Evolving Via Xhamster
In retrospect, It's been very interesting as I've delved into the various things I do here on Xham... the voyeuring, the exploring, the vids, the chats, the camming with Xham friends.
It started probably like many if not most, just the exciting aspect of hopping onto the site to look at naked people fucking and sucking. It was stimulating, somewhat risky feeling, and I certainly wasn't going to sign up for anything, for goodness sake!! I was in awe of people posting and in heaven, as there was so much that turned me on and caused me to stroke to orgasm, that I could not believe. And it just kept coming, more and more content!!
After a while, I was bookmarking different "best of" pages for myself, to come back and play with myself to. I started creating sub-folders of favorites in my browser's bookmarks section.
I finally developed enough comfort that I was willing to sign up, so I had to create a name, and a fake email address to work with that. Even that process brought excitement and anticipation. What would happen once I was on the "inside" of Xham? Ultimately, I built up the courage to sign on. And the result? Simba45.
For a while, it was great, and then I realized that I could favorite videos in Xham... and then the sub-folders. Up until that time, no friending, nope, not going to cross that line!! ;-) Whenever I'd get a request, a hit of adrenaline would shoot through me, and I'd quickly delete the request, fearing the unknown, fearing being exposed.
My next toe-in-the-water was to subscribe and favorite the profiles I was most turned on by, thinking that they would be pleased that another fan had expressed appreciation. It took me a while to figure out that many of those that I favorited had thousands of friends and favorites, a bit of a revelation.
I was leaving comments on vids, on pix in galleries, and cumming every morning as I leafed through the amazing content that kept coming my way. So fucking cool! Some of the people who had posted content would respond with very courteous comments to my comments, often a gentle "Thank you for your comments" or "Glad it makes you happy", which turned me on, and so I started craving more interaction with them.
I finally decided to express my appreciation via the chat function here, and was absolutely stunned when answers came back. some positive, some negative, but all stimulating!
Then came the bold (haha!) step: Asking to friend. I've got no content, and no profile comments, nothing. And "Bam!", did I get slapped down for that! I realized how foolish it was for me to be so fearful of exposure, on a site where individuals, couples and groups all show themselves naked, fucking, sucking, cumming, rimming, on and on... and I'm nervous about posting something in my profile. So, that was next!
Finally, I realized I needed to get some content together. My wife was not interested in participating, and I'm not the kind to have an affair, so I'm solo. What to do? I watched the guys who were tributing, and fascinated about how many husbands wanted men to shoot pix and vids of their cocks cumming over a pic or vid of their wives. LOTS. I mean LOTS!!! So, I'm like, "Okay, how do I do that?" And that's what led me to the next level.
I did a few dick pics over my ipad that showed another's wife. Totally exciting. I posted, and shared via chat, and amazingly the husbands would start posting more pix in my chat. I'd jack off more and shoot the pix back. Super exciting!
I then realized that I have been making videos in my work using software, it would be simple to just take off my clothes, drop the camera down and do screensharing with me superimposed. Then the multi-screen idea. Then, the multi-camera idea.
I started coming up with sexually charged ideas that might work, first the tribs, and the resulting chatting (super exciting to me) then the multi-screens, then more friending, chatting, then the first camchat (I was REALLY nervous), but along the way there were plenty "what-if?"s that didn't that didn't get off the ground and are still quite stimulating in my mind.
Seeing every type (well most...) of sexual activity, I was finding that there were things that I had assumed I was not drawn to (or simply dismissive of), that actually were quite exciting. Beyond the "normal" attractions I had to all things feminine, couples fucking, groups fucking, blowjobs, etc., I found the new exposure to other activities were drawing me back as well. Double penetrations, cuckolding, bisex, and more, kept causing me erections and challenging my sense of sexuality.
I thought long and hard (no pun intended) about it all... Why did I get so turned on watching cumshots? Milky strands in slow motion flying through the air, bouncing off of breasts, nipples, mouths, pussies, mirrors. Why is it that in most double cock blowjobs, the minute the first guy cums, the second guy cums immediately? It's the same thing, my lizard brain sees that and puts my cock into high gear.
I started doing more videos (about the same time that Xhamster started throttling uploads... I have 12 vids in "review" for the last two months, that's another story), and just dropping the dropbox URL into friends' chat channels, and finding that exciting.
Then, the invites to cam with others. Scared me to death, initially! I very, very, very carefully explored how to do that and be anonymous. First a camchat website that I could control who came into my room. Then Skype (NOT a fan, really), then Whereby.com, which I think is brilliant for camchat! And soon, I tried camjacking with Oldcuck, and it was so exciting. I was watching his vids of his threesomes, and we just jacked away, and I came, and it was awesome.
My mind kept coming up with more interesting combinations and things to try, and sometimes they worked, and sometimes they didn't. Multi-cock camjack tributing, yeah, I did it first!
But it's all good fun!
So, with that little philosophical gem above, I don't forget that the reason I'm on Xham now, is to be excited and to give excitement in return. I love turning people on. It turns me on. Female or male. Every time I get a new Xham friend who I can tell is being stimulated by my urging them to try something they haven't, I get hard, immediately, and that's the best way in the world to wake up!
With that, post your pussy and cock pix on my chat channel, I LOVE waking up to raw sex and flesh!!
Simba45
It started probably like many if not most, just the exciting aspect of hopping onto the site to look at naked people fucking and sucking. It was stimulating, somewhat risky feeling, and I certainly wasn't going to sign up for anything, for goodness sake!! I was in awe of people posting and in heaven, as there was so much that turned me on and caused me to stroke to orgasm, that I could not believe. And it just kept coming, more and more content!!
After a while, I was bookmarking different "best of" pages for myself, to come back and play with myself to. I started creating sub-folders of favorites in my browser's bookmarks section.
I finally developed enough comfort that I was willing to sign up, so I had to create a name, and a fake email address to work with that. Even that process brought excitement and anticipation. What would happen once I was on the "inside" of Xham? Ultimately, I built up the courage to sign on. And the result? Simba45.
For a while, it was great, and then I realized that I could favorite videos in Xham... and then the sub-folders. Up until that time, no friending, nope, not going to cross that line!! ;-) Whenever I'd get a request, a hit of adrenaline would shoot through me, and I'd quickly delete the request, fearing the unknown, fearing being exposed.
My next toe-in-the-water was to subscribe and favorite the profiles I was most turned on by, thinking that they would be pleased that another fan had expressed appreciation. It took me a while to figure out that many of those that I favorited had thousands of friends and favorites, a bit of a revelation.
I was leaving comments on vids, on pix in galleries, and cumming every morning as I leafed through the amazing content that kept coming my way. So fucking cool! Some of the people who had posted content would respond with very courteous comments to my comments, often a gentle "Thank you for your comments" or "Glad it makes you happy", which turned me on, and so I started craving more interaction with them.
I finally decided to express my appreciation via the chat function here, and was absolutely stunned when answers came back. some positive, some negative, but all stimulating!
Then came the bold (haha!) step: Asking to friend. I've got no content, and no profile comments, nothing. And "Bam!", did I get slapped down for that! I realized how foolish it was for me to be so fearful of exposure, on a site where individuals, couples and groups all show themselves naked, fucking, sucking, cumming, rimming, on and on... and I'm nervous about posting something in my profile. So, that was next!
Finally, I realized I needed to get some content together. My wife was not interested in participating, and I'm not the kind to have an affair, so I'm solo. What to do? I watched the guys who were tributing, and fascinated about how many husbands wanted men to shoot pix and vids of their cocks cumming over a pic or vid of their wives. LOTS. I mean LOTS!!! So, I'm like, "Okay, how do I do that?" And that's what led me to the next level.
I did a few dick pics over my ipad that showed another's wife. Totally exciting. I posted, and shared via chat, and amazingly the husbands would start posting more pix in my chat. I'd jack off more and shoot the pix back. Super exciting!
I then realized that I have been making videos in my work using software, it would be simple to just take off my clothes, drop the camera down and do screensharing with me superimposed. Then the multi-screen idea. Then, the multi-camera idea.
I started coming up with sexually charged ideas that might work, first the tribs, and the resulting chatting (super exciting to me) then the multi-screens, then more friending, chatting, then the first camchat (I was REALLY nervous), but along the way there were plenty "what-if?"s that didn't that didn't get off the ground and are still quite stimulating in my mind.
Seeing every type (well most...) of sexual activity, I was finding that there were things that I had assumed I was not drawn to (or simply dismissive of), that actually were quite exciting. Beyond the "normal" attractions I had to all things feminine, couples fucking, groups fucking, blowjobs, etc., I found the new exposure to other activities were drawing me back as well. Double penetrations, cuckolding, bisex, and more, kept causing me erections and challenging my sense of sexuality.
I thought long and hard (no pun intended) about it all... Why did I get so turned on watching cumshots? Milky strands in slow motion flying through the air, bouncing off of breasts, nipples, mouths, pussies, mirrors. Why is it that in most double cock blowjobs, the minute the first guy cums, the second guy cums immediately? It's the same thing, my lizard brain sees that and puts my cock into high gear.
I started doing more videos (about the same time that Xhamster started throttling uploads... I have 12 vids in "review" for the last two months, that's another story), and just dropping the dropbox URL into friends' chat channels, and finding that exciting.
Then, the invites to cam with others. Scared me to death, initially! I very, very, very carefully explored how to do that and be anonymous. First a camchat website that I could control who came into my room. Then Skype (NOT a fan, really), then Whereby.com, which I think is brilliant for camchat! And soon, I tried camjacking with Oldcuck, and it was so exciting. I was watching his vids of his threesomes, and we just jacked away, and I came, and it was awesome.
My mind kept coming up with more interesting combinations and things to try, and sometimes they worked, and sometimes they didn't. Multi-cock camjack tributing, yeah, I did it first!
But it's all good fun!
So, with that little philosophical gem above, I don't forget that the reason I'm on Xham now, is to be excited and to give excitement in return. I love turning people on. It turns me on. Female or male. Every time I get a new Xham friend who I can tell is being stimulated by my urging them to try something they haven't, I get hard, immediately, and that's the best way in the world to wake up!
With that, post your pussy and cock pix on my chat channel, I LOVE waking up to raw sex and flesh!!
Simba45
3 years ago
