About

When I was 12 years old, my penis started to erect more and more often. I accidentally discovered that if I start pulling the skin at the end of my foreskin, after a while I let some strange white liquid in, and it falls very well when I cum. I did it about every 4-5 days and it was very good. Later, I realized that I could satisfy myself by pulling my foreskin.

My high school years:

When I was 15, I had a minor medical examination, either in February or March, and ... was taken from almost everyone at school, and everyone had to give a urine sample. There was only about a wooden piece of furniture between the boy and the girl's toilet, so about every conversation was overheard. I went to the boy's toilet to pee and that's when I saw that the girl next to us was going into the toilet, with glasses 1 year older than me, she must have been about 16 years old (I really liked the girl before). I thought I'd listen a bit. I heard him unscrew the top of the plastic urine collector and pull down his pants. By this time, my penis was already standing terribly stiff. After about 15 seconds, he started peeing in the watershed with a loud tricle sound, the clattering as he filled the 120ml urine collector. Once full, he then screwed the cap back on and heard him put it down somewhere, knocking loudly (I thought he was done). Then I hear it started trickling into the toilet after a few seconds. Suddenly the dribble was very loud, he could be heard peeing a lot. For about 1 minute, her pussy was sizzling/dripping loudly. Halfway through the 1 minute, the sizzle slowly faded and then stopped. Of course, I kept listening. I hear her ripping off a piece of toilet paper, then I hear her wiping something (probably her pussy). After that there will be silence. About half a minute passes and then suddenly I hear a little sizzling/dripping again. Which barely lasts 4-5 seconds. I hear her rip off a piece of toilet paper again, then I hear her wiping something again (probably her pussy). Then I hear him pull up his pants, pull down the toilet. He came out of the toilet first and the other half of the hallway started, I saw the urine collector in his hand, full of very slightly yellowish pee (it was about almost the color of water). I went back to the boy's toilet and pulled my foreskin until I was satisfied, it felt awfully good.

1 year later:

I've noticed that I'm finding it increasingly difficult to pee. I also told my parents. I went to the doctor who sent me for a penile biopsy. After a couple of days, I found out I had penile cancer (my entire outer penis was full of cancer cells). The doctor said that, unfortunately, the situation is so serious that they have to undergo a full penis amputation. My parents were very scared, and so was I. Then, my mother asked the doctor what he was going to pee with? He then brought me a picture and showed me that under my testicles there would be a new opening where I could urinate. He said if my penis is not amputated, cancer can spread to my testicles. The doctor said I will have the procedure in 1 month and I will be in the hospital for about 1 week.

1 month later:
We went to the hospital to get ..., I was checked out by the anaesthetist. They said the surgery would be tomorrow, at which point I was already very stressed. I thought I'd beat out my dick 1X one last time, albeit a little stressfully, I pulled the skin at the end until I could. After that, I went to bed. The next morning I went to pee on the toilet around 9am (that's when I last saw my penis). At 9:30, I was already pushed into the operating room, there they reassured me that everything would be fine, do not worry. They put some kind of mask on me, and before that they bandaged something in my vein, after a few minutes I slept. When I was 16, my entire penis was amputated. I got back to myself at about 3 p.m., I was terribly stunned, I barely remember anything. I was fully awake for 18-19 hours. I remember down below my testicles I felt terrible numbness and a little pain. I didn't even dare to look at it.In the evening the doctor came in and said fortunately the surgery was successful. He said that almost my entire penis was amputated, leaving me with an internal stump of 0.5 cm after the urine block. A hole was cut under the testicles and connected with the end of the 0.5 stump. He said the catheter should be inside for 1 week. He also told me that since the testicles remained intact, they will continue to produce sperm, and since I don't have a penis, I won't be able to empty my testicles. Said my inner stump, after a while it will always stand. He said if I was frustrated I might want to take medication or have my testicles removed after I was 18.
After 1 week:

That's when the day came when the catheter was taken out of my new pee opening. After removing the catheter from the new pee opening under my testicles, they also removed the bandage from the place where my penis was originally. That's when I first saw what exactly happened after the surgery. I was sad to see that I no longer had my penis, its place was sewn in with a pair of stitches. I was told I could go home from the hospital tomorrow. After they took out the catheter I had to pee after about 2-3 hours. I went to the toilet and then there I took a good look at the location of my severed penis and poked out my new pee hole under my testicles. I sat on the toilet. When the pee first spilled, it felt really weird that it wasn't flowing through my penis, but flowing from the hole under my testicles. The pee flowed out quite easily (much more easily than on my cancerous penis in the last few months). After peeing, I got up from the toilet and wiped my pee hole under my balls. It took me a while to get used to the new feeling.

3 months after surgery:
After the operation, for about 3 months, I did not feel anything from my remaining inner half-cm penis stump. I didn't really have sexual desires either. After 3 months, when I was traveling on the bus in the Czech Republic, I saw a very beautiful woman on the bus. I felt like I was getting heavy down below. When I got home and went to the toilet I saw my scrotum stretched and my stump standing beneath it at my pee hole. At first I didn't bother with it because it didn't bother me so much.
4 months after surgery:
By this time, sexual desire began to take over me, my scrotum was tight almost all day, my stump was constantly standing inside. I tried to massage my testicles to see if I could, but it didn't help. After that, I went to a sex shop and bought a vibrator. I started massaging my pee opening, but I still didn't enjoy it. Then I fucked her in the ass to see if I could enjoy it like that, but it still didn't work out. After that, I tried a couple more times, but it still didn't work out.
6 months after surgery:
By this time, it had become common for my scrotum to be tight almost all day, my stump constantly standing inside. Sometimes my testicles inside my scrotum hurt. My scrotum (blue bals syndrome) started to turn a little blue as it was full of testicular semen that couldn't empty.

1 year after surgery:
At school, I was going to the toilet when I saw again the girl with beautiful glasses I had seen 2 years ago (she was about an 18-year-old chick by then) and I listened to her pee. He also went into the girl's toilet just as I was going to the boy. I thought I'd listen to his pee now. I pulled my pants down and started massaging my balls. I waited for the girl to pull her pants down on the other side of the girl's toilet. Then I hear the 18 year old girl start peeing again, sizzling/dripping her pussy very loudly for 1 minute. While he was peeing, I pulled my testicles. We were about halfway through peeing when something took over me, my body started shaking, and then suddenly a huge amount of semen left my new pee opening, coming for almost 15 seconds. During that, I could barely stop myself from moaning loudly (she would have heard that). After 15 seconds, I hear the girl's pussy dripping less and less, her pussy slows down as well, and then it stops.I hear her wipe her pussy, pull down the toilet and then leave. It was afterwards that I noticed that I had a large amount of semen on the ground in the boy's toilet, and there was also a lump of thick semen in my pulled down pants. Anyway, I was finally a little relieved then.
4 years after the operation (I was 20 at the time):
By now, sexual frustration has decreased slightly. I'm starting to get used to it. I can get satisfaction about 1 time a year when my testicle balls are already very full.
I have now decided to share the story with others on the Internet and take pictures of my cropped penis (PICTURES TAKEN AFTER I WAS 18!!!).
I read a story similar to my own, a Tim_nullo who went to Germany to lose his penis to an infection. He also had to be amputated (for him at the age of 12) , although for him only the outer part, and a little of the inside. He also has the pee opening in the original place of his penis. Since he has almost the entire inner penis, he can satisfy himself at almost any time. Life was a bit unfair to me, while most of Tim's penis remained inside, leaving me with a stump barely half a inch on the inside. So I can't masturbate. I don't understand why I also had to have the inner part of my penis amputated when the cancer was "in principle" only in my outer penis. I would have been much better off with an amputation like Tim's. My parents said afterwards that the entire inner penis had to be amputated to prevent the cancer from recurring. I also have an older sister (she studied to be a doctor), she is 6 years older than me (I was 16 at the time, and she was 22). At the time, my sister allegedly spoke in my interest to save my inner penis. Apparently, he was very upset when he found out that the inside of my penis was also cut off. He also told his best doctor friend, who said that they had saved a penis that was in a much worse condition.

Updated!!!!!!!

On 12/04/2023, we visited a closed adventure spa with our family - in the Czech Republic.

I had a very embarrassing accident in the adventure pool. When I slid down the slide (upside down - irregularly), my swimming trunks slipped off. When I reached the bottom of the slide, I arrived completely naked. There was only knee-deep water at the bottom of the slide. And to my shame, 3 women stood below and saw that I had no penis. In addition, one of the girls knew me (her name was Radka) because we went to the same school. He was the classmate of the girl I had a crush on. One of the chicks silently commented to the other: "no tail" while smiling.

On 18.04.2023, Radka wrote to me on Facebook, these pictures come from a conversation with her (surname hidden to preserve anonymity)

You can read the entire conversation in

https://thisvid.com/albums/my-correspondence-with-radka/