How I became a Sissy fag

For me it started quite early, at about 8 or 9 I discovered how much I adored girls, how beautyfull they looked and dressed. I was jealous and wanted to be like them, so I secretly put on my Moms panties, bras and miniskirts every chance I got, trying to pose girly in front of the mirror. Sometimes I even applied lipstick and eyeliner.
Being very skinny, with long blond hair and stuffing my bra with cotton balls, I could almost go through as a girl. I was completely naive and it had nothing sexual at the beginning, just wanted to look and act like a girl, but Germany was very conservative at that time and I was too affraid to tell anyone how I felt.

Well, one day my Mom caught me, but instead of getting angry she talked with me about it and said she's fine if that's what I like (she always was very open minded and understanding). So I regularly wore dresses, skirts, blouses and pantyhoses at home and it went quite normal when we both were alone (my parents were divorced early and I lived with her, so this was no problem).

With age 10 I started to get aroused when wearing lingerie, my tiny penis rubbing against my lace panties. It was such a wonderful feeling and I wondered if others would get turned on looking at me in my girly outfits. I began to fantasize about men watching me, getting them hot and groping me, I wanted to be seen and touched, it became an unbearable urge.

One night I felt so naughty, I dressed up in lingerie, pantyhose, flat pumps and a minidress, put all my courage together and sneaked out on the street. I wandered around, it was late and no one was there. I walked a few blocks, it was so thrilling and I felt very nasty. When I came back home I wanked half the night in my bed, I knew I had to do this again.
Getting more brave I extended my nightly walks, first hiding in the dark or behind trees when I saw other people, but soon it didn't bother me and no one ever said a word.

Soon this wasn't enough and I wanted more, so I started to run around naked in the garden early in the morning, before Mom woke up, hoping to be seen by one of our neighbours. At night I now went out completely naked, it was so exciting to feel the cold ground on my bare feet. I remember that one night, it was raining and I enjoyed the raindrops slowly running down my body and how vulnerable I was, aware I could get caught every second.
Suddenly our drunk neighbour came around the corner on his way home, I tried to hide behind a parked car but it was too late. He saw me, told me to come out and asked what I was doing here all naked on the street. I was too embarrassed, just stood in front of him, shivering in fear and unable to speak. He looked up and down my wet, dripping body, then he began to smile, obviously liking what he saw. He reached out between my legs and took my tiny penis into his huge hand, squeezed and groped it until I became hard. He asked if I liked that. I nodded, I was totally over-excited, quivered and quickly shot a very small load. He only laughed and told me to never speak about this, than he turned away. Unfortunately this never happend again, but ever since he gave me a strange look when he saw me, maybe he felt guilty or was disgusted, I don't know.

But I was trapped now, I wanted other men to do this with me. I knew about a public toilet in the nearby park, maybe I would meet horny men here. I went there at night, the restroom was ugly, dirty and smelled after urine. I undressed completely and anxiously waited in one of the stalls what would happen.
It took what felt like hours, just as I thought about to leave I heared the door slam. I shivered, I knew I couldn't get out of this anymore, maybe I went to far. The guy must have seen my naked feet under the unlocked stall door, so he opened it and there he stood in front of me, big, tall and with a fat grin, looking down on me while I tried to cover my body. "Oh, what do we have here" he said "looking for some real men, 'lil boy?" With shaky legs I stammered "Y..yes, Sir" and he replied "No need to be ashamed, that's totally natural for young boys" to calm me down.
He began caressing my hair and face, with the other hand he touched my breast. He tickeled at my nipple and told me to spread my legs and show him what I got. Still uncertain I did and revealed my tiny penis to him. Looking up I saw him smile and licking his lips. He took my hands to his crotch and told me to unzip him and get his cock out. It was big and hairy and I was completely aroused to feel it in my soft hands. I began to stroke him and hypnotically watched how his dick slowly got bigger and bigger.
Finally he asked me if I wanted to taste it and I nodded eagerly and put my lips around it. I started to lick at the tip, then I took his almost hard cock in my mouth and began to suck and blow him. I was so turned on hearing him groan and when he blew his hot, sticky load into my mouth my mind exploded. Still totally excited he pulled me up, turned me around and made me bend over. I felt his cold hands squeezing my buttcheeks, then he slowly worked his wet finger up my virgin asshole and I was in heaven. I moaned in lust while he was in me, I never wanted this to end, when he suddenly pulled out and seconds later shove his cock up my pussy. He was very gentle and it just hurt a little at the beginning, but soon I climaxed and screamed in ecstasy.

When we were done he noticed that I was ashamed and guilty, but he told me that it's absolutely normal and every young boy learns to have sex like that, but no one ever talks about it. It would be totally ok to come here and meet him regularly so he can teach me more. And that there are a lot of horny men who visit this place and I shouldn't be afraid to have fun with them. Being completely naive I trusted him and was glad that I just did what was normal.

At that time I was totally unaware that he only tried to get a cheap and easy boislut, willing to suck and fuck at any time. Little did I recognize how he slowly turned me into a queer, cumhungry whore, in the end eager to prostitute my slutty asscunt to everyone just to get fucked.