RL Activities For Master Danny -Updated 7/23/22
Below i will detail directions i follow for Master (MasterDannyJumbo75, https://xhamster.com/users/masterdannyjumbo75 ). My most recent submissions will be at the top and older ones will be below. These are orders i follow for Master, in addition to the daily requirements detailed in my previous blog. Thank Y/you all for Y/your interest in my submission and Y/your comments on my blogs.
7/23/22: After Master was absent for about 100 days recently, during which time Master Doc assumed responsibility and control of me, Master has returned to xHamster. W/we made a few tweaks to the contract (more to come probably) and i am so happy He is back. To celebrate, i have enjoyed three self induced orgasms over the last couple days, a pleasure Master permits me only when i have my period, and only when my Husband's cock is in my mouth. Each time i orgasmed, i was thinking about Master and how happy i am that He is back. i was also thinking about how grateful i am that Doc steps in and looks over me in Master's absence. Finally, as i rubbed my cunt and clit, i was also thinking that i needed to be sure to keep Hubby's pleasure intense, without letting Him cum too quickly if i was to enjoy an orgasm too, LOL.
11/10/21: After being disabled for several months, it seems updates are again being permitted. i will resume monthly updates for Master Danny, will ask Him what He would like me to do for the November update. ;-p
6/13/21: i was recently asked to explain in words what submission means to me... my answer:
Submission to me is a complete and unconditional exchange of power, surrendering my free will to Another, and trusting Them to make all decisions about how my mind and body (Their property) are to be used. i have no say in what or when i eat, how i dress or maintain my appearance, how i bathe or when i use the restroom or other locations to relieve myself. If Master determines that He wants my udders to produce milk (which He can induce, controlling my body internally), i will create milk continuously and proudly as a hucow for Master and His friends, the weight of my heavy milk filled udders constantly reminding me of my place. i believe these are the reasons that pony and pet play fascinate me so intensely.
Submission is also understanding that i am simply a collection of flesh and warm moist holes meant to entertain my Superiors and sheathe cocks as needed. All expectations of privacy are forfeited in exchange for Master's decisions about when i will be on display and for Whom i will be displayed.
Submission means that my only purpose is to being pleasure, and when They desire, orgasms to Men and Women who chose to make use of me. My mouth, ass and cunt are serving their ultimate purpose when they bring about and accept loads of cum from Master's cock, or From Those with whom He shares me. If i happen to enjoy an orgasm or two along the way, that is a gift i must be thankful for, not a pleasure i should expect or feel entitled to.
Finally it is understanding that my pain, humiliation or shame, no matter how intense, is not for naught if it entertains my Master. While i prefer the B&D and D&S elements of BDSM, i also understand that the S&M elements may be desired by Master from time to time and i am happy to fulfill His desires.
5/30/21: This month i disappointed Master Danny by failing to complete a task for Him. The task required a daily time commitment that was unrealistic to work onto my real life "adulting" responsibilities. It also involved working up to fisting my cunt for Him, which is something i have never wanted to do. i spend my life trying to keep my cunt as tight as possible for my Husband's pleasure, stretching it seems counter intuitive, even if the elasticity of my cunt's soft tissue would likely allow such activities without impact to His pleasure. It feels so bad to disappoint Master Danny, i just hope He can get past it and move on with me.
4/17/2021: This month's entry is a bit different; it is excerpts from conversation with a Dom that was hoping to become my Master over three years ago. Ultimately i waited until Master Danny came into my life to give myself in submission, and i am so thankful i did. Thank You Master Danny, for NOT being anything like JiltedDom below (name changed to protect the guilty).
JiltedDom: Hello slave, I hope this finds you well and well rested as well as excited for your future that I believe will be at my feet. As you know, we met several years ago via Crystal Palace and then Shangrilla. We have played once or twice, and the thing that impressed me most about you is that you truly know your place and have a desire to be in service to a Master. Few slaves are like this. With that in mind, I am most interested in enslaving you permanently online. (this was His initial response to my search for a Master, followed by His proposed contract)
nadia: It is with great sadness that i write to inform You that i will not be accepting Your proposal or any of the other proposals i received. i do look forward to ongoing communication and friendship with You and hope You feel the same way. Before posting my blog seeking a Master or Mistress, i decided that one of my (undisclosed) deciding criteria would be that any Dom/me that was interested in my submission to Them would already display Their interest in me in Their public gallery and/or blog favorites. Surprisingly none of the interested Dom/mes displayed this basic level of interest in me, which has led me to the decision to not give myself in online service to Anyone at this time. In the event that i decide to make an offer of service in the future, i feel i should give You open and honest feedback about Your proposal. i was very excited by Your proposal and thought it would be mutually beneficial, however i do feel that it followed too closely the agreement i had in place before, without enough significant variation...
JiltedDom: Unannounced criteria is ridiculous. Absolute nonsense to expect someone to do something without telling them. I've decided to depart from the scene entirely. I have grown tired of unspoken expectations, dishonesty and excuses that I get from everyone in this scene, now including you. Goodbye.
nadia: i am so very sorry You feel this way. It was not my intention to upset You Sir, rather to reward Those that have shown an interest in me by favoriting what i share. i really thought it would be more of a tiebreaker, rather than a qualifier, but it just turned out that way. In any courtship, there are always unspoken desires and expectations, which when met on both sides typically leads to long term relationships rather than short flings. When You go on a date with someone new, You wouldn't say "Your job sounds challenging, by the way, i will only marry you if you swallow my cum when sucking my cock" but the reality is, that might be an unspoken expectation or qualification for long term commitment. Not saying that one applies to You, but You understand what i am saying... there are always unspoken qualifications and expectations, on both sides of potential relationships, whether virtual or real... vanilla or BDSM. Whether fair or not, i applied the same criteria to all Suitors, and the Others upon receiving a very similar rejection to the one i sent You all responded favorably, understanding the reasons for the undisclosed criteria. i apologize again for upsetting You.
JiltedDom: (3 years later) Having just seen this, I can't say that I think your excuse has much weight.
nadia: i respect Your minority opinion. My relationship with Master Danny is going wonderfully. Others who had been in consideration for His role are happy that my training has progressed, so i assume You would want to know as well.
JiltedDom: Don't care. Seeya.
And this is why i am so thankful i did not give this Man the gift of my submission!!!
3/29/2021: Master Danny has given His slave a wonderful gift, permission to masturbate to orgasm while my Husband's cock is in my mouth (only when i have my period). i continue to enjoy this freedom regularly during my period, including in recent days. With that said, i am still humbled and humiliated occasionally, like i was Thursday night when Hubby orgasmed unexpectedly quickly while i was sucking His cock. i was forced to immediately stop pleasuring myself after swallowing His cum and cleaning his softening cock, leaving me yearning for an orgasm as His sensitivity post orgasm led him to end my oral attention. i know it shouldn't logically be so humiliating for me to ask Him to bring me to orgasm when i have my period (He doesn't know that i am not permitted to bring about my own), but it reminds me of my place serving Master Danny and my dependence on Others for my sexual pleasure. Hubby happily obliged and i had a wonderful orgasm, the whole time thinking about my sexual dependence and servitude. Both exciting and humiliating.
2/11/2021: After spending a good deal of time thinking about the perfect "humble slave" pose, often while drifting off to sleep, i determined all of the attributes of the position that i find are important. Once i knew my position, and had practiced it many times (naked in the bathroom, feeling the humiliation of my upturned ass and hanging udders), i endeavored to find the perfect image to replicate my humble pose and it was harder to find than i anticipated. After looking at hundreds if not thousands of images, I settled on this one as nearly perfect:
https://xhamster.com/photos/gallery/12361872/301627424
i am not delusional, and i know i am no where near the beauty that she is, but she bears a resemblance to me (a rail thin anorexic blond in the perfect position would still not represent me well, for example), or i to her perhaps, and that is enough for this image to be my perfect muse for the humble position. The model also needed to be naked... it is amazing how many images i found where the model was in my perfect humble pose, but was wearing street clothes, lingerie, or something in between.
Imagining my self in her place, the image must show my ass high in the air, presented as the first thing One might see when entering a room where i am displayed, with my knees far enough apart that my cunt lips open slightly, invitingly. Elbows on the floor curves my lower back and leaves room for my udders to hang free and move in clear sight from the front or side, with my head and eyes up to acknowledge Those around me and show both my humility and supplication to Them. My full rear is available for teasing, groping or punishment, and my mouth, asshole and cunt are always available to sheath cocks as desired. i know my place and in my fantasy i present myself to my Master and His invited Guests just like this as They enter our home. In reality, i present myself this way to my Husband during sex when He is ready to mount me from behind, or to give him a nice view of my upturned ass and hanging udders while i suck His beautiful cock. Mmmmmm!
1/16/2021: 466... it had been 466 days since i had brought myself to orgasm, since 10/6/2019, until two days ago when Master Danny graciously agreed to a change to our contract, permitting me to bring about my own orgasm (something prohibited under our contract to make me completely dependent on my Husband for my orgasms) under very specific conditions. While self pleasure is still required daily (two anal and one vaginal) and orgasms as the result of self pleasure are prohibited, Master has introduced a provision to allow me to being about my own orgasms only when i have my period and my Husband's cock is in my mouth.
So, Thursday night, when giving my Husband His bedtime blowjob, i knelt naked between his legs on the bed and arched my back with my ass high in the air and my udders hanging against His inner thigh as i sucked His cock rhythmically while rubbing my clit in firm circles with my right hand. The sensation was familiar and wonderful as i felt His cock growing in my mouth, the familiar sounds from Him as He squirmed a bit beneath me and reached down to grope my hanging udders as His orgasm neared and i picked up the pace on my clit, not wanting to miss the opportunity for my first orgasm since Sunday. Thankfully as His cock exploded in my mouth he gripped my udders roughly and pinched my nipples hard, helping me to achieve bliss shortly after Him as His cock softened in my mouth and i swallowed His load of cum. It felt so wonderful to orgasm during my period without the humiliation of having to ask Hubby to rub my clit, but there was a different humiliation of bringing about my Husband's orgasm like a good slut, while needing so badly to have one that i wantonly rubbed my cunt rather than waiting a day or two for my period to be done and for Hubby to again begin bestowing upon me lovely orgasms with his mouth, hands and cock.
Adding to the humiliation (and excitement) was the thought placed in my head by Master Danny... as i cleaned Hubby's cock with my mouth and came down from my orgasm, i imagined Master cumming all over my upturned ass, then pissing on me to rinse the cum from my flesh. These dirty, exciting thoughts ran through my mind as i crawled up from my place between His legs, dragging my hanging udders and hypersensitive nipples along His body, and snuggled with my Husband, the taste of His cum still lingering in my mouth as we both enjoyed a post orgasmic glow. :-)
12/16/2020: While i still can't perform many of my daily tasks due to Hubby working from home (He would find it a bit odd if i knelt naked on the floor to eat my lunch from a bowl without using my hands, LOL), December continues with Master still requiring two of my thrice daily masturbations to be anal rather than vaginal. It is interesting how easily i finger my asshole now, knowing just how to position myself to allow comfortable entry and finger fucking. It has become more and more comfortable the longer i do it, and it feels almost nice, but still nothing approaching orgasmic (as many folks have assured me would occur). The personal humiliation of fingering my ass twice a day has not changed though, and i fear Master will instruct me to offer my ass to my Husband one day soon. i dread that day because i will either have to disobey Master Danny, or humiliate myself by asking my Husband to fuck my ass, something neither of U/us has ever had any interest in. i think if my cunt stopped providing Him pleasure, it would be different, but He never has any trouble cumming while fucking my cunt, udders or mouth, so introducing my ass to the mix seems unnecessary and dirty. i know that there are cleaning options to make my ass less dirty, but the reality is when my cunt needs no special attention prior to sex, why add my ass with all the cleaning requirements required to make it free of any feces?
11/11/2020: NOvember is giving me some break from anal fingering as i am now permitted to masturbate my cunt once daily and my ass twice daily. i have continued to finger my ass in the shower every morning, and now i find time in the bathroom to rub my clit and finger my cunt until i near orgasm, then i move my fingers, slippery with the juices of my cunt, to my asshole. i am still not permitted to bring about my own orgasms, but so far i am still not approaching anal orgasms, so once i leave my needy cunt longing for more, there is no risk of an orgasm for which i am still dependent on my Husband.
10/31/2020: LOCKTOBER was one of my biggest challenges to date. Master forbid me from touching my cunt, but shifted my thrice daily masturbation to my ass. While i have never liked anal play, and at first the anal fingering was not particularly comfortable, i did find it to feel better as the month went on. About half way through the month Master had me add a second finger, which was surprisingly awkward and challenging at first, but quickly became much easier as i learned to relax my sphincter more. With that said, i never got to the point where i was enjoying anal orgasms, but having fingers sliding in and out of my asshole started to feel ok, even though i would have much preferred to have been fingering my cunt.
9/28/2020: Per Master's instruction, i took the time to observe myself in a mirror while masturbating over the weekend. While Hubby was gone for an hour or so, i moved a chair into our master bathroom and set it up in front of a full length mirror. i removed my robe and warmed my glass beaded dildo (see image of my bed with glass dildo in my PG gallery) in a sink of hot water, thinking about Master watching me, which always gets my cunt wet. i moved to the chair and worked the small end of the dildo into the outer folds of my wet cunt, observing carefully how my outer lips folded in a bit as it went in, and opened up as it slid out, slick with my juices. i slowly started to fuck myself, letting it go a bit deeper each time, imagining it was Master's hard cock.
When an orgasm neared, i stopped and massaged my hanging udders playfully, teasing my aching nipples. After a few moments, i turned the dildo around and started to fuck my cunt with the wider end first, watching my hungry cunt swallow up each progressively smaller bulb of glass. i continued to fuck myself, mesmerized by the sight of my cunt in the mirror, until i nearly lost control and orgasmed, but i stopped just in time, preserving my nearly 12 months of resisting giving myself orgasms, even while masturbating daily for Master. When my Husband fucked me later in the day, i imagined watching His cock fuck me like the dildo, and enjoyed two orgasms before He filled my cunt with His cum. Thank You Master, for giving me directions to follow for You!
8/5/2020: Master Danny's loan of my services to DomMaster81 for a single live scene has not occurred yet due to scheduling challenges, but i did have time to follow some instructions for DomMaster81 yesterday. Monday night starting at 8p really, when i began a fast as instructed.
Tuesday morning i drank only water and coffee as i worked, using the toilet as needed (thank You for that dignity DomMaster81) until Hubby left the house, giving me constant reminder of my place serving DomMaster81 as He controlled my food consumption, or lack there of. As soon as Hubby left the house around 11:30a i stripped naked as instructed and put on my collar with clamps attached by chains which i left dangling in the back at first. Kneeling in the walk-in closet i took one of Hubby's leather belts and firmly administered 20 lashes on each ass cheek and each of my hanging udders, being careful not to leave marks Hubby would see later. i then spun the collar around and attached the clamps to my already very hard nipples, causing my cunt to lubricate more, which i then smacked 50 times with the leather belt.
Next i went to the kitchen and pulled a carrot and a medium cucumber from the fridge that very closely resembled Hubby's dick in length and girth. i knelt and held the cucumber up from the floor and leaned forward to suck the cucumber like a cock. i did this for 5 minutes as my udders swayed beneath my body, the clamps tugging on my nipples cruelly as they moved. Try as i may i was unable to get the cuke to cum!
Then, still kneeling with my ass high it the air, i reached back awkwardly and guided the saliva lubed cucumber into my ass, slowly fucking my ass with the cuke for 5 minutes, my nipples burning more as i imagined DomMaster81 taking my ass doggie style and the ribbing of the cucumber providing additional sensations as i sodomized myself for DomMaster81's entertainment.
After 5 minutes i stood and washed the cucumber as permitted by DomMaster81 and then moved to a chair where i fucked my cunt with the cuke for 10 minutes or so... coming very close to orgasm several times, but stopping at that point to regroup since i am not permitted orgasms on my own until at least 10/6/2020. i loved the way the ridges on the vegetable felt as it slid in and out of my cunt and i was able to use them to add pleasure with twists and turns. i imagined myself doing all this for DomMaster81's amusement, along with the amusement of His invited guests, reveling in His slaves frustration, slowing or stopping every time an orgasm was near.
After sufficient time pleasuring myself, and the frustration that comes with longing for an orgasm, i ate the cucumber covered in the juices from my cunt. It was absolutely delicious, more because it was super fresh from a local farm market than because it had marinated in my cunt or been buried in my ass. i then ate the carrot that I had pulled from the fridge earlier and went back to the bedroom, removing my clamps (EOOWWWW!) and collar and returning to work naked (i placed a dark towel on my chair since i felt like my ass was gaping a little), feeling the after effects on my actions in my warm flesh, aching nipples, sore ass and dripping, hungry cunt. Thank You DomMaster81 for using this slave, and reminding me of my place in society as a plaything and entertainment to my superiors.
When Hubby got home i slipped off to the bathroom before he made it inside, checking my body carefully in the mirror for signs of my self administered punishments. Seeing none, i emerged naked and told Him i missed Him and wanted to show Him how much. He eagerly led me to the bedroom and we enjoyed a halt hour or so of quality time together, with the main lingering effect of my earlier actions being the soreness and sensitivity of my nipples when her gropped my udders. Even though my stomach was grumbling at times due to my physical hunger, the emotional hunger of my cunt was far more important. i had two wonderful orgasms before He filled my cunt with His cum!
7/10/2020: Master Danny has loaned me to DomMaster81 for a single online BDSM scene, but we have been unable to connect live with COVID-19 restrictions on my free time (Hubby is working from home) and the fact that DomMaster81 is in Germany, several timezones ahead.
While working from home alongside Hubby, He had a conference call to attend so i took a short walk in the woods right after His call started. i dressed simply in a grey tank top, jean shorts with a leather belt, and sandals (no bra or panties of course), When i got to a spot on the main trail that offered no visibility from our house or surrounding properties or roads, i stripped out of my tank and shorts, and removed the belt from the shorts before slipping off my sandals to be fully nude for DomMaster81, as instructed.
Wanting to kill two birds with one stone, I got down on my hands and knees, lifted my leg and peed on the base of a tree along the trail, satisfying Master Danny's requirement that i do my business outside daily (something that does NOT happen daily with Hubby working from home now).
When i finished peeing, i took the belt and stood tall, imagining an audience watching me punish myself as i administered 5 strokes of the belt to each udder, each ass cheek and my cunt. It was exhilarating feeling my heart race and feeling the sting of the leather on my flesh. i was careful to leave no marks, since i got dressed and headed right back inside when i finished. While W/we are usually too busy with work during the day to fool around, i spent the next several hours fearing that Hubby would decide W/we had time for a quick fuck, and He might see belt marks on my ass that i didn't know were there, while fucking me from behind.
i very much enjoyed punishing myself for DomMaster81's amusement. It was both exhilarating and humiliating, but the physical pain was very manageable due to my fear of leaving marks that Hubby might see.
6/24/2020: While Hubby and i are still working at home in close proximity, i thought i would reflect on one of the ways that serving Master Danny has impacted my sex life with Hubby. Thinking back on the last year, i can say with confidence that Hubby and i have had "period sex" more often in the last 12 months than in the 20 years prior. This is partially due to Master Danny's insistence that my service to Him and to my Husband does not change when i have my period.
This means i still bring myself close to orgasm 3 times daily, and still suck Hubby's cock 3 times daily when i have my period. In the past, my horniness during my period was often alleviated with a quick self induced orgasm, but for the most part i have not been permitted to bring about my own orgasms while serving Master Danny. In fast, the last time i was permitted to bring about my own orgasm was on 10/6/2019 when i gave myself two, in addition to the four Hubby gave me, on what Master Danny gifted me a "free orgasm day."
This leaves me in the humiliating position of begging my Husband to rub my clit to bring me to orgasm, or getting Him so horny during my time sucking His cock, that He can't help His desire to fuck my cunt. Even then, i am forbidden by Master Danny from rubbing my clit during sex to accelerate my orgasm so i must depend solely on Hubby's cock (with no oral foreplay) for my orgasm. Fortunately it happens more often than not, but if Hubby does cum before me, i am back to the humiliating position of asking him to masturbate me to orgasm while filled with His cum, depending on Him completely for my release.
Regardless, it has been a year of far more frequent "period sex" and i have Master Danny to thank for that, as He lifted some of the stigma associated with the days when i am bleeding, making me embrace my sexuality regardless of the time of the month.
May 2020: Working side by side with Hubby has afforded me almost zero time for online service, yet i still manage to keep up with as many of Master's requirements as i can.
Thu 4/16/2020: Thank You Master Danny for the amazing self bondage instructions to correct my recent behavior, i will be more careful to not waste my Husband's cum in the future. Hubby left the house for a couple hours Friday 4/10/20 affording me the opportunity to follow Your orders.
Master Danny provided me with exceptionally detailed instructions to set up my zipper punishment, however weeks of back and forth was necessary to ensure that i could perform as Master desired, with the materials and layout available to me at home. The end result of the detailed set up was me, sitting naked, self-bound and completely helpless in a chair in our basement with a rope clenched between my teeth and 30 clothespins attached to my body from my cunt lips up my tummy to my hanging udders and sensitive nipples.
The choice was mine (thanks for giving Your slut a choice Master); i could keep my teeth clenched and maintain this position until my Husband returned home and found me bound naked in our basement in a helpless and humiliating situation, or i could open my mouth, releasing the rope allowing a 22 pound weight to fall from the rafters to the floor, painfully ripping the 30 clothespins from my tender flesh while bringing the key to a position hanging from the ceiling behind my chair, affording me the opportunity to free my hands from the cuffs.
Naturally i chose the later, my desire to avoid the pain of the zipper removal eclipsed by my desire to not have my Husband find me in the humiliating position Master Danny had put me in. Below i will detail the set up, if you are interested.
I will detail the actions i performed here as soon as time permits!
Mon 4/6/2020: Master Danny returned on March 12th and i am beyond thrilled. Not because of any short coming of DR-K66, i very much enjoyed being his BBC Slut. Rather it was so wonderful to have Master Danny back in my life to validate me, and to reassure me that He had not chosen to abandon me as unwanted property. i remained faithful to O/our agreement while serving BBC Master Doc, and maintained faith that Master Danny would return.
Shortly after Master Danny's return, the USA turned upside down with COVID-19, so my Husband is now working from home along side me, so daytime play online is severely limited, as are the tasks i can perform for Master Danny. See the Contract blog for details about which contractual obligations are suspended or limited until my Husband goes back to working outside our home.
Mon 3/2/2020: In Master Danny's absence, i continue to honor His loan of my servitude to His friend, DR-K66. In that capacity, i was instructed on 2/16/20 to offer my services as a BDSM whore to any of my Friends who were logged on at the time. One was available to make use of me (He has chosen to remain anonymous) and i served Him to the best of my ability for roughly two hours. Some of the activities i performed are detailed here.
i was instructed to strip naked and gag myself with an article of clothing i had removed, but nothing really worked as a gag so i tied a tea towel around my head tightly, pulled firmly into my open mouth. i had my period, but i know from serving Master Danny that my period is no an excuse for diminished service or obedience so i removed my tampon and sat on an old towel at my computer. i was told to only type left handed while my right hand was to constantly fondle my left nipple, except when i was instructed to pinch it, lift my udder by it, or slap it, which was frequent. i was then permitted to remove the gag so i could keep my fingers moist with saliva while fondling and teasing my aching nipple. i was regularly alternated between fondling, pinching and slapping my nipples, udders and cunt for close to an hour, knowing i would not be permitted to bring about my own orgasm, and with my period i would not have the normal outlet of seeking a good fucking from my Husband (we don't typically engage in period sex) when He returned home, ugh!!!
He had me clamp my right nipple for awhile, and then had me rim my asshole with a wet finger, then finger my asshole, then alternate between fingering my asshole and my cunt for 90, 30 and 60 seconds at a time, with a hard slap to the area being stimulated at each change. i was careful not to use the same finger in my ass and cunt, and slapped my asscheeks after fingering my ass because it is hard to slap one's own asshole! When we finished, i wanted to orgasm so badly, but i knew i mustn't as i am forbidden from bringing about my own orgasms, depending on my Husband for them exclusively for quite some time now. i cleaned up and put the slightly stained towel in the laundry, putting in a fresh tampon and slipping into a soft robe.
When my Husband returned home i slipped off the robe, led Him to bed and gave Him a long slow blowjob and since i had my period i continued until He exploded in my mouth and i swallowed all of His cum. The final humiliation was when i asked my Husband if He would give me an orgasm, telling Him i was super horny from sucking His beautiful cock. He was happy to oblige by rubbing my clit and my cunt lips gently, teasing me as i wantonly gyrated against His touch, not caring one bit that the tampon string was dangling out of my cunt in clear view. Seeing how worked up i was He told me i would get my orgasm after i made Him cum again, and He toyed with my cunt gently as i brought His semi erect cock back to life and after some time coaxed a second, more liquid load of cum from His balls, swallowing again as He brought me to a wonderful, long awaited orgasm that left me collapsed on the bed in a puddle of pleasure.
Wed 2/5/2020: With Master taking some time away, i continue to honor O/our contract by performing my daily tasks for Him, and also serving another that Master assigned me to before His leave of absence. It is interesting serving another within the confines of my agreement with Master Danny. The most challenging thing has been resolving incongruous commands, such as when instructed to bring myself to orgasm, i must revert to bringing myself only close to orgasm, per my contract, then later depending on Hubby to gift me with an orgasm(s) if He so chooses. i have also been given several writing assignments, most if not all of which will find their way into my "Ill Advised Street Walk" story in the coming weeks and months, as time allows.
Mon 1/13/2020: i have noticed that while reciting my daily mantra in front of my bathroom mirror, my cunt is lubricating more quickly than before, i think because of the pigtails Master now has me put my hair in each morning, reminding me of His control over my actions and appearance. This typically leads to my first of three required daily masturbation sessions, and i find this being the one that i am most challenged to avoid orgasm, due to my excitement and the fact that most days i have sucked Hubby's cock in the 30 minutes or so prior, sending Him off into the world happy and leaving only two more required blowjobs for the evening when He returns. i am also finding my thrice weekly lunches from a bowl on the floor to be both challenging, humiliating and exhilarating, as i imagine Master watching me eat like the pet i am to Him.
Wed 1/1/2020: While i have been performing RL actions for Master Danny almost daily, i have failed to maintain information here in this blog. For 2020, Master Danny is requiring at least one entry per month. i am happy to report that due to an unusually mild December, i was able to fulfill my outdoor urination duty 4 or 5 times last month. While it was hardly warm, i was able to crawl outside and do my business on/by shrubs just outside the back door, as my hanging udders swayed beneath me and my nipples got so hard they ached. The ground was very cold, so it was very awkward and uncomfortable for my knees. Looking at the forecast, i do not expect to be able to do so anytime soon, but i will continue my humiliating bathtub routine as detailed in my contract.
Sat 6/29/2019: Master Danny has been very understanding of my busy schedule, but he recognizes that i must take time to go to the bathroom no matter how busy i am! So, a little over a week ago, Master added a new element to my daily routine.
At least once a day, after my first pee of the day in our bathtub, i am going outside naked and crawling in the grass to a tree, shrub or planting where i lift my leg like the bitch i am and pee, marking my territory. i am doing this rain or shine and have had a couple trips out to "do my business" in heavy rain, which was oddly exciting. It is also very exciting to feel my udders swaying beneath me as i crawl and the exposure of my cunt as i raise my leg high. Fortunately no deliveries have occurred while i am out marking my territory for Master. Master has me doing this to reinforce my place and station in life as His "good girl."
i continue to do my best to give Hubby at least three blow jobs daily, even if only briefly to show Him how much i love Him and His cock. My daily masturbation sessions keep my cunt hungry and needy, so i am encouraged to initiate sex with my Husband frequently to please Him, and with any luck, allow me an orgasm. i was even so needy during my last cycle that i initiated "period sex" which was very uncomfortable for me at first (very rare for us, especially sober), but ultimately amazingly pleasurable for both of U/us and W/we orgasmed together.
Fri 5/31/2019: Master Danny gave me instructions which i happily followed as the opportunity presented itself today. While hiking a trail in the woods, looking for any stray morel mushrooms that might still be around, i gave my Husband a big hug and told Him i wanted His cock in my mouth. i dropped to my knees (the trail is fairly clear of debris fortunately) and pulled His shorts down to His ankles and took His already hardening cock into my mouth. After several minutes i could tell He was close so i slowed down and asked if He wanted to cum in my mouth or my pussy (i know Master wants me to refer to it as my cunt, but i feel so weird using that word in front of my Husband) as i massaged His balls. He needed no further encouragement and He got behind me and slid my shorts down to my bent knees, giving my ass a playful slap and pushing me forward to my hands on the ground as He guided His hard cock into my dripping cunt. He reached around and fondled my udders through my tank top before pulling them free, bunching my tank up at my shoulders as he fucked me harder, making my udders sway front to back. i orgasmed rather quickly and that put Him over the edge... He pressed deep inside me and filled me with His seed while pinching and tugging at my hard nipples.
Thank You Master for giving me instructions to follow with my Husband! i am sorry there was not a fallen tree to lean over when He was ready to fuck me... i could see one off the trail a bit, but once i suggested my cunt for His cock, He wasn't going to wait another moment to start fucking me. ;-P
Thu 5/30/2019: i have been doing my best to keep up with daily duties for Master Danny, with only occasional slip ups due to time constraints.
Wed 5/22/2019: Been very busy, but still making time for most daily devotionals to Master and attending to Hubby's cock. Since some of You have asked, i do not suck my Husband's cock until He cums every time... often it is just a minute or two of oral attention to make sure He knows how much i love His cock and pleasing Him. :-)
Mon 5/13/2019: Work kept me very busy but i did my best to follow all instructions. My reports like this will not be daily since the time it takes to follow my instructions, and report on them, is already putting great strain on the time needed for work and household responsibilities. i have not committed my daily mantra to memory yet, but i did reflect upon my naked body in the mirror with a similarly worded affirmation of my place and submission to Master Danny while curling my right index and middle finger up inside my cunt and grinding my palm against my clit until i was dripping wet.
Hubby enjoyed His first blowjob of the day while he was shaving, something He really enjoys but i haven''t done in ages. He sure does take His time shaving when His cock is in my mouth, LOL. i hoped this would lead to some morning sex, but He was running a bit late and we didn't have time. As soon as He left for the day i donned my leather collar and leash (i was already naked) and began working for the day.
My first trip to the bathroom after my Husband left for the day really reminded me of my service, crawling with my leash in my mouth and my breasts swaying side to side, then squatting to pee in the tub, wiping my cunt with my bare hand then cleaning the piss from my hand with my mouth made me feel like a domestic pet. After rinsing i masturbated, but did not allow myself to orgasm.
During my 15 minutes of clothes pinned reflection with clothespins on my nipples, cunt lips and clit hood, i was so wet and needy imagining Master looking down on me as i lay on the floor on my back. After removing them i spanked my cunt and udders 20 times each then masturbated for a few minutes, almost giving in to my urge to orgasm, but finding the ability to control my desire. When i masturbated briefly later in the day, i found it almost impossible to stop before orgasm, but i did!
When my Husband got home i knelt on the floor and sucked His cock briefly as He was getting changed from His work clothes into hiking attire, telling Him how much i wanted His cock inside me when we got home from our hike. When we returned home we undressed and checked each other for ticks as we always do and i initiated sex by sucking His cock. We made love and He gifted me with 2 orgasms before filling my cunt with the gift of His cum. :-)
Sun 5/12/2019: Busy day but managed to accomplish the 3 blowjob and masturbation requirement. i woke my Husband up with a short blowjob, then later in the morning knelt on the floor and sucked His cock until He came in my mouth (i swallowed every drop) just before we went out to meet friends. i thanked Him for cumming in my mouth and showing me how good i made Him feel, which made me feel like quite the slut, but He seemed to enjoy my appreciation. i also gave Him a little "road head" on the way home when it was safe to do so. He very much enjoyed the attention to His cock, but sadly we ran out of time for sex, leaving me longing for an orgasm as i drifted off to sleep but i resisted the urge to bring myself to orgasm while rubbing my clit (as i did twice earlier while using the bathroom), knowing i am not permitted to give myself orgasms and must depend on my Husband for them.
Sat 5/11/2019: Per Master's instructions today, i masturbated... fucked myself really... with a cucumber straight from the fridge, after clamping each nipple with a clothespin. i brought myself very near orgasm four times with the clothespins protruding from my hanging udders, but per Master's orders, i did not allow myself the pleasure of orgasm.
When i was sure i would not be able to resist orgasm again, i stopped, removed the clothespins (ouch... blood flow returning), and went naked to the kitchen to rinse the cuke and return it to the veggie drawer where it will rest until tonight when i make dinner for my Husband. i will enjoy eating salad with Him tonight, knowing my little secret that the cucumber in the salad was in my cunt earlier today.
Hopefully when He gets home shortly, He will not be too hungry and will respond favorably to the blowjob i plan to give Him upon arrival, since i desperately need to get fucked... the only way i am permitted to orgasm is with Him. Thank You Master Danny for giving Your slut orders to follow this weekend.
7/23/22: After Master was absent for about 100 days recently, during which time Master Doc assumed responsibility and control of me, Master has returned to xHamster. W/we made a few tweaks to the contract (more to come probably) and i am so happy He is back. To celebrate, i have enjoyed three self induced orgasms over the last couple days, a pleasure Master permits me only when i have my period, and only when my Husband's cock is in my mouth. Each time i orgasmed, i was thinking about Master and how happy i am that He is back. i was also thinking about how grateful i am that Doc steps in and looks over me in Master's absence. Finally, as i rubbed my cunt and clit, i was also thinking that i needed to be sure to keep Hubby's pleasure intense, without letting Him cum too quickly if i was to enjoy an orgasm too, LOL.
11/10/21: After being disabled for several months, it seems updates are again being permitted. i will resume monthly updates for Master Danny, will ask Him what He would like me to do for the November update. ;-p
6/13/21: i was recently asked to explain in words what submission means to me... my answer:
Submission to me is a complete and unconditional exchange of power, surrendering my free will to Another, and trusting Them to make all decisions about how my mind and body (Their property) are to be used. i have no say in what or when i eat, how i dress or maintain my appearance, how i bathe or when i use the restroom or other locations to relieve myself. If Master determines that He wants my udders to produce milk (which He can induce, controlling my body internally), i will create milk continuously and proudly as a hucow for Master and His friends, the weight of my heavy milk filled udders constantly reminding me of my place. i believe these are the reasons that pony and pet play fascinate me so intensely.
Submission is also understanding that i am simply a collection of flesh and warm moist holes meant to entertain my Superiors and sheathe cocks as needed. All expectations of privacy are forfeited in exchange for Master's decisions about when i will be on display and for Whom i will be displayed.
Submission means that my only purpose is to being pleasure, and when They desire, orgasms to Men and Women who chose to make use of me. My mouth, ass and cunt are serving their ultimate purpose when they bring about and accept loads of cum from Master's cock, or From Those with whom He shares me. If i happen to enjoy an orgasm or two along the way, that is a gift i must be thankful for, not a pleasure i should expect or feel entitled to.
Finally it is understanding that my pain, humiliation or shame, no matter how intense, is not for naught if it entertains my Master. While i prefer the B&D and D&S elements of BDSM, i also understand that the S&M elements may be desired by Master from time to time and i am happy to fulfill His desires.
5/30/21: This month i disappointed Master Danny by failing to complete a task for Him. The task required a daily time commitment that was unrealistic to work onto my real life "adulting" responsibilities. It also involved working up to fisting my cunt for Him, which is something i have never wanted to do. i spend my life trying to keep my cunt as tight as possible for my Husband's pleasure, stretching it seems counter intuitive, even if the elasticity of my cunt's soft tissue would likely allow such activities without impact to His pleasure. It feels so bad to disappoint Master Danny, i just hope He can get past it and move on with me.
4/17/2021: This month's entry is a bit different; it is excerpts from conversation with a Dom that was hoping to become my Master over three years ago. Ultimately i waited until Master Danny came into my life to give myself in submission, and i am so thankful i did. Thank You Master Danny, for NOT being anything like JiltedDom below (name changed to protect the guilty).
JiltedDom: Hello slave, I hope this finds you well and well rested as well as excited for your future that I believe will be at my feet. As you know, we met several years ago via Crystal Palace and then Shangrilla. We have played once or twice, and the thing that impressed me most about you is that you truly know your place and have a desire to be in service to a Master. Few slaves are like this. With that in mind, I am most interested in enslaving you permanently online. (this was His initial response to my search for a Master, followed by His proposed contract)
nadia: It is with great sadness that i write to inform You that i will not be accepting Your proposal or any of the other proposals i received. i do look forward to ongoing communication and friendship with You and hope You feel the same way. Before posting my blog seeking a Master or Mistress, i decided that one of my (undisclosed) deciding criteria would be that any Dom/me that was interested in my submission to Them would already display Their interest in me in Their public gallery and/or blog favorites. Surprisingly none of the interested Dom/mes displayed this basic level of interest in me, which has led me to the decision to not give myself in online service to Anyone at this time. In the event that i decide to make an offer of service in the future, i feel i should give You open and honest feedback about Your proposal. i was very excited by Your proposal and thought it would be mutually beneficial, however i do feel that it followed too closely the agreement i had in place before, without enough significant variation...
JiltedDom: Unannounced criteria is ridiculous. Absolute nonsense to expect someone to do something without telling them. I've decided to depart from the scene entirely. I have grown tired of unspoken expectations, dishonesty and excuses that I get from everyone in this scene, now including you. Goodbye.
nadia: i am so very sorry You feel this way. It was not my intention to upset You Sir, rather to reward Those that have shown an interest in me by favoriting what i share. i really thought it would be more of a tiebreaker, rather than a qualifier, but it just turned out that way. In any courtship, there are always unspoken desires and expectations, which when met on both sides typically leads to long term relationships rather than short flings. When You go on a date with someone new, You wouldn't say "Your job sounds challenging, by the way, i will only marry you if you swallow my cum when sucking my cock" but the reality is, that might be an unspoken expectation or qualification for long term commitment. Not saying that one applies to You, but You understand what i am saying... there are always unspoken qualifications and expectations, on both sides of potential relationships, whether virtual or real... vanilla or BDSM. Whether fair or not, i applied the same criteria to all Suitors, and the Others upon receiving a very similar rejection to the one i sent You all responded favorably, understanding the reasons for the undisclosed criteria. i apologize again for upsetting You.
JiltedDom: (3 years later) Having just seen this, I can't say that I think your excuse has much weight.
nadia: i respect Your minority opinion. My relationship with Master Danny is going wonderfully. Others who had been in consideration for His role are happy that my training has progressed, so i assume You would want to know as well.
JiltedDom: Don't care. Seeya.
And this is why i am so thankful i did not give this Man the gift of my submission!!!
3/29/2021: Master Danny has given His slave a wonderful gift, permission to masturbate to orgasm while my Husband's cock is in my mouth (only when i have my period). i continue to enjoy this freedom regularly during my period, including in recent days. With that said, i am still humbled and humiliated occasionally, like i was Thursday night when Hubby orgasmed unexpectedly quickly while i was sucking His cock. i was forced to immediately stop pleasuring myself after swallowing His cum and cleaning his softening cock, leaving me yearning for an orgasm as His sensitivity post orgasm led him to end my oral attention. i know it shouldn't logically be so humiliating for me to ask Him to bring me to orgasm when i have my period (He doesn't know that i am not permitted to bring about my own), but it reminds me of my place serving Master Danny and my dependence on Others for my sexual pleasure. Hubby happily obliged and i had a wonderful orgasm, the whole time thinking about my sexual dependence and servitude. Both exciting and humiliating.
2/11/2021: After spending a good deal of time thinking about the perfect "humble slave" pose, often while drifting off to sleep, i determined all of the attributes of the position that i find are important. Once i knew my position, and had practiced it many times (naked in the bathroom, feeling the humiliation of my upturned ass and hanging udders), i endeavored to find the perfect image to replicate my humble pose and it was harder to find than i anticipated. After looking at hundreds if not thousands of images, I settled on this one as nearly perfect:
https://xhamster.com/photos/gallery/12361872/301627424
i am not delusional, and i know i am no where near the beauty that she is, but she bears a resemblance to me (a rail thin anorexic blond in the perfect position would still not represent me well, for example), or i to her perhaps, and that is enough for this image to be my perfect muse for the humble position. The model also needed to be naked... it is amazing how many images i found where the model was in my perfect humble pose, but was wearing street clothes, lingerie, or something in between.
Imagining my self in her place, the image must show my ass high in the air, presented as the first thing One might see when entering a room where i am displayed, with my knees far enough apart that my cunt lips open slightly, invitingly. Elbows on the floor curves my lower back and leaves room for my udders to hang free and move in clear sight from the front or side, with my head and eyes up to acknowledge Those around me and show both my humility and supplication to Them. My full rear is available for teasing, groping or punishment, and my mouth, asshole and cunt are always available to sheath cocks as desired. i know my place and in my fantasy i present myself to my Master and His invited Guests just like this as They enter our home. In reality, i present myself this way to my Husband during sex when He is ready to mount me from behind, or to give him a nice view of my upturned ass and hanging udders while i suck His beautiful cock. Mmmmmm!
1/16/2021: 466... it had been 466 days since i had brought myself to orgasm, since 10/6/2019, until two days ago when Master Danny graciously agreed to a change to our contract, permitting me to bring about my own orgasm (something prohibited under our contract to make me completely dependent on my Husband for my orgasms) under very specific conditions. While self pleasure is still required daily (two anal and one vaginal) and orgasms as the result of self pleasure are prohibited, Master has introduced a provision to allow me to being about my own orgasms only when i have my period and my Husband's cock is in my mouth.
So, Thursday night, when giving my Husband His bedtime blowjob, i knelt naked between his legs on the bed and arched my back with my ass high in the air and my udders hanging against His inner thigh as i sucked His cock rhythmically while rubbing my clit in firm circles with my right hand. The sensation was familiar and wonderful as i felt His cock growing in my mouth, the familiar sounds from Him as He squirmed a bit beneath me and reached down to grope my hanging udders as His orgasm neared and i picked up the pace on my clit, not wanting to miss the opportunity for my first orgasm since Sunday. Thankfully as His cock exploded in my mouth he gripped my udders roughly and pinched my nipples hard, helping me to achieve bliss shortly after Him as His cock softened in my mouth and i swallowed His load of cum. It felt so wonderful to orgasm during my period without the humiliation of having to ask Hubby to rub my clit, but there was a different humiliation of bringing about my Husband's orgasm like a good slut, while needing so badly to have one that i wantonly rubbed my cunt rather than waiting a day or two for my period to be done and for Hubby to again begin bestowing upon me lovely orgasms with his mouth, hands and cock.
Adding to the humiliation (and excitement) was the thought placed in my head by Master Danny... as i cleaned Hubby's cock with my mouth and came down from my orgasm, i imagined Master cumming all over my upturned ass, then pissing on me to rinse the cum from my flesh. These dirty, exciting thoughts ran through my mind as i crawled up from my place between His legs, dragging my hanging udders and hypersensitive nipples along His body, and snuggled with my Husband, the taste of His cum still lingering in my mouth as we both enjoyed a post orgasmic glow. :-)
12/16/2020: While i still can't perform many of my daily tasks due to Hubby working from home (He would find it a bit odd if i knelt naked on the floor to eat my lunch from a bowl without using my hands, LOL), December continues with Master still requiring two of my thrice daily masturbations to be anal rather than vaginal. It is interesting how easily i finger my asshole now, knowing just how to position myself to allow comfortable entry and finger fucking. It has become more and more comfortable the longer i do it, and it feels almost nice, but still nothing approaching orgasmic (as many folks have assured me would occur). The personal humiliation of fingering my ass twice a day has not changed though, and i fear Master will instruct me to offer my ass to my Husband one day soon. i dread that day because i will either have to disobey Master Danny, or humiliate myself by asking my Husband to fuck my ass, something neither of U/us has ever had any interest in. i think if my cunt stopped providing Him pleasure, it would be different, but He never has any trouble cumming while fucking my cunt, udders or mouth, so introducing my ass to the mix seems unnecessary and dirty. i know that there are cleaning options to make my ass less dirty, but the reality is when my cunt needs no special attention prior to sex, why add my ass with all the cleaning requirements required to make it free of any feces?
11/11/2020: NOvember is giving me some break from anal fingering as i am now permitted to masturbate my cunt once daily and my ass twice daily. i have continued to finger my ass in the shower every morning, and now i find time in the bathroom to rub my clit and finger my cunt until i near orgasm, then i move my fingers, slippery with the juices of my cunt, to my asshole. i am still not permitted to bring about my own orgasms, but so far i am still not approaching anal orgasms, so once i leave my needy cunt longing for more, there is no risk of an orgasm for which i am still dependent on my Husband.
10/31/2020: LOCKTOBER was one of my biggest challenges to date. Master forbid me from touching my cunt, but shifted my thrice daily masturbation to my ass. While i have never liked anal play, and at first the anal fingering was not particularly comfortable, i did find it to feel better as the month went on. About half way through the month Master had me add a second finger, which was surprisingly awkward and challenging at first, but quickly became much easier as i learned to relax my sphincter more. With that said, i never got to the point where i was enjoying anal orgasms, but having fingers sliding in and out of my asshole started to feel ok, even though i would have much preferred to have been fingering my cunt.
9/28/2020: Per Master's instruction, i took the time to observe myself in a mirror while masturbating over the weekend. While Hubby was gone for an hour or so, i moved a chair into our master bathroom and set it up in front of a full length mirror. i removed my robe and warmed my glass beaded dildo (see image of my bed with glass dildo in my PG gallery) in a sink of hot water, thinking about Master watching me, which always gets my cunt wet. i moved to the chair and worked the small end of the dildo into the outer folds of my wet cunt, observing carefully how my outer lips folded in a bit as it went in, and opened up as it slid out, slick with my juices. i slowly started to fuck myself, letting it go a bit deeper each time, imagining it was Master's hard cock.
When an orgasm neared, i stopped and massaged my hanging udders playfully, teasing my aching nipples. After a few moments, i turned the dildo around and started to fuck my cunt with the wider end first, watching my hungry cunt swallow up each progressively smaller bulb of glass. i continued to fuck myself, mesmerized by the sight of my cunt in the mirror, until i nearly lost control and orgasmed, but i stopped just in time, preserving my nearly 12 months of resisting giving myself orgasms, even while masturbating daily for Master. When my Husband fucked me later in the day, i imagined watching His cock fuck me like the dildo, and enjoyed two orgasms before He filled my cunt with His cum. Thank You Master, for giving me directions to follow for You!
8/5/2020: Master Danny's loan of my services to DomMaster81 for a single live scene has not occurred yet due to scheduling challenges, but i did have time to follow some instructions for DomMaster81 yesterday. Monday night starting at 8p really, when i began a fast as instructed.
Tuesday morning i drank only water and coffee as i worked, using the toilet as needed (thank You for that dignity DomMaster81) until Hubby left the house, giving me constant reminder of my place serving DomMaster81 as He controlled my food consumption, or lack there of. As soon as Hubby left the house around 11:30a i stripped naked as instructed and put on my collar with clamps attached by chains which i left dangling in the back at first. Kneeling in the walk-in closet i took one of Hubby's leather belts and firmly administered 20 lashes on each ass cheek and each of my hanging udders, being careful not to leave marks Hubby would see later. i then spun the collar around and attached the clamps to my already very hard nipples, causing my cunt to lubricate more, which i then smacked 50 times with the leather belt.
Next i went to the kitchen and pulled a carrot and a medium cucumber from the fridge that very closely resembled Hubby's dick in length and girth. i knelt and held the cucumber up from the floor and leaned forward to suck the cucumber like a cock. i did this for 5 minutes as my udders swayed beneath my body, the clamps tugging on my nipples cruelly as they moved. Try as i may i was unable to get the cuke to cum!
Then, still kneeling with my ass high it the air, i reached back awkwardly and guided the saliva lubed cucumber into my ass, slowly fucking my ass with the cuke for 5 minutes, my nipples burning more as i imagined DomMaster81 taking my ass doggie style and the ribbing of the cucumber providing additional sensations as i sodomized myself for DomMaster81's entertainment.
After 5 minutes i stood and washed the cucumber as permitted by DomMaster81 and then moved to a chair where i fucked my cunt with the cuke for 10 minutes or so... coming very close to orgasm several times, but stopping at that point to regroup since i am not permitted orgasms on my own until at least 10/6/2020. i loved the way the ridges on the vegetable felt as it slid in and out of my cunt and i was able to use them to add pleasure with twists and turns. i imagined myself doing all this for DomMaster81's amusement, along with the amusement of His invited guests, reveling in His slaves frustration, slowing or stopping every time an orgasm was near.
After sufficient time pleasuring myself, and the frustration that comes with longing for an orgasm, i ate the cucumber covered in the juices from my cunt. It was absolutely delicious, more because it was super fresh from a local farm market than because it had marinated in my cunt or been buried in my ass. i then ate the carrot that I had pulled from the fridge earlier and went back to the bedroom, removing my clamps (EOOWWWW!) and collar and returning to work naked (i placed a dark towel on my chair since i felt like my ass was gaping a little), feeling the after effects on my actions in my warm flesh, aching nipples, sore ass and dripping, hungry cunt. Thank You DomMaster81 for using this slave, and reminding me of my place in society as a plaything and entertainment to my superiors.
When Hubby got home i slipped off to the bathroom before he made it inside, checking my body carefully in the mirror for signs of my self administered punishments. Seeing none, i emerged naked and told Him i missed Him and wanted to show Him how much. He eagerly led me to the bedroom and we enjoyed a halt hour or so of quality time together, with the main lingering effect of my earlier actions being the soreness and sensitivity of my nipples when her gropped my udders. Even though my stomach was grumbling at times due to my physical hunger, the emotional hunger of my cunt was far more important. i had two wonderful orgasms before He filled my cunt with His cum!
7/10/2020: Master Danny has loaned me to DomMaster81 for a single online BDSM scene, but we have been unable to connect live with COVID-19 restrictions on my free time (Hubby is working from home) and the fact that DomMaster81 is in Germany, several timezones ahead.
While working from home alongside Hubby, He had a conference call to attend so i took a short walk in the woods right after His call started. i dressed simply in a grey tank top, jean shorts with a leather belt, and sandals (no bra or panties of course), When i got to a spot on the main trail that offered no visibility from our house or surrounding properties or roads, i stripped out of my tank and shorts, and removed the belt from the shorts before slipping off my sandals to be fully nude for DomMaster81, as instructed.
Wanting to kill two birds with one stone, I got down on my hands and knees, lifted my leg and peed on the base of a tree along the trail, satisfying Master Danny's requirement that i do my business outside daily (something that does NOT happen daily with Hubby working from home now).
When i finished peeing, i took the belt and stood tall, imagining an audience watching me punish myself as i administered 5 strokes of the belt to each udder, each ass cheek and my cunt. It was exhilarating feeling my heart race and feeling the sting of the leather on my flesh. i was careful to leave no marks, since i got dressed and headed right back inside when i finished. While W/we are usually too busy with work during the day to fool around, i spent the next several hours fearing that Hubby would decide W/we had time for a quick fuck, and He might see belt marks on my ass that i didn't know were there, while fucking me from behind.
i very much enjoyed punishing myself for DomMaster81's amusement. It was both exhilarating and humiliating, but the physical pain was very manageable due to my fear of leaving marks that Hubby might see.
6/24/2020: While Hubby and i are still working at home in close proximity, i thought i would reflect on one of the ways that serving Master Danny has impacted my sex life with Hubby. Thinking back on the last year, i can say with confidence that Hubby and i have had "period sex" more often in the last 12 months than in the 20 years prior. This is partially due to Master Danny's insistence that my service to Him and to my Husband does not change when i have my period.
This means i still bring myself close to orgasm 3 times daily, and still suck Hubby's cock 3 times daily when i have my period. In the past, my horniness during my period was often alleviated with a quick self induced orgasm, but for the most part i have not been permitted to bring about my own orgasms while serving Master Danny. In fast, the last time i was permitted to bring about my own orgasm was on 10/6/2019 when i gave myself two, in addition to the four Hubby gave me, on what Master Danny gifted me a "free orgasm day."
This leaves me in the humiliating position of begging my Husband to rub my clit to bring me to orgasm, or getting Him so horny during my time sucking His cock, that He can't help His desire to fuck my cunt. Even then, i am forbidden by Master Danny from rubbing my clit during sex to accelerate my orgasm so i must depend solely on Hubby's cock (with no oral foreplay) for my orgasm. Fortunately it happens more often than not, but if Hubby does cum before me, i am back to the humiliating position of asking him to masturbate me to orgasm while filled with His cum, depending on Him completely for my release.
Regardless, it has been a year of far more frequent "period sex" and i have Master Danny to thank for that, as He lifted some of the stigma associated with the days when i am bleeding, making me embrace my sexuality regardless of the time of the month.
May 2020: Working side by side with Hubby has afforded me almost zero time for online service, yet i still manage to keep up with as many of Master's requirements as i can.
Thu 4/16/2020: Thank You Master Danny for the amazing self bondage instructions to correct my recent behavior, i will be more careful to not waste my Husband's cum in the future. Hubby left the house for a couple hours Friday 4/10/20 affording me the opportunity to follow Your orders.
Master Danny provided me with exceptionally detailed instructions to set up my zipper punishment, however weeks of back and forth was necessary to ensure that i could perform as Master desired, with the materials and layout available to me at home. The end result of the detailed set up was me, sitting naked, self-bound and completely helpless in a chair in our basement with a rope clenched between my teeth and 30 clothespins attached to my body from my cunt lips up my tummy to my hanging udders and sensitive nipples.
The choice was mine (thanks for giving Your slut a choice Master); i could keep my teeth clenched and maintain this position until my Husband returned home and found me bound naked in our basement in a helpless and humiliating situation, or i could open my mouth, releasing the rope allowing a 22 pound weight to fall from the rafters to the floor, painfully ripping the 30 clothespins from my tender flesh while bringing the key to a position hanging from the ceiling behind my chair, affording me the opportunity to free my hands from the cuffs.
Naturally i chose the later, my desire to avoid the pain of the zipper removal eclipsed by my desire to not have my Husband find me in the humiliating position Master Danny had put me in. Below i will detail the set up, if you are interested.
I will detail the actions i performed here as soon as time permits!
Mon 4/6/2020: Master Danny returned on March 12th and i am beyond thrilled. Not because of any short coming of DR-K66, i very much enjoyed being his BBC Slut. Rather it was so wonderful to have Master Danny back in my life to validate me, and to reassure me that He had not chosen to abandon me as unwanted property. i remained faithful to O/our agreement while serving BBC Master Doc, and maintained faith that Master Danny would return.
Shortly after Master Danny's return, the USA turned upside down with COVID-19, so my Husband is now working from home along side me, so daytime play online is severely limited, as are the tasks i can perform for Master Danny. See the Contract blog for details about which contractual obligations are suspended or limited until my Husband goes back to working outside our home.
Mon 3/2/2020: In Master Danny's absence, i continue to honor His loan of my servitude to His friend, DR-K66. In that capacity, i was instructed on 2/16/20 to offer my services as a BDSM whore to any of my Friends who were logged on at the time. One was available to make use of me (He has chosen to remain anonymous) and i served Him to the best of my ability for roughly two hours. Some of the activities i performed are detailed here.
i was instructed to strip naked and gag myself with an article of clothing i had removed, but nothing really worked as a gag so i tied a tea towel around my head tightly, pulled firmly into my open mouth. i had my period, but i know from serving Master Danny that my period is no an excuse for diminished service or obedience so i removed my tampon and sat on an old towel at my computer. i was told to only type left handed while my right hand was to constantly fondle my left nipple, except when i was instructed to pinch it, lift my udder by it, or slap it, which was frequent. i was then permitted to remove the gag so i could keep my fingers moist with saliva while fondling and teasing my aching nipple. i was regularly alternated between fondling, pinching and slapping my nipples, udders and cunt for close to an hour, knowing i would not be permitted to bring about my own orgasm, and with my period i would not have the normal outlet of seeking a good fucking from my Husband (we don't typically engage in period sex) when He returned home, ugh!!!
He had me clamp my right nipple for awhile, and then had me rim my asshole with a wet finger, then finger my asshole, then alternate between fingering my asshole and my cunt for 90, 30 and 60 seconds at a time, with a hard slap to the area being stimulated at each change. i was careful not to use the same finger in my ass and cunt, and slapped my asscheeks after fingering my ass because it is hard to slap one's own asshole! When we finished, i wanted to orgasm so badly, but i knew i mustn't as i am forbidden from bringing about my own orgasms, depending on my Husband for them exclusively for quite some time now. i cleaned up and put the slightly stained towel in the laundry, putting in a fresh tampon and slipping into a soft robe.
When my Husband returned home i slipped off the robe, led Him to bed and gave Him a long slow blowjob and since i had my period i continued until He exploded in my mouth and i swallowed all of His cum. The final humiliation was when i asked my Husband if He would give me an orgasm, telling Him i was super horny from sucking His beautiful cock. He was happy to oblige by rubbing my clit and my cunt lips gently, teasing me as i wantonly gyrated against His touch, not caring one bit that the tampon string was dangling out of my cunt in clear view. Seeing how worked up i was He told me i would get my orgasm after i made Him cum again, and He toyed with my cunt gently as i brought His semi erect cock back to life and after some time coaxed a second, more liquid load of cum from His balls, swallowing again as He brought me to a wonderful, long awaited orgasm that left me collapsed on the bed in a puddle of pleasure.
Wed 2/5/2020: With Master taking some time away, i continue to honor O/our contract by performing my daily tasks for Him, and also serving another that Master assigned me to before His leave of absence. It is interesting serving another within the confines of my agreement with Master Danny. The most challenging thing has been resolving incongruous commands, such as when instructed to bring myself to orgasm, i must revert to bringing myself only close to orgasm, per my contract, then later depending on Hubby to gift me with an orgasm(s) if He so chooses. i have also been given several writing assignments, most if not all of which will find their way into my "Ill Advised Street Walk" story in the coming weeks and months, as time allows.
Mon 1/13/2020: i have noticed that while reciting my daily mantra in front of my bathroom mirror, my cunt is lubricating more quickly than before, i think because of the pigtails Master now has me put my hair in each morning, reminding me of His control over my actions and appearance. This typically leads to my first of three required daily masturbation sessions, and i find this being the one that i am most challenged to avoid orgasm, due to my excitement and the fact that most days i have sucked Hubby's cock in the 30 minutes or so prior, sending Him off into the world happy and leaving only two more required blowjobs for the evening when He returns. i am also finding my thrice weekly lunches from a bowl on the floor to be both challenging, humiliating and exhilarating, as i imagine Master watching me eat like the pet i am to Him.
Wed 1/1/2020: While i have been performing RL actions for Master Danny almost daily, i have failed to maintain information here in this blog. For 2020, Master Danny is requiring at least one entry per month. i am happy to report that due to an unusually mild December, i was able to fulfill my outdoor urination duty 4 or 5 times last month. While it was hardly warm, i was able to crawl outside and do my business on/by shrubs just outside the back door, as my hanging udders swayed beneath me and my nipples got so hard they ached. The ground was very cold, so it was very awkward and uncomfortable for my knees. Looking at the forecast, i do not expect to be able to do so anytime soon, but i will continue my humiliating bathtub routine as detailed in my contract.
Sat 6/29/2019: Master Danny has been very understanding of my busy schedule, but he recognizes that i must take time to go to the bathroom no matter how busy i am! So, a little over a week ago, Master added a new element to my daily routine.
At least once a day, after my first pee of the day in our bathtub, i am going outside naked and crawling in the grass to a tree, shrub or planting where i lift my leg like the bitch i am and pee, marking my territory. i am doing this rain or shine and have had a couple trips out to "do my business" in heavy rain, which was oddly exciting. It is also very exciting to feel my udders swaying beneath me as i crawl and the exposure of my cunt as i raise my leg high. Fortunately no deliveries have occurred while i am out marking my territory for Master. Master has me doing this to reinforce my place and station in life as His "good girl."
i continue to do my best to give Hubby at least three blow jobs daily, even if only briefly to show Him how much i love Him and His cock. My daily masturbation sessions keep my cunt hungry and needy, so i am encouraged to initiate sex with my Husband frequently to please Him, and with any luck, allow me an orgasm. i was even so needy during my last cycle that i initiated "period sex" which was very uncomfortable for me at first (very rare for us, especially sober), but ultimately amazingly pleasurable for both of U/us and W/we orgasmed together.
Fri 5/31/2019: Master Danny gave me instructions which i happily followed as the opportunity presented itself today. While hiking a trail in the woods, looking for any stray morel mushrooms that might still be around, i gave my Husband a big hug and told Him i wanted His cock in my mouth. i dropped to my knees (the trail is fairly clear of debris fortunately) and pulled His shorts down to His ankles and took His already hardening cock into my mouth. After several minutes i could tell He was close so i slowed down and asked if He wanted to cum in my mouth or my pussy (i know Master wants me to refer to it as my cunt, but i feel so weird using that word in front of my Husband) as i massaged His balls. He needed no further encouragement and He got behind me and slid my shorts down to my bent knees, giving my ass a playful slap and pushing me forward to my hands on the ground as He guided His hard cock into my dripping cunt. He reached around and fondled my udders through my tank top before pulling them free, bunching my tank up at my shoulders as he fucked me harder, making my udders sway front to back. i orgasmed rather quickly and that put Him over the edge... He pressed deep inside me and filled me with His seed while pinching and tugging at my hard nipples.
Thank You Master for giving me instructions to follow with my Husband! i am sorry there was not a fallen tree to lean over when He was ready to fuck me... i could see one off the trail a bit, but once i suggested my cunt for His cock, He wasn't going to wait another moment to start fucking me. ;-P
Thu 5/30/2019: i have been doing my best to keep up with daily duties for Master Danny, with only occasional slip ups due to time constraints.
Wed 5/22/2019: Been very busy, but still making time for most daily devotionals to Master and attending to Hubby's cock. Since some of You have asked, i do not suck my Husband's cock until He cums every time... often it is just a minute or two of oral attention to make sure He knows how much i love His cock and pleasing Him. :-)
Mon 5/13/2019: Work kept me very busy but i did my best to follow all instructions. My reports like this will not be daily since the time it takes to follow my instructions, and report on them, is already putting great strain on the time needed for work and household responsibilities. i have not committed my daily mantra to memory yet, but i did reflect upon my naked body in the mirror with a similarly worded affirmation of my place and submission to Master Danny while curling my right index and middle finger up inside my cunt and grinding my palm against my clit until i was dripping wet.
Hubby enjoyed His first blowjob of the day while he was shaving, something He really enjoys but i haven''t done in ages. He sure does take His time shaving when His cock is in my mouth, LOL. i hoped this would lead to some morning sex, but He was running a bit late and we didn't have time. As soon as He left for the day i donned my leather collar and leash (i was already naked) and began working for the day.
My first trip to the bathroom after my Husband left for the day really reminded me of my service, crawling with my leash in my mouth and my breasts swaying side to side, then squatting to pee in the tub, wiping my cunt with my bare hand then cleaning the piss from my hand with my mouth made me feel like a domestic pet. After rinsing i masturbated, but did not allow myself to orgasm.
During my 15 minutes of clothes pinned reflection with clothespins on my nipples, cunt lips and clit hood, i was so wet and needy imagining Master looking down on me as i lay on the floor on my back. After removing them i spanked my cunt and udders 20 times each then masturbated for a few minutes, almost giving in to my urge to orgasm, but finding the ability to control my desire. When i masturbated briefly later in the day, i found it almost impossible to stop before orgasm, but i did!
When my Husband got home i knelt on the floor and sucked His cock briefly as He was getting changed from His work clothes into hiking attire, telling Him how much i wanted His cock inside me when we got home from our hike. When we returned home we undressed and checked each other for ticks as we always do and i initiated sex by sucking His cock. We made love and He gifted me with 2 orgasms before filling my cunt with the gift of His cum. :-)
Sun 5/12/2019: Busy day but managed to accomplish the 3 blowjob and masturbation requirement. i woke my Husband up with a short blowjob, then later in the morning knelt on the floor and sucked His cock until He came in my mouth (i swallowed every drop) just before we went out to meet friends. i thanked Him for cumming in my mouth and showing me how good i made Him feel, which made me feel like quite the slut, but He seemed to enjoy my appreciation. i also gave Him a little "road head" on the way home when it was safe to do so. He very much enjoyed the attention to His cock, but sadly we ran out of time for sex, leaving me longing for an orgasm as i drifted off to sleep but i resisted the urge to bring myself to orgasm while rubbing my clit (as i did twice earlier while using the bathroom), knowing i am not permitted to give myself orgasms and must depend on my Husband for them.
Sat 5/11/2019: Per Master's instructions today, i masturbated... fucked myself really... with a cucumber straight from the fridge, after clamping each nipple with a clothespin. i brought myself very near orgasm four times with the clothespins protruding from my hanging udders, but per Master's orders, i did not allow myself the pleasure of orgasm.
When i was sure i would not be able to resist orgasm again, i stopped, removed the clothespins (ouch... blood flow returning), and went naked to the kitchen to rinse the cuke and return it to the veggie drawer where it will rest until tonight when i make dinner for my Husband. i will enjoy eating salad with Him tonight, knowing my little secret that the cucumber in the salad was in my cunt earlier today.
Hopefully when He gets home shortly, He will not be too hungry and will respond favorably to the blowjob i plan to give Him upon arrival, since i desperately need to get fucked... the only way i am permitted to orgasm is with Him. Thank You Master Danny for giving Your slut orders to follow this weekend.
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I think winning over Hubby will be the easiest aspect of the project.
I didn't think it possible, but this journal of yours could become even MORE riveting!
I could probably write a script in 10 minutes.....
You are absolutely correct, of course; lactation is therapeutic in many ways.
One reason i serve Him so completely is i know He would not put me in a position of explaining to my Husband the milk flow from my udders.
If He were to instruct me to induce lactation, i am sure He would want me to involve Hubby, and make Him think it was His idea, or that we should do it because breast feeding has an inverse correlation to breast and ovarian cancer occurrence.
Your grammar wasn't that confusing. On my first read I got it right. But on my 2nd read of it I overthunk a bit and considered the possibility of me misreading you. And, of course, it's my nature to always ask the question and be receptive to same. I admire your willingness with total strangers, to be so open.
That said, your big IF raises a few more questions if you'll indulge me/us. Since you mentioned it, so willingly, and I presume that Master reads your words, I'd give reasonable odds that you're (eventually) gonna get the word to induce. (and I hope he doesn't think I'm telling him what to do!)
Then, since I overthink, and I know you're an intelligent woman, you knew the potential of mentioning lactation. And I know you're a fan, as am I! But watching/reading and doing are, well, different.
Does this mean you're lactating?