most men in society, was when I first started going through puberty & started to notice Women in a much different light than before.

I remember it was in early October of 1972 while I was a Freshman in High School. It was a beautiful day that faithful afternoon when school had let out. I remember the sun was shining, all the trees & yards were still green, with a very slight warm breeze. So like I said school just let out & many of the school buses had not yet arrived, so many of the k**s were standing out in the yard waiting.

I was always very quite & shy in school so I was standing by myself. There were 4 or 5 Jocks all standing together talking among each other only a few yards away. I over heard them talking about things when they noticed a Cheerleader walking by in her Cheerleader's outfit. All of them were commenting on her of how they thought she was so so sexy & of course what they would want to do to her. I looked at her titled my head and took a really hard look at her. For the life of Me I couldn't see what was so beautiful & sexy about her. She was skin & bones ! She had No thighs, No hips ! No nothing other than her breasts were huge for her size & rib cage I would say maybe her cup size was BBB or C if that.

Moments later I saw this very short young lady entering her school bus & she was about 5' 2" and weighed approx 220 lbs or, so with medium long blonde hair. OH MY GOSH that very same moment I had instantly a huge lump in my throat, I had the feeling of a spear went through my heart, my palms became clammy & my knees had a sensation of buckling.

She was with out the doubt the most beautiful & sexy Woman I had ever laid eyes on.

I knew right then and there that I was different from the rest of the men in society. I felt if I had ever told anyone about my physical attraction to "Women of Size" that I would be ridicule. So I just kept it held inside right in the very depth of my soul, where I hold all my truth's who I am & that can never, never change about Me.

It wasn't until around 1997 or so I got my first computer & got on the internet, I started to search around & found out to my complete surprise that, not only I was not alone that there were lot's of Men who were attracted BBW's & SSBBW's. But also I had found out that there were a very few select Women that indeed "Embraced who they were" and was so very proudly to show to the whole world how Beautiful & Sensuous they were.

To this day I have never wavered of who I am. And I stand up Proudly to this day and applaud all the Women of Size who like years past and say "I am Beautiful, I am Sexy, I am Sensuous" to the whole world.