Potential loss of virginity

Lookin' like this weekend! I have waited long and hard but I can bare the anticipation no longer. Night after night the thoughts envelope me, penetrating me, until I can no longer think STRAIGHT. Despite my attempts to empty myself of these sinful desires, they always return to fill me up. As if I REALLY wanted them to stop... I can't take it! I am 27 years old and my mouth and ass are virgin to cock.
But this weekend that could all change! This weekend I could finally know the ecstasy of fulfilling a longtime fantasy, and sucking a mouthwatering throbbing cock. This weekend...
It's sooo exciting! Too exciting!! What if I lose my nerve?
What should I do?
Shall I sacrifice my virgin mouth?
Would it surprise/excite you to know that this little story is true and I am really considering going through with it?
what to do? What do you guys think? Words of encouragement?
Perhaps I'll pray on it... tee hee