Xhamster Live

You know, there's a silly grading system on this Xhamster Live, designed to incentivize users to advance though the levels and acquire the benefits (and increase the site's bottom line). well, I have the dubious privilege of being in the 'Grey League' on Xhamster Live's hierarchy of users, I notice. Sounds like some band of geriatric super heroes.

Well, there's no way I can anonymously acquire tokens, which frustrates me because I would really love to support one or two of the performers there. They are such charming and hard working people in the main. But it is probably a good thing because I would bankrupt myself. I have become kinda addicted to that place in recent weeks. Sad, I know. But I keep sneaking back there. (As I do here)

So this state of affairs renders me a bit of a parasite on Xhamster Live and I am not happy about that, but what can I do? I have a profile, and I sign in so my user name is visible, and I compliment the performers whenever they allow people without tokens to do so. That's about the extent of my support. Pitiful, huh?

I am such an admirer of (mostly ) female beauty. I look at men too. I masturbate on Jerkay sometimes, and it is really good to have appreciative voyeuristic company from non-judgemental eyes. Those eyes can be restless and dismissive sometimes but the community there is pretty accepting on the whole. And the process gives a vent to my inner exhibitionist. And my need for validation I suppose. This is one reason why I am always polite. Web performers deserve our respect.

Unresolved exhibitionism is probably part of the reason many cam girls start upon their sex cam careers. As well as financial need, obviously. Young women especially must find it hugely empowering when they become aware of the influence that their burgeoning sexuality has over men. This applies to all heterosexual women of course, to a greater or lesser degree. It must be, at least at the outset, an endorphin rush for a cam model with an exhibitionist nature to know that their behaviour is being watched and admired by hundreds of people. Sometimes thousands. Nevertheless, I see some girls here and my heart really goes out to them. There's a sadness behind their eyes. But I suppose that even though HX is always the winner in this process, an anonymous web organisation is a better boss than the old pimp model. And God knows there are so many abuses of young women in the 'flesh and blood' sex industry. At least the girls in their 'rooms' here are (hopefully) safe.

I am aware that all of this has a dark side. But the women I follow here appear to be well balanced and happy in the main. I witnessed one young woman yesterday, streaming from her holiday beach in Thailand, as carefree as a bird and utterly charming, brimming with personality and coquettish charisma. I watch the performers here really closely, not only lustfully. And looking at them, masturbating to them sometimes, is such a dark joy. And a privilege. Just to rest my eyes on their lithe forms.

So I am grateful for this place, even though it is a problematic gratitude. I always, always wish the people here (users and performers) all the very best in the world and I appreciate the performers always as fellow human beings, deserving respect.

I know no-one will ever read this, but it is a way of stating my case. Refer to my Xhamster page for more information about my sexual peccadilloes. Blessings to all.

E.