My Very First Homo Dreams and Desires

I don't know just how far I can go but this is how I started and It is all a real and true story.  I was young and dumb and full of cum just like most boys and as usual I grew up with no Daddy at home so it was me and my older Sister living with my mom who at the time was doing gawd knows what as far as working I never knew what she was doing.  My sis ended up running away so I was left alone with my fucking alcoholic mom and all the guys that came through our house.  This one guy she was seeing (fucking) he started as just being our pool cleaning guy (yes we had a swimming pool I our back yard)  anyways I used to watch him from my bedroom window he would wear these hot skin tight swim shorts they were like 2 sizes to small and I fucking couldn't stop looking at his so fucking gorgeous cock bulge omg I dreamed and so fantasized about just wanting to touch it and I got all hard and wet sucking on my fingers dreaming about his big hard dick and what it really looked like I wanted to so touch it so bad, eventually he caught me watching him through my bedroom window and that's when he took his fucking so sexy beautiful cock out and was playing with it right outside my bedroom window, I was like omg I hope he didn't see me but he did and he stroked that big hard beautiful cock of his right by my window it was like right then I knew that I was a horny little cock lusting fag boy and I didn't even care It was like 2 days later that he came into my bedroom while my drunk ass mom was passout  and he laid his cock on my lips and face.  I so eagerly took his big hard cock between my lips and litterally  sucked him all the down to his balls I was like in pure heaven I fucking couldn't believe that he was inside my mouth and that I didn't pull away or be surprised I just so really loved it I let him do what ever he wanted making love to his cock with my mouth was like I was in heaven I never wanted it to end I was so really moaning in pure lust and desire. That very first taste of a mans cock was like floating on a cloud or something.......  I so eagerly sucked and licked and kiss that man cock with all of the pleasure I could.....  I'll never ever forget that so yummy taste of his cock and yes he did force me too taste his cum it took me a little while to really love when he wanted me to lick his cum and he would make me play with his sweet load in my mouth.  There were even a lot of times where I made love to his cock right in front of my fucking drunk passed out mother and I didn't even care if she knew there were times when I wished that she did catch me and her BF fucking and sucking each other that I so really didn't even care.  This went on for 3 years until they broke up but I still kept seeing him and even a lot of his friends.....   making love to him and 3 of his friends at the same time I was like in so total heaven.... I so couldn't believe that I the center of attraction for these men, I wanted please them so bad the more they called me names like a sexy cock boy and a fag boy the more I knew that I had to so totally please them......  I still so fucking crave being used sexually by much older mature men and I always will Pleasing men is what I so love to do no matter what it takes