A quiet night
On Friday night, I stayed overnight at Sir's place. We had a relaxing and quiet night in. It was nice to snuggle and watch movies. I enjoy just being with Sir so being able to cuddle his leg in my favorite way for the whole night was a nice treat. It makes me feel so loved and at peace when I have my head in his lap and he is rubbing my back or stroking my hair. It is the best!!!! It was really nice to cuddle him when we went to bed too. Sir is so warm that I keep having to turn over and put the cold side of my body against him to stay warm. When he gets up to go to the bathroom I wake up because right away because I am so cold without his sexy body next to me. It is not hard to go without sex at all. I really enjoy his company so I am happy without the sex for now.
On Saturday before I left we had a talk and I did a lot of crying. I wish I could explain what it feels like to give yourself to someone but there are no words to explain how it feels. I just want to be HIS and I want him to KNOW that! We got into a discussion and I disagreed with him a lot and felt myself becoming very emotional. I hate that feeling. It is the opposite of the safe and peaceful feeling I get from laying in his lap! We were not getting anywhere and it was pointless to me to continue to talk about something I already laid to rest. He went to go to an appointment and I left to drive home. Things weren't ok though so I cried the whole way home!
I kept thinking about how much I enjoyed being with him and it was making me cry harder because I know how much I care for him! Then when I got home we agreed to let it go! I truly think that was the right thing to do because I have noticed a huge change in his texts since. Sir seems more talkative and open. The best change is his loving texts have increased 100% and he sounds way more positive with me!!!! I am happy because I think this is has just went from a point of tension to a point of growth! Growth = bonding!!!! I am praying he stays well now with all the hours he works I worry about him.
Lastly my exercise and eating right is going very well. No problems this week. A few days with low motivation but as long as I make it on the treadmill I always make it a great workout. It's the getting on and the first 10 minutes that is so hard. Eating healthy is not a problem and I think it helps to go to Sirs and eat healthy together. His support is amazing!
On Saturday before I left we had a talk and I did a lot of crying. I wish I could explain what it feels like to give yourself to someone but there are no words to explain how it feels. I just want to be HIS and I want him to KNOW that! We got into a discussion and I disagreed with him a lot and felt myself becoming very emotional. I hate that feeling. It is the opposite of the safe and peaceful feeling I get from laying in his lap! We were not getting anywhere and it was pointless to me to continue to talk about something I already laid to rest. He went to go to an appointment and I left to drive home. Things weren't ok though so I cried the whole way home!
I kept thinking about how much I enjoyed being with him and it was making me cry harder because I know how much I care for him! Then when I got home we agreed to let it go! I truly think that was the right thing to do because I have noticed a huge change in his texts since. Sir seems more talkative and open. The best change is his loving texts have increased 100% and he sounds way more positive with me!!!! I am happy because I think this is has just went from a point of tension to a point of growth! Growth = bonding!!!! I am praying he stays well now with all the hours he works I worry about him.
Lastly my exercise and eating right is going very well. No problems this week. A few days with low motivation but as long as I make it on the treadmill I always make it a great workout. It's the getting on and the first 10 minutes that is so hard. Eating healthy is not a problem and I think it helps to go to Sirs and eat healthy together. His support is amazing!
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