Luv it in the ass

So for years I have been sticking things in my ass, fingers hair brushes dildos a broom handle and now a strapon. I like the feel and I guess am turned on by it being dirty and unspoken of. Now I want nothing todo with a man kissing or sucking of any part of a man but curious what the real thing feels like all hard and hot pumping me once I adjust to a real flesh and blood cock in my ass. I'm sure a tranny or passable CD would be a lot easier to deal with in my mind don't know if it will ever happen but I get rock hard thinking about it!