The Story of MarieRocks

MarieRocks is my Tyler Durden. If you have read or seen “Fight Club”, you know who Tyler Durden is. Much like ‘Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde’, Tyler Durden is Jack’s alternate personality that will do all the fun, crazy, sexual and destructive things that Jack is too afraid to do on his own. ‘MarieRocks’ is the obsessive masturbator and exhibitionist in me.

I discovered the joy of masturbation at age 16, and it has been a daily habit since. If I do some math on 46 years of self-pleasure, I can conservatively say that I have engaged over 20,000 masturbation sessions over the years. Considering that I usually have multiple orgasms, we are talking about 50,000 or so orgasms!

Until I was 40, my masturbation was private. Growing up in the 1960s and 1970s, masturbation was a taboo topic. People just weren’t as open-minded about it back then. If my family would have known how much I was masturbating, they would have sent me for psychiatric treatment. I so looked forward to the times when I was home alone, so I could hide in my room and “let my fingers do the walking” (those of you closer to my age will get that reference).

The first time I achieved orgasm, it scared me. What I know now that I didn’t know then is that I climax more fully and intensely than most women. So, when it hit, I truly thought for a second that I was possessed by a demon or something. I was frightened, but I absolutely could not and would not stop. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever felt, and I wanted more. From the very start, I have always pleasured myself with an intense fury. Why bother with foreplay on yourself? I wanted to get off! I did it every day and it was (and still is) beautiful.

College is when I discovered masturbating in the shower. Living in the dorms does not provide a great deal of privacy, but the shower is the one place where I could have my playspace. I found it so erotic to masturbate standing up, with the water flowing all over me. But doing it in the dorm shower also introduced me to my exhibitionist side. There were almost always other girls in the showers when I was in there, so I was doing it just feet away from other people, only separated by a thin sheet of plastic. I learned how to suppress the noise while having monumental orgasms.

I maintained that level of masturbation and exhibitionism for another 22 years. Being a professional career woman, I would often go to the gym on my lunch hour. Besides the obvious health and fitness benefits, it also afforded me the opportunity to release tension and get my rocks off before heading back to the office. That was as far as the public aspect of it went… Until about the time I turned 40. That is when MarieRocks made a grand entrance.

It was 1995 in Chesterfield, MO, a suburb of St. Louis. It was a beautiful spring day, temperature in the high 70s. I was enjoying it, lounging on my deck and reading a good book. In my area of town, there are no fences for privacy, very open. The limited privacy provided by shrubs, trees, landscape and sight angles is all there is. My deck took advantage of those forms of cover, but anyone could come walking through without any obstacles if they wished.

I began to become aware that I was gradually growing hornier over the time I was outside. I tried to ignore it and think it away, but it kept coming, growing stronger. My MarieRocks persona was coming to life. The next thing I knew, I quickly removed all of my clothing and masturbated with a fury like never before. I was aware of how exposed I was, but was powerless to stop. It was the ultimate mind-fuck. It was then that I realized how much I enjoyed the thought of being “caught”. But, given my career at the time, I didn’t want to actually BE caught. So my dilemma was how to scratch that masturbating exhibitionist itch in a “safe” way. What’s a girl to do?

Around this time, the internet was just beginning to come to life. So, of course, internet porn was also born. This changed everything. Amateur pornstars were popping up everywhere. I was fascinated by the notion that a “regular” woman could become a sex performer without giving up her day job or having to adopt the usual pornstar lifestyle. But I wasn’t certain that I had the stuff, so I made a decision at age 45 that changed my life forever: I decided to post a photo of myself naked on the internet, to see if guys thought that I “still had it”. To play it safe, I blurred out my face.

I was not prepared for the response. The tidal wave of praise and admiration was intoxicating. People all over the world were telling me that I had the best body they had ever seen, and that they pleasured themselves frequently to my images. I totally understand why celebrities seem to lose touch with reality. The worship of fans really feeds the ego. As I kept posting more photos, my thirst for the praise of fans grew. Just Tyler Durden, MarieRocks was beginning to exert influence over me.

I decided to take the next step and start my own Yahoo group. Some of you long-time fans may remember that. Storage space was limited so the videos I uploaded were small and short. But even so, my reputation grew and many more people found my version of porn/erotica to be exactly what the doctor order. I had added masturbation to my content by then and was garnering attention for the crazy faces and noises I make while cumming. Before I knew it, my group had amassed 30,000 members! I had actually done it. I was a pornstar. My transition to MarieRocks was complete, but there was so much more the come.

But there was a slight problem. Yahoo groups were limited in their capability to share content. This is when the tube sites began popping up. One evening, I came across a site called XHAMSTER. And the rest is history. I set up my profile and began posting my content. The more the fans responded, the more it drove me to make more and better content.

At the same time, the true nature of MarieRocks emerged. More of a star of “erotica” than “porn”, Marie is a solo performer, wanting all the attention and the sexual pleasure for herself. She is self-centered and narcissistic. She doesn’t so much perform for an audience as she does let the audience see a glimpse of what she was going to be doing anyway. You get a peek inside my warped mind.

So, here I am today. I’m 62 as of this writing and have never been so happy sexually in my life. MarieRocks completes me, and you get to watch. I may change my mind about her somewhere down the road, but for now, she is taking me on an incredible journey. Tyler Durden ended up almost killing Jack. MarieRocks has taken over and I couldn’t be happier.

Thank you to all my loyal and enthusiastic fans out there. I appreciate each and every one of you. Let’s spread the joy! Xoxo Marie