On being a panty boy/panty sissy...

I fell in love with silky nylon women's underthings when I was about 11 years old, and I've always fallen head over teacart when I've encountered them. But does that make me either gay or sissy?
Well, I've never been the real he-man type, and until my 30's was rather small and not terribly masculine, so I think I could easily slip in to the definition of sissy. I had homosexual (can I get away with saying that word these days?) experiences when I was in my early and mid-teen years, but no in my adult life. Since I came across X-hamster, I've enjoyed watching other panty-boys masturbate in their silky nylon panties, nighties, slips, etc. But it's not the slutty whorish things that turn me on. Nor am I enamored of the big, burly bruisers wearing their sissy things. The men who treat their skin well, and stay hairless by plucking or depilatories or waxing do start my juices flowing. Clear, smooth skin is where the feminine form starts taking shape. When one's body is free of all the thick manly hair,, nails trimmed and smoothing lotion is applied, I can start imagining that I am him putting on the silky foundation garments or feminine night clothes. I can imagine the soft fragrant panties sliding up my thighs and over my buttocks and genitals, with smooth feminine hands smoothing all that luscious fabric over me.
So, why does Xhamster lump all crossdressers into the gay or transgender groups? When I think gay, I think of men who are uncomfortable with who or what they are, and skulk around in back alleys and filthy public toilets and truckstops. When I think of transgender I think of men who have or want to mutilate themselves in order to look like or feel like women. I don't want any of that and can't imagine myself in any of those settings. Perhaps most who enjoy our pasttime have not allowed themselves to experience of self love in the company of a truly feminine woman or man? I will expand on this later, but for now, comments are welcome, as long as they are nice, please?