True Confessions

My cousin came to stay with us one summer. He was 5 years older than me. The day he got there, he said "I'm going to sleep in your room." I said that's fine. He said "You know why? Because I want to find out what being a faggot is like." I didn't know what to say....what did he mean?
That night, when everyone else was asleep, he got into bed with me. I was scared, I didn't move. He got on top of me and I saw he was naked. His cock was so hard. He whispered, "You better stay quiet. You're my girlfriend tonight." He started to grind his dick against mine. I didn't want it...but why was I getting hard?
He started to kiss my neck, which made me shiver. I has now completely hard and grinding back against him. Suddenly, he kissed me full on the lips. He pushed his tongue into my mouth. I hesitated...then I was tongue kissing him right back.
His grinding was getting more urgent. He was quietly moaning in my ear...suddenly, I felt a flood of warmth on my crotch and belly. He had cum all over me! He put his hand down my pants and started jacking me off. We were french kissing again. He took my pants off and put the tip of one finger in my little asshole. I was getting finger fucked and jerked off, it was incredible. Very quickly, I had my first ever orgasm!!
I have never told anyone about this. My first makeout and sexual experience was with another boy!