About my being trans

So I am trans, I don't hide this. All my life I was bullied and told I wasn't a "real man" and never will be. That's not why I transitioned but I did for personal reasons. Now I am being told that I will never be a woman by the same sort of people. So which is it?

I technically identify as nonbinary, niether male nor female, but if I had to choose, Id prefer female pronouns. So if I'm not a "real man" nor will I ever be a "real woman" then where does that leave me? In the middle somewhere? Tbh that kind of turns me on, so your plan failed.

Like, the idea of being a total
cuck and failure of a "man" who is treated as a bitch/girl and has a useless cock with big tits is super hot to me and that's been my goal throughout :P

Honestly when you are above 300lbs, does it matter if you're a guy or girl? You're just a huge mass of soft sensitive flesh at that point and ready to be used like the pig you are!