Fit To Be Tied

I just hopped back onto xHamster after being away for 3 years so this blog covers some of what has gone on with me since 2013 when I signed off.

Let's see...Back in 2013 my Preacher Dad was delivering weekly fire-and-brimstone sermons at his Baptist church...My Pastor husband was building up his non-denominational congregation and delivering messages of goodwill instead of my Dad's damnation...My two daughters were 5 years old and 3 years old and I was pregnant with my third ch*ild...We had just adopted a German Shepard pup by the name of Angel...My girlfriend Danica and me were hopelessly teasing my 18 year-old yard boy Sonny....AND I was in a “normal” sexual relationship with my husband while I struggled with how to let him know about my dark desires to have him bondage me.

Now, fast forward to today...My Dad is still doing the jig in his white shoes at the pulpit while he seeks to cast out the devil...My husband's congregation has more than doubled in size and it's a very uplifting place to be on a Sunday morning...I gave birth to a healthy girl and now our daughters are 8, 6 & 2 years old...Our German Shepard dog, Angel, is the best dog ever, even if she is a bit mischievous...My girlfriend Danica has moved to Lincoln, Nebraska, after letting yard boy Sonny cum on one of her thighs..Sonny is a full-time student at the University of Texas...My husband knows about my desire to be bondaged and our sex life is a bit more kinky...AND I'm seeing a married man on the side and I'm doing things I've always wanted to do with a man.

Now, some more detail...

My Husband and Our Sex Life

Okay, so by some standards, my sex life with my husband has been pretty good. We fuck at least once a day and maybe a dozen times a week. Hubby gets plenty of blowjobs and he's really good at eating my pussy.

There are limits though. Hubby still won't fuck me up the ass or do me in the doggy position. Also, he insists on cumming inside my pussy instead of on my body or face or in my mouth. Hubby just does not believe that women – and especially his wife - should be treated in “disrespectful”ways.

So, my big deal, still, is my need for a man – hopefully my husband – to at least occasionally degrade, humiliate, use and abuse me and treat me like a piece of fuckmeat. I think I know where this desire comes from. It goes way back to my preacher Dad. But, unlike a few years ago, I'm not caring anymore about getting too deep into that or trying to fix it. It's just me and I accept it.

But at least, finally, on Christmas of 2013 I got up the nerve to reveal those bondage desires to my husband. Here's how I did it. I had a little safe that I kept all my bondage toys inside of. But I never showed hubby the contents of my safe. That was, until that Christmas morning when I shoved all those sex toys in hubby's stocking that was hanging above the fireplace.

On Christmas morning my husband opened the stocking to discover a butt plug, a ball gag, some rope, a dog collar and leash, a dog food bowl with my name on it, and a paddle. But the silly guy thought the butt plug was a sink drain stopper and everything else was meant for our dog Angel except for the paddle, which he took as a clue that I wanted a ping-pong table.

So later that night after our k*ids went to bed I spelled it all out for my husband by showing him a bunch of porn videos of women getting tied up and used like sluts and I told him that's exactly how I want to be treated at least once in a blue moon.

At first my husband was shocked and speechless. He just couldn't believe that I was that kind of girl. Then he kept asking me why I wanted to be treated like a whore instead of a devoted wife and mom. I told him, “I really don't know why but please treat me that way sometimes.” But he's made it very clear to me that he can never treat me that way. In his words, “it's just not happening.”

Well, at least I got half of what I wanted - I got my husband to know me and even accept me for who I am. It didn't happen right away but now he lets me watch dirty porn whenever I want to and I don't have to hide it from him and my sex toys are sc*attered all over the house.

There is something else going on though and it's not something I expected or can explain. Now that I'm out in the open with him about this bondage thing it turns out that he is showing me his submissive streak. He's always begging for my strap-on and I give it to him good. And he licks my asshole too and loves for me to urinate on his face and cock. But there is no way to turn those tables. He'll never, ever, fuck me from behind, do anal on me or let me lick his asshole. Very strange.

Perhaps what is most ludicrous is that my husband will indeed tie me up. Sometimes he'll restrain me spread-eagled on our bed. Other times he'll hog-tie me on the living room carpet when the k*ids aren't around. After I'm roped up like a piece of cattle I really need him to fuck me. Or, at least circle me and taunt me and degrade me. I want him to call me a bitch, a cunt-hole or let me know that I'm just a three-holed fuck-slut with a pair of tits. I want him to finger me, slap my face and tits, spank my butt, then cum on my body and face and hose it off with his hot piss. But he does none of that.

The thing is that he really doesn't want to tie me up. He only does it because he thinks I'll like it. It's kind of like your wife or girlfriend saying to you, “Okay, I'll suck your cock if you *really* want me to.” That takes all the fun out of it. Instead of treating me like a worthless cunt after he ties me up, my husband asks me nicely when I want to get untied and then he goes out and mows the lawn, watches T.V. or studies the Bible. What fun is that?

Still, you know, we are making some progress and I'm grateful for that and whose marriage is 100% perfect anyway?

A Married Man is Attending to my Dark Desires

A little over a year ago I was in charge of organizing our summer church picnic. Our committee was kind of large but most all of the real work was done by me and this man in our congregation by the name of Dennis.

Dennis is 52 years old and he's married. My husband and I have been great friends with Dennis and his fam*ily for around 7 years now.

Anyway, Dennis and I had arranged to meet over at my house last year at noon to go over our plans for the church picnic. Dennis arrived on time but I was running late with some errands and taking my daughters to pre-school. So Dennis called me on the cell and I told him where the house key was hidden and that he should just let himself in and I'd be home in about half an hour.

Right after I hung up my cell I realized - to my horror – that I had spaced out and left all my sex toys out in the open. My vibes and dildos were on the kitchen counter-tops...my sybian machine was in front of the television...the cum that I had milked out of my husband's cock that morning was in a little cup on the dining room table... and my laptop was open with a hard cock showing as my screen-saver. Not exactly what a pastor wife's house should look like. What a fuck-head I was!

I was *so* embarrassed when I got up the nerve to walk in my own home and see Dennis. What would he think? What would he do? We had flirted in church a little like I do with some of the men there. But this was something else altogether.

But, as it turned out, it was an icebreaker. Dennis was a little embarrassed himself but he told me that it was just human nature and we shouldn't be ashamed. And that day we didn't talk about the church picnic at all. I didn't say too much about myself right then but Dennis confessed that the sex with his wife was pretty much nothing for most of their marriage and he hadn't even gotten a blowjob from his wife in over 10 years.

That night I tossed and turned in bed as I debated in my own mind about whether I should really come out and tell Dennis about my dark desires. Somehow, I just knew instinctively that he was a pervert deep inside and that maybe this was the man that I was looking for to fill my filthy needs.

Well, sure enough, the next time we got together I asked Dennis if he was looking for a woman who would not only suck his cock but let him have his way with her. Dennis knew immediately what I was angling at and he just said in a soft but commanding voice, “Let's just do this. We don't need to tell your husband or my wife. Let's just do this.”

That's all that I needed to hear. Immediately, we decided to meet up once a week at a hotel about an hour up the road. To avoid being seen together in my small town, we would both take our own cars. There, at the hotel, he would own my cunt and asshole and anything else of mine. And I would perform all the lewd acts on him that he had ever masturbated about.

So, that's what we've been doing. At first his wife would baby-sit my daughters while I went off and had sex with her husband. And, every so often, Dennis's 30 year old daughter would watch over my k*ids while I played with her Dad. Of course, his wife and daughter still don't have a clue to this day about what we do in the next town over.

Nowadays, each Saturday is my official “Mommy's Day Off” and that's when Dennis and I do our rendezvous at the hotel or out in nature if the weather is fine. My husband watches the k*ids and it gives him some quality bonding time with them. Needless to say, he doesn't have a clue either about what his wife is doing with a member of his congregation.

I should make it clear here that what I get out of this arrangement is all the fucked up stuff that I do with Dennis. I get no thrill whatsoever from doing this behind my husband's back. To the contrary, I would drop Dennis in a minute and do all of this with hubby if he was into it. But he's not into it, so what's a extra horny and somewhat twisted girl to do? Exactly what I'm doing.

More to come in future blogs about exactly what Dennis is doing to me...