My previous profile log...years of work
February 5th, 2019
Thank you to all the friends that have sent me words of encouragement over the last few years with my quest to help my daughter be black cock only. Though she hasn't started dating yet, many positive things have happened since I last reported. First, my daughter is no longer going to the private school she'd been attending. This last year we started sending her to a charter school that has a significantly better ethnic diversity. Presently my daughter's two best girlfriends are both black girls and about half of her class is black...so much better than her mostly white private school she attended. Oh, and just this last week my daughter started to really use the black wand vibrator I'd bought her last year. There's still a ways to go...but, I'm still 100% committed to helping learn to appreciate black superiority. For any fathers that have the same real life wishes for their daughters, I'd be happy to share any advice that might be helpful to you and I'm always looking for helpful suggestions to assist me in achieving my goals for my girl. Thank you again for those many people that share my beliefs.
January 7th, 2017
Well, I can't go into much detail, but I can say that I'm 100% certain that my daughter has been introduced to interracial porn. My hope now is that she'll have every opportunity to view more of it anytime she wants. She has developed a close friendship with three new girlfriends this last year and I'm likewise hopeful that one or all of them will support her if she expresses sexual interests in black men. Two of the girls are neighbors in their early teens and the other girl is a black classmate of hers. My daughter, like millions of other girls in the world, has full, unrestricted access to the web. Additionally, the home computer is loaded with hundreds of hours of beautiful, and hopefully educational, interracial videos. My hopes for her this new year are that she have a wonderful year filled with tons of laughs and beautiful memories and that she expands her experience and knowledge of black men and sexual matters. I'd be happy if she had the opportunity to meet more black men like our neighbor a few houses down the street and I guess I really hope that she might have an opportunity to see a real black cock close up...maybe one of her classmate's older brothers. That might be an experience that some fathers would fear...but it would truly make me happy if I knew that her first in the flesh experience with a cock was that of a black man. I'll keep you posted. Your prayers and kind words are always welcome.
January 24th,2016
I am a cuckold that now hopes and expects to help my daughter grow up desiring to serve black men only. For those that wish to understand how I got to where I am, please read the older entries. I am a cuck...that's what I desire to be. It's not that I won't fuck a woman again ever, I just would prefer to help them fuck real men, real black men, rather than waste their time with my small dick. About six or maybe nine months ago I recognized that I hoped my daughter would NOT grow up thinking that just because she's white that she should date or fuck white boys when she is old enough. So, I decided that as her father it was my responsibility to help provide sex education at home and teach her that white girls should serve black men. I know there are some people that think teaching our k**s about sex is wrong and that somehow we should trust the schools or our k**s friends to educate them on one of the most important things in life...all of you are messed up in the head. Rather than allow others to fill my daughter's head with misguided bullshit and watch her waste years or decades of her life unsatisfied sexually with small-dicked white boys, I've decided to teach her what I believe is important for her to understand sexually...that black men are superior and that white girls should serve them. While all that I've done so far is to encourage her to notice black men out in public or on TV...she now will point a good looking, strong, alpha male black man out to me any time she sees one. She's making me proud. While I haven't introduced her to books or videos to further show her more about sex and especially why black men are clearly superior, I plan to do so as soon as I think she's ready to take that next step. The cuckold part of me can't deny that I would welcome her getting pregnant by a black lover and having a beautiful mixed-race baby or babies...I'd be so proud to be their grandfather. But as she is still too young to date or have sex, that will be something I continue to hope for.
As for me, I haven't dated much since my divorce, I'm not against dating and falling in love again...even marrying again...but, being a cuckold is something I've discovered that I need in my life and any relationship that I have will have this understanding right up front. So, we will see if I find a partner that is willing to share my life with me and be willing to fuck black men as a regular put of our marriage.
April 7th, 2015
I thought I would take this moment to talk about how great it is to discover my calling in life...that of being a cuckold. Even though this lifestyle has caused my wife to divorce me, the sexual intensity and addictive joys that being a cuckold have provided help me to not only understand why my wife of 12 years would divorce me, but when I think of how she chose her "Owner's" big cock over our relationship it usually turns me on and I'll soon be stroking my little dick until I cum. I'm addicted to being a cuckold and I have no desire to ever have a "normal" relationship with another woman ever again. I hope to marry again, but it will be known that ours will be a cuckold relationship...including having c***dren bred by real bulls.
I'm going to list, in no particular order, the most erotic things that I've experienced in being a cuckold:
1) In the nearly 7 years that my ex-wife cuckolded me with 6 different bulls, she never used a condom with any of them. It was one of my two "rules" that I gave her as we started down this Lifestyle path...never, ever refuse sex to any of her lovers and never, EVER disrespect their sperm by making them wear condoms.
2) I've eaten over 200 creampies. I had tried for some time to keep track of how many creampies I'd eaten but once my ex started spending 2 or 3 nights per week over at her Owner's house I lost an exact count. There were times that I cleaned her pussy 6 times in a single week when he'd fuck her at his house and she'd return home in the morning for me to clean her and then he'd be over spending time with our family and take my wife once our daughter was in bed before he'd go home. There's nothing better than fresh creampie.
3) Three times I watched Nick fuck my wife while he and our family were swimming in our pool. I always would watch him and my ex starting to get a bit quiet and playful and pretty soon I'd see her put her bikini bottoms on one of the inflatable rafts and lean over it while he would be fucking her from behind. They were very restrained as our daughter was there, but I had to entertain/distract her as I could see what they were clearly doing.
4) Once, when they were fucking in the pool, it was clear that they were both needing to get more aggressive and not restrain their sex, so he pulled off my ex and I guess pulled his trunks back up or on then grabbed my ex and pulled her from the pool leaving her bikini bottoms on the raft and showing anyone that cared to look, including my daughter and me and our neighbors, that my ex only had on her bikini top and was bare-assed. Well, I had to continue to distract and entertain our daughter why they went inside to fuck in our marital bed. Well, after maybe 15 or 20 minutes he came out and sent me inside while he swam and I found my freshly fucked wife on our bed and she had me eat her creampie and then I got to fuck her until I got close and then I finished by stroking my cum off into a towel.
5) The Bulls that my ex invited to cream her pussy over the last 7 years of our marriage: Keith, Clay, George, Darin, Nick, and Jim. I enjoyed multiple creampies from each of these bulls and four of them watched me clean their sperm from my ex-wife's filled pussy. Only two of her bulls ever watched me have my little dick in her pussy and only once with one of her bulls during a single cuckolding session did I ever get to cum inside of her pussy...it was already filled from the bull and when I slipped into her cum slickened and stretched pussy I maybe lasted about 10 or 15 strokes and less than a minute before I came...she wasn't really harsh with me but she was not happy that I'd cum inside her as at that point in our relationship, cumming inside of her was reserved for her bulls.
6) My ex's Owner, Nick, tattooed my wife as HIS "Bitch In Heat". The idea was mine...well, having her get a tattoo for her Owner was my idea. I've always loved women that have sexy tattoos and as I recognized my role as her cuck hubby, I thought it would be extremely sexy for her to get a tattoo as a symbol of Nick's ownership of my then wife. I had even considered getting a cuck tattoo for myself and wished I had...heck I may just get one since as I'm typing this I realize that I still have a desire to permanently mark my status as a cuck...if I marry again, my next wife will know early on that I'm a cuck. Well, back to my ex's tattoo...I loved how Hotwives would have tattoos. I absolutely loved girls that had Queen of Spades tattoos right above their pursues or something similar and sexy. After discussing my wishes with my ex, she also liked the idea and stared to discuss it with her Owner, Nick. After coming up with many sexy ideas for a tattoo, he decided that he liked a paw print of a wolf as he was clearly her Alpha Male. At that point in time he would openly call her his Bitch In Heat as he said she craved his big cock so much...she was spending the night twice a week at his house and he would come over as often as she could get him to visit...usually as soon I closed the door to our daughter's room I'd hear our bedroom door close in the hallway and soon I could hear the moans of my ex getting fucked and I'd have to turn up my daughter's radio...well, my ex was Nick's Bitch In Heat. So, I designed the paw print he sent me with the letters "N B I H" in the center of the tattoo and sent it back to him for his approval. My thought and plan was that she might have it placed right in her pussy region or maybe on her ass. A week or so went by and one evening that I expected to have her home for the evening she called me at work and asked me to pick up our daughter from school as Nick wanted her to come over that evening. Later that evening she called me and said he'd taken her to a tattoo shop and he was getting her a tattoo. I was bummed because I'd hoped to be there to see. But only after she was done did I know that he tattooed her with the tattoo that I'd helped design not on her pussy or ass regions, but on her upper shoulder and the tattoo is about the size of my fist. It is totally visible when she wears any tank top type of top or dress. Nick said he didn't want his mark to be hidden but rather he wanted my ex to be proud that she belonged to him. She was and is very proud. I can't explain why, but having another man mark your wife as HIS property is one of the most intense cuckolding acts I've experienced or even heard about and I'm still proud of her tattoo and still get hard when I see it.
7) The most mind-blowing cuckold experience that I experienced with my ex was when she called me a little bit before I was leaving work and asked me if I could stop by the pharmacy on the way home and pick up a home pregnancy test. At that point in our relationship I was no longer allowed to have sex with my wife, though I cleaned her bull's cum from her multiple times each week and heard her and occasionally watched her having sex in our home. So, as my heart skipped a beat, my dick got rock hard (sign of a true cuckold) as I nervously asked about 5 questions at once. She told. Me to shut up and explained that while she didn't believe she was pregnant, she had missed her period by a solid week and wanted me to pick her up a test to check. Being a cuck is filled with such a range of emotions...at that moment, I had to consider the real possibility that her Owner had successfully bred her and I was so sexually excited and so totally scared to death all at the same time. When I went to the pharmacy I had to read a few of the EPT boxes to gage which one seemed the best. I ended up buying two different tests. When I was checking out I totally felt that somehow the cashier knew what was going on...that she knew I was heading home to see if my wife was pregnant by her bull. It was an amazingly humiliating experience. The fear of my wife being pregnant was made even more real because my ex had spent the last three or four months trying to find a birth-control that didn't cause her headaches...so, I totally believe that she could have been pregnant and I knew that though she was having issues with her BC, she never slowed down her unprotected sexual activities. She made me wait until after our daughter was asleep and then I watched as she used one of the tests. She peed on the test and we both watched with anticipation for the result to show. It was a scene that any husband and wife would lovingly share except for us we were waiting to see if her Owner had planted a baby in her. I found myself genuinely sad when we discovered that she was not "with c***d".
8) More to cum...yum...
Older stuff:
September 12th, 2014
It likely won't come as a shock to most knowledgeable cuckolds, hotwives or bulls, but my beautiful hotwife divorced me this year. I've read enough about cuckold relationships to know that when the hotwife is not 100% committed to cuckolding her small dicked husband, then the survival of the marriage is unlikely. My beautiful and highly sexed hotwife finally decided that it was best to get me out of our home so that she and her owner didn't have to be distracted by the needy cuckold that I've become. I've cried, I've begged for her to not leave me, but she wouldn't change her mind. It tears me up, but the cuck part of me understands her need to give all her attention to the bull that owns her. Deep down I knew this day would come when Nick, her owner, tattooed his brand on her shoulder...a wolf paw tattoo the size of the palm of my hand that said NBIH (Nick's Bitch In Heat) inside of it. I was and still am so turned on that he would place his ownership brand on her and I was so proud that she never questioned whether she should be branded, the size of the tattoo, the meaning of the tattoo, nor the very visible location it was placed (high on her right back)...as the complete Cuck I've become, I praised her for being so submissive to her owner. Mentally it's hard to understand how, while I've lost the most important person in my life, I still stroke my little cock with the humiliating pride of knowing that my bride chose to serve an Alpha Male with a Huge Cock and has now closed the door on our relationship forever. Short of being bred and giving birth to her lover's baby, this is probably the next closest ultimate cuckolding.
I grew so much in my 12 year marriage, I fully understand and openly accept my need to be cuckolded. I know in time I will possibly marry again... I'm a good looking guy with a good professional career...a good catch for the right woman. However, I know now that when I go into my next serious long term relationship, it will be clear to both me and my lover (future wife?) that ours will be a loving, close relationship with cuckolding as an integral foundation. At this point, I can't see me marrying a woman unless she respects my needs to be cuckolded and shares a need to be a hotwife...not just as a kinky on the side kind of thing, but as a regular part of our daily lives.
I miss my ex-wife so much, but I'm thankful to her for helping me develop into the complete cuckold that I am and likely was always meant to be.
Past posts...
December 17th 2013
It's now been one year that I've been denied my wife's pussy. She still fucks her owner at least two or three times every week...sometimes more. I don't get to clean her as often as I wished...I wish I was allowed to clean his cum from her every time he came in her. She says that she enjoys he feeling of his cum leaking into her panties the day after they've fucked and feels like sexually, he's still inside of her that way. So, I don't get to taste his delicious cum very often. Right now, I'm not sure that I will ever be allowed to put my small dick into my wife's pussy ever again...at least not as long as Nick owns her. She will still do anything that he asks of her. Two months ago he took her to a sex club in OKC where she was dressed as a pirate with a skirt and blouce with no underwear. While they were there she said that he had her top opened with her tits fully exposed and that he was openly finger-fucking her right in the middle of the party. Even though she is shy, she was happy that she was able to please him as she did. I asked if she would let him strip her nude and she said that of course she would and that she will never ever tell him no. I asked to please put my dick in her soon and she laughed and said no and that I already know who owns her pussy and that unless things change that I will never fuck her again...that made me so hard and I stroked myself off.
September 23rd, 2013
Over nine months since I last felt to warmth of my wife's pussy. Truth be told I think of her pussy even in my internal dialog as 100% belonging to her owner, Nick. One thing that I've openly started to accept is that I have started to fantasize about sucking cock. I feel that it is an inevitable thing as the only intimate sexual contact that I have with my wife is when I'm sucking sperm out from "Nick's" pussy. Mentally I feel a change to where when I get horny I start to CRAVE the taste of a man's cum. Even as I stroke my cock I will wipe away my precum and lick it off my fingers...AND when I'm super horny, I've started to shoot my cum into my hand and quickly slap my load into my mouth. I understand that it's just a training process and I am starting to believe that it's only a matter of time until I become a cock sucking cuck. It bothers me to think about when I'm not horny...but at times like now as I'm stroking myself, I wish I was under my wife as her owner fucked her to multiple orgasms and then as he started to go over, I wish that he'd pull his cock out of her and shove it into my mouth and allow me to savor his cum. It's only a matter of time before I take a load straight from the source. Goodness, I've survived the first nine months of never again having my wife's...I mean Nick's pussy.
Latest update May 2nd, 2013
My wife just this morning reminded me that she made a promise to Nick that she would never allow my little dick in her pussy. It's been about a year and a half since she last let me cum inside of her and over 5 months (December of 2012) since I was allowed to have my dick inside of her at all. She still sleeps over at his house at least twice a week and sometimes three or four nights per week. She has been very honest and hurtful to me this year about her displeasure with the sexlife we once had. In fact, about a month ago we were having an arguement...I might have been expressing some jealousy about her going over to Nick's...anyhow, we were unfortunately arguing through the house and in front of our 6 1/2 year old daughter when she very loudly and clearly said, "I've never enjoyed having sex with you!!" Our daughter knows Nick very well as he's over at the house often but she doesn't know that my wife goes and spends two or more nights a week in his bed...she just knows Mommy goes out with her "friends" and believes that she gets home after she goes to sleep. Well, when she blurted out the truth about my sexual performance as we were in the same room as our daughter it really put me in my place and was basically a trump card to the arguement. Our daughter doesn't understand what that comment meant yet but clearly my wife is becoming much more comfortable expressing this truth. I know for a fact that she has told her Mom that that's one of the main reasons that she will never stop seeing Nick (her folks know about Nick but aren't happy that she's cucking me)...anyhow, she told me awhile back that she told her Mom in response to being nagged at about stopping her affair that she can not get intimate satisfaction from me and Nick always gives her that. SO, it's part of my progression it seems that her parents and now our own daughter have openly heard that I am not and never have given her the sexual satisfaction that she needs and gets from Nick. Back to today...Nick just got a new job and my wife has just had shoulder surgery (Rotator Cuff) and it's been maybe 10 days since they've had sex...even though she has spent the night over there...she has been very frustrated the last couple of days and basically bitchy because I know she NEEDS regular sex or she gets depressed...so, I offered to have sex with her and even use a condom if she preferred but though she needs sex she told me that she promised Nick that she'd never let me fuck her again and she told me that she won't break her promise to him. I love my wife so much but I wish I could have sex with her too. However, I openly and very honestly told her that I would NOT want her to break her promise to Nick even knowing what that means for me. I totally support her submissiveness to her owner. He fucks her so well...it's his tattoo that she has displayed on her shoulder...it's his cock that brings her happiness and his bed she gets pleasure in. As tough as it is for this cuck, I love her and know what's best for us...I'm to remain a sexless cuck...that's my role in our marriage.
Update from January 2013
NOTE: Most of the above is no longer true. You can read further down to see a few of the previous updates. However, I am NO longer allowed to fuck my wife. My dick was allowed to enter her, to have sex with her, a total of three times during all of 2012...the first of which was on January 1st, 2012. Every time last year that I was allowed to enter her, her pussy was already filled with her boyfriend's cum...which only caused me to need to pull out quickly after I started and shoot my cum on her tummy (I swore to her that I would never violate her pussy with my cum as long as her boyfriend owned it). So it's been way over a year since I've cum inside of her. I do still get to clean her regularly and she still lets me masturbate after I clean her up. She has recently informed me that I'm likely not going to have sex with her ever again...well, not with my dick. Additionally, since my last update, her boyfriend gave her a tattoo on her back shoulder. It shows anytime that she wears tanks or any shoulder revealing tops. It's a wolf print about the size of the palm of my hand with the initials NBIH in the center of it. NBIH stands for her boyfriend's first initial "N" and BIH stands for Bitch In Heat. That's what he would call her often and was kind of HIS term for my wife. It was originally my suggestion that he give her a tattoo...I had figured he'd give her something along her bikini line or maybe even a tramp stamp...just something that was a little bit hidden away. I was told what he was going to brand her with before they went to the tattoo shop but I only discovered where he placed it and how large it is after it was done. She is very proud of being owned by him and dresses as often as possible so that her shoulder shows. Her parents know that she has a tattoo from him and that she spends at least two night a week overnight at his house. That doesn't keep him from continuing to fuck her at our house. Just last night after watching the Ravens beat the Pats for a trip to Super Bowl 47, he took her to our bedroom and I could hear him slapping her ass (she had disobeyed him and wore a bra over to his house Saturday night so he reddened her ass loudly)and then I could hear her moaning as he fucked her ass. Which brings me to observe that in the 10 years of our marriage she has let me ass fuck her twice and cum in her ass only once. She lets me know that he will fuck her ass fairly often and that she actually craves for him to ass fuck her. She says that he just feels so good in her ass and that he knows what he's doing when he fucks her there. So, that's the latest about our relationship transition. 2012 was a crazy year and the year that it seems both myself and my wife discovered that I enjoy being my wife's Cuck Hubby and that she has committed to being owned by her lover.
Update from July 2012 - It's been a wild year and a half. My wife and I have "played" for about four years now. Over the last 18 months we have moved more and more into a true Cuckold Marriage relationship. Her boyfriend is very dominate and requires that she not have sex with anyone else which means that I have been restricted for about 9 or 10 months now. Last night is a great example of how MY sex life exists now and likely for many years to come.
Last night I had to work late so her "Owner" came over to the house and had dinner with my wife and our 6 year old daughter. I got home around 9:00 and our daughter was already asleep in her bedroom while my wife and her BF were sitting listening to music in the livingroom. I ate my dinner fast and joined them in the room. We watched a bit of Olympic Soccer and while we were doing that I could see that he had pulled up her sundress. She's never allowed to ever wear panties or bra when she's with him so it was normal to see that his hand was then on her bare bottom. after a while I saw that he had his hand in her dress carressing her breast and then just pulled her breast out of the top and was sitting openly pinching her nipple while she was laying with her head on his chest and her hand on his bulge. They started kissing and clearly getting worked up. I went down the hall and closed our daughters door so that when he took my wife she wouldn't be disturbed. When I got back they were getting up off the couch and he had decided to take her to our bedroom (sometimes I get to watch)...but off they went and closed and locked the door. I watched a bit more of the game while clearly distracted and stroking my dck. Soon I could hear the sounds of my wife moaning and cumming from his fucking (She is pretty loud during sex) and I turned down the TV and went into the hallway to listen and stroke my dck more. Well, she clearly came at least two or three times and then I heard what seemed to be him going over (he's not nearly as loud) and they were quiet for a bit. I went back to the livingroom and eventually they came out. We had a bit of small talk and he headed out. I took my wife to the bedroom and as she laid down, I got between her thighs and cleaned his cum from her pussy. DAMN, I have learned to crave the taste of his cum in her. Well, I asked her if I could at least slip my dck into her for a few strokes as sometimes she'll let me do that (but NEVER cum in "HIS" pussy) but this time she said "NO" to just stroke myself off as she watched me and fingered herself to another orgasm.
That really defines our sex lives now. I haven't cum inside my wife for...well, getting close to a year. Her boyfriend is never refused sex...even when she has her period he gets to fuck her in the ass. She spends two nites a week over at his house and he cums (pun intended) over to our house usually at least once a week sometimes more. She just got back from going away with him for a weekend trip. Me, I get my pleasure from cleaning her pussy and stroking my dck. Yet, we are all pretty happy. It's odd yet fun that we have gotten to this place.
The now 'old" Update from 2011 - Wow, what a sexy year!! My wife has a serious boyfriend since the beginning of the year. They go out on dates...even to places that we go to. They kiss in those public places, hold hands and act like the lovers they are. My wife told me that at first she was worried that people we know might see her but decided WTF and now just treats him openly like they are a romantic couple. All three of us have gone out together and he regularly comes over and has dinner with our family. My wife has told most of her close friends, except a few that she knows are too closed minded, that she has a lover and often shares things that she's done with him. Sexually, she lets me know that he is far superior to me. In fact when I have sex with her after she returns from his house or after he has taken her to our bed and finishes with her, I can tell that he has stretched her out so much and always fills her SO full of cum. She has only allowed me to have her once this year without it being right after him...only once in 2011 have I had her pussy when it wasn't stretched and cum filled by her lover. A am starting to realize that I have Sub and Cuckold tendencies more than I ever admitted in the past. This is very weird in some ways but truly makes all three of us very happy. He now has a key to our house and I understand that even if he shows up in the middle of the night to have sex with my wife, I'm to just get up and sleep on the couch as I listen to the loud sexual sounds that fill the house.
I would love to hear from other husbands that have included their wife's lover into their everyday activities including dinner with family and going out in public places with people that know us. For us, it's so exciting to extend and share her sexuality.
Thank you to all the friends that have sent me words of encouragement over the last few years with my quest to help my daughter be black cock only. Though she hasn't started dating yet, many positive things have happened since I last reported. First, my daughter is no longer going to the private school she'd been attending. This last year we started sending her to a charter school that has a significantly better ethnic diversity. Presently my daughter's two best girlfriends are both black girls and about half of her class is black...so much better than her mostly white private school she attended. Oh, and just this last week my daughter started to really use the black wand vibrator I'd bought her last year. There's still a ways to go...but, I'm still 100% committed to helping learn to appreciate black superiority. For any fathers that have the same real life wishes for their daughters, I'd be happy to share any advice that might be helpful to you and I'm always looking for helpful suggestions to assist me in achieving my goals for my girl. Thank you again for those many people that share my beliefs.
January 7th, 2017
Well, I can't go into much detail, but I can say that I'm 100% certain that my daughter has been introduced to interracial porn. My hope now is that she'll have every opportunity to view more of it anytime she wants. She has developed a close friendship with three new girlfriends this last year and I'm likewise hopeful that one or all of them will support her if she expresses sexual interests in black men. Two of the girls are neighbors in their early teens and the other girl is a black classmate of hers. My daughter, like millions of other girls in the world, has full, unrestricted access to the web. Additionally, the home computer is loaded with hundreds of hours of beautiful, and hopefully educational, interracial videos. My hopes for her this new year are that she have a wonderful year filled with tons of laughs and beautiful memories and that she expands her experience and knowledge of black men and sexual matters. I'd be happy if she had the opportunity to meet more black men like our neighbor a few houses down the street and I guess I really hope that she might have an opportunity to see a real black cock close up...maybe one of her classmate's older brothers. That might be an experience that some fathers would fear...but it would truly make me happy if I knew that her first in the flesh experience with a cock was that of a black man. I'll keep you posted. Your prayers and kind words are always welcome.
January 24th,2016
I am a cuckold that now hopes and expects to help my daughter grow up desiring to serve black men only. For those that wish to understand how I got to where I am, please read the older entries. I am a cuck...that's what I desire to be. It's not that I won't fuck a woman again ever, I just would prefer to help them fuck real men, real black men, rather than waste their time with my small dick. About six or maybe nine months ago I recognized that I hoped my daughter would NOT grow up thinking that just because she's white that she should date or fuck white boys when she is old enough. So, I decided that as her father it was my responsibility to help provide sex education at home and teach her that white girls should serve black men. I know there are some people that think teaching our k**s about sex is wrong and that somehow we should trust the schools or our k**s friends to educate them on one of the most important things in life...all of you are messed up in the head. Rather than allow others to fill my daughter's head with misguided bullshit and watch her waste years or decades of her life unsatisfied sexually with small-dicked white boys, I've decided to teach her what I believe is important for her to understand sexually...that black men are superior and that white girls should serve them. While all that I've done so far is to encourage her to notice black men out in public or on TV...she now will point a good looking, strong, alpha male black man out to me any time she sees one. She's making me proud. While I haven't introduced her to books or videos to further show her more about sex and especially why black men are clearly superior, I plan to do so as soon as I think she's ready to take that next step. The cuckold part of me can't deny that I would welcome her getting pregnant by a black lover and having a beautiful mixed-race baby or babies...I'd be so proud to be their grandfather. But as she is still too young to date or have sex, that will be something I continue to hope for.
As for me, I haven't dated much since my divorce, I'm not against dating and falling in love again...even marrying again...but, being a cuckold is something I've discovered that I need in my life and any relationship that I have will have this understanding right up front. So, we will see if I find a partner that is willing to share my life with me and be willing to fuck black men as a regular put of our marriage.
April 7th, 2015
I thought I would take this moment to talk about how great it is to discover my calling in life...that of being a cuckold. Even though this lifestyle has caused my wife to divorce me, the sexual intensity and addictive joys that being a cuckold have provided help me to not only understand why my wife of 12 years would divorce me, but when I think of how she chose her "Owner's" big cock over our relationship it usually turns me on and I'll soon be stroking my little dick until I cum. I'm addicted to being a cuckold and I have no desire to ever have a "normal" relationship with another woman ever again. I hope to marry again, but it will be known that ours will be a cuckold relationship...including having c***dren bred by real bulls.
I'm going to list, in no particular order, the most erotic things that I've experienced in being a cuckold:
1) In the nearly 7 years that my ex-wife cuckolded me with 6 different bulls, she never used a condom with any of them. It was one of my two "rules" that I gave her as we started down this Lifestyle path...never, ever refuse sex to any of her lovers and never, EVER disrespect their sperm by making them wear condoms.
2) I've eaten over 200 creampies. I had tried for some time to keep track of how many creampies I'd eaten but once my ex started spending 2 or 3 nights per week over at her Owner's house I lost an exact count. There were times that I cleaned her pussy 6 times in a single week when he'd fuck her at his house and she'd return home in the morning for me to clean her and then he'd be over spending time with our family and take my wife once our daughter was in bed before he'd go home. There's nothing better than fresh creampie.
3) Three times I watched Nick fuck my wife while he and our family were swimming in our pool. I always would watch him and my ex starting to get a bit quiet and playful and pretty soon I'd see her put her bikini bottoms on one of the inflatable rafts and lean over it while he would be fucking her from behind. They were very restrained as our daughter was there, but I had to entertain/distract her as I could see what they were clearly doing.
4) Once, when they were fucking in the pool, it was clear that they were both needing to get more aggressive and not restrain their sex, so he pulled off my ex and I guess pulled his trunks back up or on then grabbed my ex and pulled her from the pool leaving her bikini bottoms on the raft and showing anyone that cared to look, including my daughter and me and our neighbors, that my ex only had on her bikini top and was bare-assed. Well, I had to continue to distract and entertain our daughter why they went inside to fuck in our marital bed. Well, after maybe 15 or 20 minutes he came out and sent me inside while he swam and I found my freshly fucked wife on our bed and she had me eat her creampie and then I got to fuck her until I got close and then I finished by stroking my cum off into a towel.
5) The Bulls that my ex invited to cream her pussy over the last 7 years of our marriage: Keith, Clay, George, Darin, Nick, and Jim. I enjoyed multiple creampies from each of these bulls and four of them watched me clean their sperm from my ex-wife's filled pussy. Only two of her bulls ever watched me have my little dick in her pussy and only once with one of her bulls during a single cuckolding session did I ever get to cum inside of her pussy...it was already filled from the bull and when I slipped into her cum slickened and stretched pussy I maybe lasted about 10 or 15 strokes and less than a minute before I came...she wasn't really harsh with me but she was not happy that I'd cum inside her as at that point in our relationship, cumming inside of her was reserved for her bulls.
6) My ex's Owner, Nick, tattooed my wife as HIS "Bitch In Heat". The idea was mine...well, having her get a tattoo for her Owner was my idea. I've always loved women that have sexy tattoos and as I recognized my role as her cuck hubby, I thought it would be extremely sexy for her to get a tattoo as a symbol of Nick's ownership of my then wife. I had even considered getting a cuck tattoo for myself and wished I had...heck I may just get one since as I'm typing this I realize that I still have a desire to permanently mark my status as a cuck...if I marry again, my next wife will know early on that I'm a cuck. Well, back to my ex's tattoo...I loved how Hotwives would have tattoos. I absolutely loved girls that had Queen of Spades tattoos right above their pursues or something similar and sexy. After discussing my wishes with my ex, she also liked the idea and stared to discuss it with her Owner, Nick. After coming up with many sexy ideas for a tattoo, he decided that he liked a paw print of a wolf as he was clearly her Alpha Male. At that point in time he would openly call her his Bitch In Heat as he said she craved his big cock so much...she was spending the night twice a week at his house and he would come over as often as she could get him to visit...usually as soon I closed the door to our daughter's room I'd hear our bedroom door close in the hallway and soon I could hear the moans of my ex getting fucked and I'd have to turn up my daughter's radio...well, my ex was Nick's Bitch In Heat. So, I designed the paw print he sent me with the letters "N B I H" in the center of the tattoo and sent it back to him for his approval. My thought and plan was that she might have it placed right in her pussy region or maybe on her ass. A week or so went by and one evening that I expected to have her home for the evening she called me at work and asked me to pick up our daughter from school as Nick wanted her to come over that evening. Later that evening she called me and said he'd taken her to a tattoo shop and he was getting her a tattoo. I was bummed because I'd hoped to be there to see. But only after she was done did I know that he tattooed her with the tattoo that I'd helped design not on her pussy or ass regions, but on her upper shoulder and the tattoo is about the size of my fist. It is totally visible when she wears any tank top type of top or dress. Nick said he didn't want his mark to be hidden but rather he wanted my ex to be proud that she belonged to him. She was and is very proud. I can't explain why, but having another man mark your wife as HIS property is one of the most intense cuckolding acts I've experienced or even heard about and I'm still proud of her tattoo and still get hard when I see it.
7) The most mind-blowing cuckold experience that I experienced with my ex was when she called me a little bit before I was leaving work and asked me if I could stop by the pharmacy on the way home and pick up a home pregnancy test. At that point in our relationship I was no longer allowed to have sex with my wife, though I cleaned her bull's cum from her multiple times each week and heard her and occasionally watched her having sex in our home. So, as my heart skipped a beat, my dick got rock hard (sign of a true cuckold) as I nervously asked about 5 questions at once. She told. Me to shut up and explained that while she didn't believe she was pregnant, she had missed her period by a solid week and wanted me to pick her up a test to check. Being a cuck is filled with such a range of emotions...at that moment, I had to consider the real possibility that her Owner had successfully bred her and I was so sexually excited and so totally scared to death all at the same time. When I went to the pharmacy I had to read a few of the EPT boxes to gage which one seemed the best. I ended up buying two different tests. When I was checking out I totally felt that somehow the cashier knew what was going on...that she knew I was heading home to see if my wife was pregnant by her bull. It was an amazingly humiliating experience. The fear of my wife being pregnant was made even more real because my ex had spent the last three or four months trying to find a birth-control that didn't cause her headaches...so, I totally believe that she could have been pregnant and I knew that though she was having issues with her BC, she never slowed down her unprotected sexual activities. She made me wait until after our daughter was asleep and then I watched as she used one of the tests. She peed on the test and we both watched with anticipation for the result to show. It was a scene that any husband and wife would lovingly share except for us we were waiting to see if her Owner had planted a baby in her. I found myself genuinely sad when we discovered that she was not "with c***d".
8) More to cum...yum...
Older stuff:
September 12th, 2014
It likely won't come as a shock to most knowledgeable cuckolds, hotwives or bulls, but my beautiful hotwife divorced me this year. I've read enough about cuckold relationships to know that when the hotwife is not 100% committed to cuckolding her small dicked husband, then the survival of the marriage is unlikely. My beautiful and highly sexed hotwife finally decided that it was best to get me out of our home so that she and her owner didn't have to be distracted by the needy cuckold that I've become. I've cried, I've begged for her to not leave me, but she wouldn't change her mind. It tears me up, but the cuck part of me understands her need to give all her attention to the bull that owns her. Deep down I knew this day would come when Nick, her owner, tattooed his brand on her shoulder...a wolf paw tattoo the size of the palm of my hand that said NBIH (Nick's Bitch In Heat) inside of it. I was and still am so turned on that he would place his ownership brand on her and I was so proud that she never questioned whether she should be branded, the size of the tattoo, the meaning of the tattoo, nor the very visible location it was placed (high on her right back)...as the complete Cuck I've become, I praised her for being so submissive to her owner. Mentally it's hard to understand how, while I've lost the most important person in my life, I still stroke my little cock with the humiliating pride of knowing that my bride chose to serve an Alpha Male with a Huge Cock and has now closed the door on our relationship forever. Short of being bred and giving birth to her lover's baby, this is probably the next closest ultimate cuckolding.
I grew so much in my 12 year marriage, I fully understand and openly accept my need to be cuckolded. I know in time I will possibly marry again... I'm a good looking guy with a good professional career...a good catch for the right woman. However, I know now that when I go into my next serious long term relationship, it will be clear to both me and my lover (future wife?) that ours will be a loving, close relationship with cuckolding as an integral foundation. At this point, I can't see me marrying a woman unless she respects my needs to be cuckolded and shares a need to be a hotwife...not just as a kinky on the side kind of thing, but as a regular part of our daily lives.
I miss my ex-wife so much, but I'm thankful to her for helping me develop into the complete cuckold that I am and likely was always meant to be.
Past posts...
December 17th 2013
It's now been one year that I've been denied my wife's pussy. She still fucks her owner at least two or three times every week...sometimes more. I don't get to clean her as often as I wished...I wish I was allowed to clean his cum from her every time he came in her. She says that she enjoys he feeling of his cum leaking into her panties the day after they've fucked and feels like sexually, he's still inside of her that way. So, I don't get to taste his delicious cum very often. Right now, I'm not sure that I will ever be allowed to put my small dick into my wife's pussy ever again...at least not as long as Nick owns her. She will still do anything that he asks of her. Two months ago he took her to a sex club in OKC where she was dressed as a pirate with a skirt and blouce with no underwear. While they were there she said that he had her top opened with her tits fully exposed and that he was openly finger-fucking her right in the middle of the party. Even though she is shy, she was happy that she was able to please him as she did. I asked if she would let him strip her nude and she said that of course she would and that she will never ever tell him no. I asked to please put my dick in her soon and she laughed and said no and that I already know who owns her pussy and that unless things change that I will never fuck her again...that made me so hard and I stroked myself off.
September 23rd, 2013
Over nine months since I last felt to warmth of my wife's pussy. Truth be told I think of her pussy even in my internal dialog as 100% belonging to her owner, Nick. One thing that I've openly started to accept is that I have started to fantasize about sucking cock. I feel that it is an inevitable thing as the only intimate sexual contact that I have with my wife is when I'm sucking sperm out from "Nick's" pussy. Mentally I feel a change to where when I get horny I start to CRAVE the taste of a man's cum. Even as I stroke my cock I will wipe away my precum and lick it off my fingers...AND when I'm super horny, I've started to shoot my cum into my hand and quickly slap my load into my mouth. I understand that it's just a training process and I am starting to believe that it's only a matter of time until I become a cock sucking cuck. It bothers me to think about when I'm not horny...but at times like now as I'm stroking myself, I wish I was under my wife as her owner fucked her to multiple orgasms and then as he started to go over, I wish that he'd pull his cock out of her and shove it into my mouth and allow me to savor his cum. It's only a matter of time before I take a load straight from the source. Goodness, I've survived the first nine months of never again having my wife's...I mean Nick's pussy.
Latest update May 2nd, 2013
My wife just this morning reminded me that she made a promise to Nick that she would never allow my little dick in her pussy. It's been about a year and a half since she last let me cum inside of her and over 5 months (December of 2012) since I was allowed to have my dick inside of her at all. She still sleeps over at his house at least twice a week and sometimes three or four nights per week. She has been very honest and hurtful to me this year about her displeasure with the sexlife we once had. In fact, about a month ago we were having an arguement...I might have been expressing some jealousy about her going over to Nick's...anyhow, we were unfortunately arguing through the house and in front of our 6 1/2 year old daughter when she very loudly and clearly said, "I've never enjoyed having sex with you!!" Our daughter knows Nick very well as he's over at the house often but she doesn't know that my wife goes and spends two or more nights a week in his bed...she just knows Mommy goes out with her "friends" and believes that she gets home after she goes to sleep. Well, when she blurted out the truth about my sexual performance as we were in the same room as our daughter it really put me in my place and was basically a trump card to the arguement. Our daughter doesn't understand what that comment meant yet but clearly my wife is becoming much more comfortable expressing this truth. I know for a fact that she has told her Mom that that's one of the main reasons that she will never stop seeing Nick (her folks know about Nick but aren't happy that she's cucking me)...anyhow, she told me awhile back that she told her Mom in response to being nagged at about stopping her affair that she can not get intimate satisfaction from me and Nick always gives her that. SO, it's part of my progression it seems that her parents and now our own daughter have openly heard that I am not and never have given her the sexual satisfaction that she needs and gets from Nick. Back to today...Nick just got a new job and my wife has just had shoulder surgery (Rotator Cuff) and it's been maybe 10 days since they've had sex...even though she has spent the night over there...she has been very frustrated the last couple of days and basically bitchy because I know she NEEDS regular sex or she gets depressed...so, I offered to have sex with her and even use a condom if she preferred but though she needs sex she told me that she promised Nick that she'd never let me fuck her again and she told me that she won't break her promise to him. I love my wife so much but I wish I could have sex with her too. However, I openly and very honestly told her that I would NOT want her to break her promise to Nick even knowing what that means for me. I totally support her submissiveness to her owner. He fucks her so well...it's his tattoo that she has displayed on her shoulder...it's his cock that brings her happiness and his bed she gets pleasure in. As tough as it is for this cuck, I love her and know what's best for us...I'm to remain a sexless cuck...that's my role in our marriage.
Update from January 2013
NOTE: Most of the above is no longer true. You can read further down to see a few of the previous updates. However, I am NO longer allowed to fuck my wife. My dick was allowed to enter her, to have sex with her, a total of three times during all of 2012...the first of which was on January 1st, 2012. Every time last year that I was allowed to enter her, her pussy was already filled with her boyfriend's cum...which only caused me to need to pull out quickly after I started and shoot my cum on her tummy (I swore to her that I would never violate her pussy with my cum as long as her boyfriend owned it). So it's been way over a year since I've cum inside of her. I do still get to clean her regularly and she still lets me masturbate after I clean her up. She has recently informed me that I'm likely not going to have sex with her ever again...well, not with my dick. Additionally, since my last update, her boyfriend gave her a tattoo on her back shoulder. It shows anytime that she wears tanks or any shoulder revealing tops. It's a wolf print about the size of the palm of my hand with the initials NBIH in the center of it. NBIH stands for her boyfriend's first initial "N" and BIH stands for Bitch In Heat. That's what he would call her often and was kind of HIS term for my wife. It was originally my suggestion that he give her a tattoo...I had figured he'd give her something along her bikini line or maybe even a tramp stamp...just something that was a little bit hidden away. I was told what he was going to brand her with before they went to the tattoo shop but I only discovered where he placed it and how large it is after it was done. She is very proud of being owned by him and dresses as often as possible so that her shoulder shows. Her parents know that she has a tattoo from him and that she spends at least two night a week overnight at his house. That doesn't keep him from continuing to fuck her at our house. Just last night after watching the Ravens beat the Pats for a trip to Super Bowl 47, he took her to our bedroom and I could hear him slapping her ass (she had disobeyed him and wore a bra over to his house Saturday night so he reddened her ass loudly)and then I could hear her moaning as he fucked her ass. Which brings me to observe that in the 10 years of our marriage she has let me ass fuck her twice and cum in her ass only once. She lets me know that he will fuck her ass fairly often and that she actually craves for him to ass fuck her. She says that he just feels so good in her ass and that he knows what he's doing when he fucks her there. So, that's the latest about our relationship transition. 2012 was a crazy year and the year that it seems both myself and my wife discovered that I enjoy being my wife's Cuck Hubby and that she has committed to being owned by her lover.
Update from July 2012 - It's been a wild year and a half. My wife and I have "played" for about four years now. Over the last 18 months we have moved more and more into a true Cuckold Marriage relationship. Her boyfriend is very dominate and requires that she not have sex with anyone else which means that I have been restricted for about 9 or 10 months now. Last night is a great example of how MY sex life exists now and likely for many years to come.
Last night I had to work late so her "Owner" came over to the house and had dinner with my wife and our 6 year old daughter. I got home around 9:00 and our daughter was already asleep in her bedroom while my wife and her BF were sitting listening to music in the livingroom. I ate my dinner fast and joined them in the room. We watched a bit of Olympic Soccer and while we were doing that I could see that he had pulled up her sundress. She's never allowed to ever wear panties or bra when she's with him so it was normal to see that his hand was then on her bare bottom. after a while I saw that he had his hand in her dress carressing her breast and then just pulled her breast out of the top and was sitting openly pinching her nipple while she was laying with her head on his chest and her hand on his bulge. They started kissing and clearly getting worked up. I went down the hall and closed our daughters door so that when he took my wife she wouldn't be disturbed. When I got back they were getting up off the couch and he had decided to take her to our bedroom (sometimes I get to watch)...but off they went and closed and locked the door. I watched a bit more of the game while clearly distracted and stroking my dck. Soon I could hear the sounds of my wife moaning and cumming from his fucking (She is pretty loud during sex) and I turned down the TV and went into the hallway to listen and stroke my dck more. Well, she clearly came at least two or three times and then I heard what seemed to be him going over (he's not nearly as loud) and they were quiet for a bit. I went back to the livingroom and eventually they came out. We had a bit of small talk and he headed out. I took my wife to the bedroom and as she laid down, I got between her thighs and cleaned his cum from her pussy. DAMN, I have learned to crave the taste of his cum in her. Well, I asked her if I could at least slip my dck into her for a few strokes as sometimes she'll let me do that (but NEVER cum in "HIS" pussy) but this time she said "NO" to just stroke myself off as she watched me and fingered herself to another orgasm.
That really defines our sex lives now. I haven't cum inside my wife for...well, getting close to a year. Her boyfriend is never refused sex...even when she has her period he gets to fuck her in the ass. She spends two nites a week over at his house and he cums (pun intended) over to our house usually at least once a week sometimes more. She just got back from going away with him for a weekend trip. Me, I get my pleasure from cleaning her pussy and stroking my dck. Yet, we are all pretty happy. It's odd yet fun that we have gotten to this place.
The now 'old" Update from 2011 - Wow, what a sexy year!! My wife has a serious boyfriend since the beginning of the year. They go out on dates...even to places that we go to. They kiss in those public places, hold hands and act like the lovers they are. My wife told me that at first she was worried that people we know might see her but decided WTF and now just treats him openly like they are a romantic couple. All three of us have gone out together and he regularly comes over and has dinner with our family. My wife has told most of her close friends, except a few that she knows are too closed minded, that she has a lover and often shares things that she's done with him. Sexually, she lets me know that he is far superior to me. In fact when I have sex with her after she returns from his house or after he has taken her to our bed and finishes with her, I can tell that he has stretched her out so much and always fills her SO full of cum. She has only allowed me to have her once this year without it being right after him...only once in 2011 have I had her pussy when it wasn't stretched and cum filled by her lover. A am starting to realize that I have Sub and Cuckold tendencies more than I ever admitted in the past. This is very weird in some ways but truly makes all three of us very happy. He now has a key to our house and I understand that even if he shows up in the middle of the night to have sex with my wife, I'm to just get up and sleep on the couch as I listen to the loud sexual sounds that fill the house.
I would love to hear from other husbands that have included their wife's lover into their everyday activities including dinner with family and going out in public places with people that know us. For us, it's so exciting to extend and share her sexuality.
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