Beginnings

The very first time?
The very first time I learned about sex
was when little and watching my mom
fucked by a visiting man.
I sat at the end of the bed in my nighty
as she sucked him and then as he
took her in various positions, with her
on her back, tummy, on all four and
riding him forwards and backwards.
The first time pleasing a man and his cock?
Was a warm summer at my uncles and his
wife's summer house, one day in my early teens.
I stepped out from a long warm shower, horny
after having caressed myself, finding my uncle
there naked and hard as a rock asking me
to help him as he was painfully hard.
I helped him by masturbating for him and
he shot his load onto the floor.
It was erotic and exciting and we played a
fre times that summer, getting bolder and
more comfortable, and until I dared suck him off.
He had left his porn magazines around for me
to find a look through and learn from.
And then there were the first few times ...
exploring what it was like fucking various .. men ...
and finding out how much pleasure I could
give, with my body and my behaviour and by
giving myself to the desires and lusts.
A spiralling adventure into ever less control,
wilder and riskier sex, with several and in places
I would not ever have thought to be naked in;
garages, parks, cars, hotel rooms, public toilets,
people's kitchens, married couple's beds, arcades ..
playing all kinds of roles - pleasuring and loving.
And arousing a strange longing to be wanted and desired ..