My oldest dark fantasy
I have vaginismus and I've never been with a man. But since I was in secondary school, long before I worked out I was gay, I have had a fantasy about being well, I guess, m*****ed by a dirty old man. And the fantasy has never really gone away.
I guess it started listening to the older girls talking about being groped on the bus to school, and my fantasy grew from there. Now don't get me wrong. The reality would have been horrible and this is purely fantasy. Here it is:
I am traveling home on the bus in my school uniform. I'm sitting by the window when, at the next stop, an old man in his late 60 or 70s gets on and sits right down next to me, even though there are other available seats. I stare out the window, lost in thought.
Without even looking at me, the next thing I feel is his pinkie stroking my outer thigh, below the hem of my skirt. It's spring, so my legs are bare.
It's just a light touch, but I move my leg away and he stops for a minute. Then I feel him touching my leg again. This time his whole hand is stroking my knee.
My mind races. I don't know what to do. I feel unsure and helpless. I squirm and try to push past him to leave but he uses his weight to pin me against the window and the seat.
His hands is under my skirt stroking my sensitive soft inner thigh. Having never been touched there before I bite my lower lip and feel my body betray me as it reacts to his rough hands groping underneath my skirt.
Higher and higher his fingers travel up my leg. With his other hand he lifts my leg and moves it over his. He's parting my legs and exposing access to my now soaked panties.
I try to stop him by grabbing his arm but he forces my arms behind me.
I squirm and breath heavily as I feel him tracing the outline of my wet panties. His creepy smile widens as he feels how wet I am.
Leaning in close I feel his breath on my neck as he whispers, “You fucking slut. You're all wet'” I try to constrain a moan as he strokes my virginal pussy though my knickers.
Should I go on? Does anyone else have similar fantasies?
I guess it started listening to the older girls talking about being groped on the bus to school, and my fantasy grew from there. Now don't get me wrong. The reality would have been horrible and this is purely fantasy. Here it is:
I am traveling home on the bus in my school uniform. I'm sitting by the window when, at the next stop, an old man in his late 60 or 70s gets on and sits right down next to me, even though there are other available seats. I stare out the window, lost in thought.
Without even looking at me, the next thing I feel is his pinkie stroking my outer thigh, below the hem of my skirt. It's spring, so my legs are bare.
It's just a light touch, but I move my leg away and he stops for a minute. Then I feel him touching my leg again. This time his whole hand is stroking my knee.
My mind races. I don't know what to do. I feel unsure and helpless. I squirm and try to push past him to leave but he uses his weight to pin me against the window and the seat.
His hands is under my skirt stroking my sensitive soft inner thigh. Having never been touched there before I bite my lower lip and feel my body betray me as it reacts to his rough hands groping underneath my skirt.
Higher and higher his fingers travel up my leg. With his other hand he lifts my leg and moves it over his. He's parting my legs and exposing access to my now soaked panties.
I try to stop him by grabbing his arm but he forces my arms behind me.
I squirm and breath heavily as I feel him tracing the outline of my wet panties. His creepy smile widens as he feels how wet I am.
Leaning in close I feel his breath on my neck as he whispers, “You fucking slut. You're all wet'” I try to constrain a moan as he strokes my virginal pussy though my knickers.
Should I go on? Does anyone else have similar fantasies?
2 years ago
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