My First Story ... A Long Time Ago ....
My First Story
All my life I have liked wearing women’s lingerie, as far back as I can possibly remember. Especially pantyhose, satin panties, and silky nightgowns. All the softness of these things feels so good on my body and has always given me a hard on when I wear them. I guess I was just watching my mom and sister put pantyhose on and I was very young and didn’t know any better and started putting them on too. They felt so good. So I started checking out all the other goodies in my moms drawers and found that I really liked wearing her big black satin panties, they were much softer than the hose were on my little peter, and when I would wear them under the hose it felt so good that I would have an orgasm but I really didn’t know what was happening, all I knew was that it felt very good and I wanted to experience that feeling when ever I could. My mom also had a long purple satin night gown that I liked to wear over the pantyhose, the sensation of the silky soft material sliding on my hose covered legs was so awesome that whenever I had the chance I would go put it on, my little pecker would get so hard and I would almost cum instantly, I would wear the hose and nightgown and I learned that if I humped myself while wearing these things I would make myself cum every time. It felt so good , I knew I would never stop loving the feeling that I got from wearing these things.
Soon I found that what I was doing was rather abnormal because I told some of my friends about how wonderful I thought it was and they all made fun of me and would call me girly or fag. So I found that I would have to keep it a secret for the rest of my life. I live in a very small town in the mid west and people talk about each other and rumors get around very fast. I knew I would never be able to share my love for lingerie with anyone and always thought I was very weird myself for liking this sort of thing. So I kept it a deep secret for years and years , probably from the time I was like 8 till about 35. All of this time thinking that I was strange and that there probably wasn’t too many people like me out there. I became a rather vicious person at a young age because of the other k**s making fun of me. But the strange thing was that my body was developing at a very rapid rate, I believe now to be from me stimulating all my hormones at a early age. I became much bigger and stronger than anyone my own age and finally started whipping there ass if they ever called me a fag again. I did finally get some respect by the time I was in high school I was pretty much the strongest , fastest person anyone knew. I used to kick some ass playing football and running on the track team. I was known for throwing the biggest parties too. All the time just trying to be accepted and popular while keeping a huge secret under my hat, if anyone would ever find out my life would be completely over.
When I was 35, I had a girl friend that was living with me and we loved each other very much. I loved to buy her all kinds of sexy things to wear, like lacy top stockings and satin nightgowns. Because secretly I would masturbate with the lovely items when she wasn’t around. I did have a bunch of stuff that I had collected over the years that were my own, but I liked buying her stuff whenever I could. She didn’t think much of it till one day I had been playing with some of my stuff and the phone rang and I was kind of startled and went to answer the phone and completely forgot that I had left a pair of hose and a satin slip laying on the bedroom floor. She came home that day and found the hose and slip on the floor and totally freaked out, she asked me who’s they were, and my heart fell to the floor and I was totally in shock that I had forgot to hide my stuff. I had to tell her that they were mine and she was shocked to find out that her boyfriend for the last 2 years is a crossdresser. She told me to never wear those things again but she would wear stuff for me pretty much when ever I wanted, and she learned that when she would wear her silky nighties what a turn on it was for me to have her rub the silky material on my cock. She was kind of ok with it for awhile but then whenever we would get into a fight she would use it against me saying that she would tell people my secret if I pissed her off. So all trust was lost and we began the downward spiral of falling apart because it would hurt me very deeply whenever she would use my secret against me. Eventually we broke up and I was left alone thinking how much of a weirdo I am and not knowing that there were others like me out there in this world.
So eventually I started to spend a lot of time on the computer, finding web sites that have pictures of women in pantyhose and lingerie. I have always loved collecting pictures of beautiful women wearing sexy things. Then I found out about the chat rooms, and found one that was about pantyhose so I started going there as often as I could and talking to different people. I was very relieved and amazed that I had found out that there were other guys like me that liked wearing pantyhose also. It made me feel much better about myself knowing that there were lots of other people like me out there. Over the last 3 years I have found that sexuality comes in many different flavors. I hate to use stereotypes or names , it is almost like blacks , whites, spanish, or oriental, the different types of sexuality like cd, tv, ts, les, bi, gay. I have always known that there were guys that liked guys and girls that liked girls, but I didn’t ever know there were so many guys that liked to dress as women, some are bi and some are straight. So I kind of found my place and started to become quite comfortable with myself and consider myself as a straight crossedresser. I only like women , but I have no desire to try to live like one or become one, but I will always love the feeling of wearing pantyhose and silky lingerie. So I kept going to the chat room whenever I could hoping to be able to find a woman that is open minded enough to like a guy like me. I have found that there aren’t very many women like that out there, but occasionally I will chat with a lucky guy that has a girlfriend or wife that will let him wear hose and they are happy. If only I could find a woman like that someday I would be so happy, I wouldn’t have to keep my fetishes a secret anymore and I could be truly happy. Over the last few years of going to the chat room I have talked to many women that kind of enjoy seeing a man in hosiery and dressing feminine but I have found that it is very hard to get to meet these women for real. They just kind of want to see it and talk about stuff online but don’t seem to want to meet anyone for real. Which I can totally understand because there are a lot of freaks out there that are stalkers and r****t and stuff like that. And it can be scary for a woman not knowing if someone is who they say they are online. After 3 years of going to the chat room I have made lots of friends and I hope pretty much everyone knows that I am a nice person and that I have been trying to meet someone that lives near to me to meet for real sometime. Finally one girl asked me to come meet her and I was so excited. I knew she had a boyfriend but I didn’t care , I was just happy that a woman wanted to meet me. It gave me hope that there may be others like her out there somewhere, just that finding them is so hard. I will have to save my meeting her for another story sometime though, lets just say that we had a lot of fun together and that she let me wear my hose and purple panties with her and she didn’t seem to mind. It was a great experience for me since it was the first time I had ever been with a woman while wearing my hose. I wish I could tell you some big pantyhose sex experience but she had a boyfriend and didn’t want to go that far. Since then I have met with 3 other people from the chat room , 2 of which are a married couple that don’t live too far from me and another woman that lives very far away. We had a lot of fun meeting each other and it was a very good to be able to be completely open with someone. All of them are very nice and some of the sweetest people I have ever met in my life. And I feel closer to them than anyone I have ever known because I am able to be myself with them and not have to keep my fetishes a secret anymore. That is how I feel with just about all the friends I have made in the chat room that I regularly visit. We all go there for different reasons, but one thing most of us have in common is the love for pantyhose, either wearing them or just admiring them on women. Over the years I have became very close with several people there and we are happy that we have all found someone to talk to about our quirks and fetishes. It is very good to know that there are other people out there that enjoy the same things so that we don’t feel like we are the only ones doing these things in our own minds.
So here I am today, still searching for that one woman that will accept me for what I am and trying to find love in a chat room. I don’t know if I will ever find it there , but I keep hoping that someday I will, and when I do find her and we have some great pantyhose sex I will finally have something really good to write about.
by: Shimmery
ps. I must have wrote this over 20 years ago
All my life I have liked wearing women’s lingerie, as far back as I can possibly remember. Especially pantyhose, satin panties, and silky nightgowns. All the softness of these things feels so good on my body and has always given me a hard on when I wear them. I guess I was just watching my mom and sister put pantyhose on and I was very young and didn’t know any better and started putting them on too. They felt so good. So I started checking out all the other goodies in my moms drawers and found that I really liked wearing her big black satin panties, they were much softer than the hose were on my little peter, and when I would wear them under the hose it felt so good that I would have an orgasm but I really didn’t know what was happening, all I knew was that it felt very good and I wanted to experience that feeling when ever I could. My mom also had a long purple satin night gown that I liked to wear over the pantyhose, the sensation of the silky soft material sliding on my hose covered legs was so awesome that whenever I had the chance I would go put it on, my little pecker would get so hard and I would almost cum instantly, I would wear the hose and nightgown and I learned that if I humped myself while wearing these things I would make myself cum every time. It felt so good , I knew I would never stop loving the feeling that I got from wearing these things.
Soon I found that what I was doing was rather abnormal because I told some of my friends about how wonderful I thought it was and they all made fun of me and would call me girly or fag. So I found that I would have to keep it a secret for the rest of my life. I live in a very small town in the mid west and people talk about each other and rumors get around very fast. I knew I would never be able to share my love for lingerie with anyone and always thought I was very weird myself for liking this sort of thing. So I kept it a deep secret for years and years , probably from the time I was like 8 till about 35. All of this time thinking that I was strange and that there probably wasn’t too many people like me out there. I became a rather vicious person at a young age because of the other k**s making fun of me. But the strange thing was that my body was developing at a very rapid rate, I believe now to be from me stimulating all my hormones at a early age. I became much bigger and stronger than anyone my own age and finally started whipping there ass if they ever called me a fag again. I did finally get some respect by the time I was in high school I was pretty much the strongest , fastest person anyone knew. I used to kick some ass playing football and running on the track team. I was known for throwing the biggest parties too. All the time just trying to be accepted and popular while keeping a huge secret under my hat, if anyone would ever find out my life would be completely over.
When I was 35, I had a girl friend that was living with me and we loved each other very much. I loved to buy her all kinds of sexy things to wear, like lacy top stockings and satin nightgowns. Because secretly I would masturbate with the lovely items when she wasn’t around. I did have a bunch of stuff that I had collected over the years that were my own, but I liked buying her stuff whenever I could. She didn’t think much of it till one day I had been playing with some of my stuff and the phone rang and I was kind of startled and went to answer the phone and completely forgot that I had left a pair of hose and a satin slip laying on the bedroom floor. She came home that day and found the hose and slip on the floor and totally freaked out, she asked me who’s they were, and my heart fell to the floor and I was totally in shock that I had forgot to hide my stuff. I had to tell her that they were mine and she was shocked to find out that her boyfriend for the last 2 years is a crossdresser. She told me to never wear those things again but she would wear stuff for me pretty much when ever I wanted, and she learned that when she would wear her silky nighties what a turn on it was for me to have her rub the silky material on my cock. She was kind of ok with it for awhile but then whenever we would get into a fight she would use it against me saying that she would tell people my secret if I pissed her off. So all trust was lost and we began the downward spiral of falling apart because it would hurt me very deeply whenever she would use my secret against me. Eventually we broke up and I was left alone thinking how much of a weirdo I am and not knowing that there were others like me out there in this world.
So eventually I started to spend a lot of time on the computer, finding web sites that have pictures of women in pantyhose and lingerie. I have always loved collecting pictures of beautiful women wearing sexy things. Then I found out about the chat rooms, and found one that was about pantyhose so I started going there as often as I could and talking to different people. I was very relieved and amazed that I had found out that there were other guys like me that liked wearing pantyhose also. It made me feel much better about myself knowing that there were lots of other people like me out there. Over the last 3 years I have found that sexuality comes in many different flavors. I hate to use stereotypes or names , it is almost like blacks , whites, spanish, or oriental, the different types of sexuality like cd, tv, ts, les, bi, gay. I have always known that there were guys that liked guys and girls that liked girls, but I didn’t ever know there were so many guys that liked to dress as women, some are bi and some are straight. So I kind of found my place and started to become quite comfortable with myself and consider myself as a straight crossedresser. I only like women , but I have no desire to try to live like one or become one, but I will always love the feeling of wearing pantyhose and silky lingerie. So I kept going to the chat room whenever I could hoping to be able to find a woman that is open minded enough to like a guy like me. I have found that there aren’t very many women like that out there, but occasionally I will chat with a lucky guy that has a girlfriend or wife that will let him wear hose and they are happy. If only I could find a woman like that someday I would be so happy, I wouldn’t have to keep my fetishes a secret anymore and I could be truly happy. Over the last few years of going to the chat room I have talked to many women that kind of enjoy seeing a man in hosiery and dressing feminine but I have found that it is very hard to get to meet these women for real. They just kind of want to see it and talk about stuff online but don’t seem to want to meet anyone for real. Which I can totally understand because there are a lot of freaks out there that are stalkers and r****t and stuff like that. And it can be scary for a woman not knowing if someone is who they say they are online. After 3 years of going to the chat room I have made lots of friends and I hope pretty much everyone knows that I am a nice person and that I have been trying to meet someone that lives near to me to meet for real sometime. Finally one girl asked me to come meet her and I was so excited. I knew she had a boyfriend but I didn’t care , I was just happy that a woman wanted to meet me. It gave me hope that there may be others like her out there somewhere, just that finding them is so hard. I will have to save my meeting her for another story sometime though, lets just say that we had a lot of fun together and that she let me wear my hose and purple panties with her and she didn’t seem to mind. It was a great experience for me since it was the first time I had ever been with a woman while wearing my hose. I wish I could tell you some big pantyhose sex experience but she had a boyfriend and didn’t want to go that far. Since then I have met with 3 other people from the chat room , 2 of which are a married couple that don’t live too far from me and another woman that lives very far away. We had a lot of fun meeting each other and it was a very good to be able to be completely open with someone. All of them are very nice and some of the sweetest people I have ever met in my life. And I feel closer to them than anyone I have ever known because I am able to be myself with them and not have to keep my fetishes a secret anymore. That is how I feel with just about all the friends I have made in the chat room that I regularly visit. We all go there for different reasons, but one thing most of us have in common is the love for pantyhose, either wearing them or just admiring them on women. Over the years I have became very close with several people there and we are happy that we have all found someone to talk to about our quirks and fetishes. It is very good to know that there are other people out there that enjoy the same things so that we don’t feel like we are the only ones doing these things in our own minds.
So here I am today, still searching for that one woman that will accept me for what I am and trying to find love in a chat room. I don’t know if I will ever find it there , but I keep hoping that someday I will, and when I do find her and we have some great pantyhose sex I will finally have something really good to write about.
by: Shimmery
ps. I must have wrote this over 20 years ago
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