More control and things I need to work on
It has been only one day since I was with Sir but I miss him already. We are getting to spend time together every few days but I have to admit I want to serve him daily. I want to take care of his every need always. I feel so good when I am in the presence of my Sir. We are having a wonderful journey so far but I feel I have lacked in a few areas and I need to work on this. I feel I have not been respectful enough to him and I need to remember I must always remember he owns me and he tells me what to do. I want this more than I want any individual life decision. I need to stop raising a disagreement about the little things like how to make coffee because in the long run I really don't care about my coffee with any of the deep passion or concern I have for Sir's control!
I also feel maybe I am too pushy in wanting to see Sir. I want to be with him all the time. I want to be his 24/7 slave and I think I may be coming across pushy. I am not trying to be pushy though if anything I am just a little needy. Sir is like my d**g. He allows me to be who I am and it feels really good to be submissive to him. Every single bit of increase in Sir's control makes me more fulfilled. I gain my freedom from his dominance and so of course I want it and need it all the time.
My nipples and my breast are sooooo sore right now!!! I can't help but think of him every time I move and feel the pain from my bruises that cover my nipples and breasts. We had a really incredible night on Friday. When I arrived late again I felt really guilty. I want to be on time. But I don't show him that at all! Anyways we had a little dinner buffalo steaks mmmm! I loved them and it was really fun to try something new and different. Although I was a bit nervous cooking them because I had no idea what I was doing and I have already shown myself as an incompetent dishwasher!
After we ate we watched some tv while I was sitting at his feet. Although there again I missed a great worship opp. I thought on the way home how nice it would have been if I had knelt between his legs with my head in his lap while he watched tv. That feels so good and peaceful!
Well after dinner he blindfolded me and walked me to the bedroom...mmmm! Yes!! Then he undressed me and cuffed me with my hands above my head. He put a full rope harness on me and tied my tits up tight so they were firm and taunt. Then he got the spatula. Now I have been spanked and whipped with many different things but that dam spatula freakin hurts!!!! He whipped my ass warm and red....mmmm and gave some unexpected slaps on my body. Then he whipped my tied breasts! FUCK that is intense. 3 whacks with tied tits equals about 100 untied. YEP it hurt and I found myself drifting to that beautiful place called subspace. I love it there :) Pretty much everything else I did the rest of the night I remained in subspace.
After my tits and ass were reddened to Sirs standard he began to stick toys in my pussy and fuck me with them. I had to focus on not cuming as he told me I was not allowed too. He took out the big toy and fucked me hard with it...mmmm! Then I felt his fingers working me over....could he be getting me ready for his fist?!?! I want his whole fist inside me very bad! I have only been fisted by a few people before and they had small hands...Sirs are not. Plus it has been awhile for me so my pussy is not gapping either. I didnt get his fist this time though.
He likes to fuck me face too. I think he tries to make me gag so I will swallow his cock when I do. He knows just how to make me do it too. It makes me want to cum every time he shoves it down my throat and makes me gag. I love it to be forced down my throat. Then Sir fucked my ass. He likes me to clean his cock off every time he fucks my ass. Sometimes he goes back and forth. He fucks my ass then has me lick his cock clean over and over. I like doing it though because I feel very submissive and I want to be his dirty whore! Its kind of like rimming to me it shows how much I worship him. When his cock is dirty from my ass I should definetly be a good slave and lick it clean just as I should lick my Sirs dirty ass clean. When he uses me in this way it makes me feel like I am in service and that pleases me! I want to please him more than anything else in the world. I just wish I could more!!!! He did let me clean his ass mmmm! I am addicted to having my face burried and my tongue in Sirs ass. This is something I would love to have part of a daily service ritual for him when we are living together. Like a morning rimming before work or something. I love when he cums when I am rimming him. He come all over my chest while sitting on my face and I was sucking and licking in his ass. Then he fed me the cum. Yes!!! My Sir is so good to me he knows I am such a whore for his cum. I want to eat every drop. I worship every part of my Master and I actually crave his cum in my body like I crave his control. Slap my face...treat me very dirty because I am Yours to use and abuse. Please let me serve you. Next time I see my Sir I am going to show him how much I crave him to control me.
O I almost forgot. Sir asked me for my passwords on all my accounts. It is funny in a vanilla relationship that would be offensive but to me it shows he cares about me and that made me soooo happy to see him take control of this!
I also feel maybe I am too pushy in wanting to see Sir. I want to be with him all the time. I want to be his 24/7 slave and I think I may be coming across pushy. I am not trying to be pushy though if anything I am just a little needy. Sir is like my d**g. He allows me to be who I am and it feels really good to be submissive to him. Every single bit of increase in Sir's control makes me more fulfilled. I gain my freedom from his dominance and so of course I want it and need it all the time.
My nipples and my breast are sooooo sore right now!!! I can't help but think of him every time I move and feel the pain from my bruises that cover my nipples and breasts. We had a really incredible night on Friday. When I arrived late again I felt really guilty. I want to be on time. But I don't show him that at all! Anyways we had a little dinner buffalo steaks mmmm! I loved them and it was really fun to try something new and different. Although I was a bit nervous cooking them because I had no idea what I was doing and I have already shown myself as an incompetent dishwasher!
After we ate we watched some tv while I was sitting at his feet. Although there again I missed a great worship opp. I thought on the way home how nice it would have been if I had knelt between his legs with my head in his lap while he watched tv. That feels so good and peaceful!
Well after dinner he blindfolded me and walked me to the bedroom...mmmm! Yes!! Then he undressed me and cuffed me with my hands above my head. He put a full rope harness on me and tied my tits up tight so they were firm and taunt. Then he got the spatula. Now I have been spanked and whipped with many different things but that dam spatula freakin hurts!!!! He whipped my ass warm and red....mmmm and gave some unexpected slaps on my body. Then he whipped my tied breasts! FUCK that is intense. 3 whacks with tied tits equals about 100 untied. YEP it hurt and I found myself drifting to that beautiful place called subspace. I love it there :) Pretty much everything else I did the rest of the night I remained in subspace.
After my tits and ass were reddened to Sirs standard he began to stick toys in my pussy and fuck me with them. I had to focus on not cuming as he told me I was not allowed too. He took out the big toy and fucked me hard with it...mmmm! Then I felt his fingers working me over....could he be getting me ready for his fist?!?! I want his whole fist inside me very bad! I have only been fisted by a few people before and they had small hands...Sirs are not. Plus it has been awhile for me so my pussy is not gapping either. I didnt get his fist this time though.
He likes to fuck me face too. I think he tries to make me gag so I will swallow his cock when I do. He knows just how to make me do it too. It makes me want to cum every time he shoves it down my throat and makes me gag. I love it to be forced down my throat. Then Sir fucked my ass. He likes me to clean his cock off every time he fucks my ass. Sometimes he goes back and forth. He fucks my ass then has me lick his cock clean over and over. I like doing it though because I feel very submissive and I want to be his dirty whore! Its kind of like rimming to me it shows how much I worship him. When his cock is dirty from my ass I should definetly be a good slave and lick it clean just as I should lick my Sirs dirty ass clean. When he uses me in this way it makes me feel like I am in service and that pleases me! I want to please him more than anything else in the world. I just wish I could more!!!! He did let me clean his ass mmmm! I am addicted to having my face burried and my tongue in Sirs ass. This is something I would love to have part of a daily service ritual for him when we are living together. Like a morning rimming before work or something. I love when he cums when I am rimming him. He come all over my chest while sitting on my face and I was sucking and licking in his ass. Then he fed me the cum. Yes!!! My Sir is so good to me he knows I am such a whore for his cum. I want to eat every drop. I worship every part of my Master and I actually crave his cum in my body like I crave his control. Slap my face...treat me very dirty because I am Yours to use and abuse. Please let me serve you. Next time I see my Sir I am going to show him how much I crave him to control me.
O I almost forgot. Sir asked me for my passwords on all my accounts. It is funny in a vanilla relationship that would be offensive but to me it shows he cares about me and that made me soooo happy to see him take control of this!
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