Feeling very feminine over the last month or so. My desire to become more feminine is overwhelming and on my mind 24/7. The idea of having breasts and a shruncken clitty with small balls has been on my mind for the last few days and has been making me look for ways to accomplish it. I have also had the overwhelming desire to suck big massive cocks and receive facials as well as be made to drink pints of cum from a glass. Lately while surfing the web I have only been able to get excited while looking a big manly cocks, looking at how yummy they look and how much I want to suck them. Which gets me thinking that inorder to get cocks like that I have to look more fem which makes me want to look more fem. Then I think about my little clit and how much smaller I am then compared to those big cocks and that I could never satify a women like they could. I realized I am kind of feminine already with a small clit and my mind starting to match. When looking at females I only look at their breasts and think about having ones just like them. If they are dressed I think about wanting to wear what they wear and realize that I need to lose a lot more weight and do other things in order to look good in what they are wearing. When I look at their pussy's I don't get excited, I don't even think about wanting to fuck them I think about having a pussy and what it would feel like to be fucked and how it would feel in panties. Also while surfing the web I have found I have become very desirous of becoming a shemale. Lately I have had dreams of being a shemale with beautiful breasts and a small clit just like Sarina Valentina and Ana Mancini and sucking and fucking big cocks like them. Over the last few days I can't seem to keep my mind off being a female and dressing and acting like one, It seems that's all thats on my mind lately. I have also been looking at this bridal dress I just love it and want, it I think I look at it once a day now thinking about having it and wearing it. I don't know why, but it makes me want to be a female or at least a shemale with breast to fill out the front of the dress. I have also been looking at more dildos to buy the more realistic the better as well as being BIG!. The idea is to work on my training to take big cocks both orally and anally which I want to do.
