My second guy

this is true , i never ever thought i would do something like this , i met this guy on on adult friend finder , right now my heart is pounding and I'm starting to leak just trying to write this , So i told him about me , and that i was living with a girlfriend , and he knew i was with only one other guy in my life , and it was years years ago , so we agreed to meet , i was completely shaved but a V above my little cock , and i mean little , so i got a hotel room , drank a little and smoked some weed got dress as i told him i would be , i really didn't think he would show up , i almost didn't , i was really nerves , it was a huge step for me , the desire was over whelming , no other guy has seen me naked let alone in panties , bra , fishnets , i had gotten myself ready down there for him , he told me what he wanted to do to me , i was really praying that he didn't show up , well he did , he walked in and said oh you are a cutie , he sat in the chair and i was setting on the edge of the bed with a really over sized sweat shirt on so he couldn't really see how i was dressed , just the fishnets , he saw how nerves i was , he said you don't have to do this , he knew he was going to be my second guy , and how long it had been , i said I'm ok , he came over sat next to me , kind of behind my back and started to rub my shoulder's and i turned my back more towards him because it felt good , in my mind i could NOT believe what was about to happen and this is being honest as i can be , none of this happened with the first guy , he would just come over and fuck me and leave , So he starts lifting my sweatshirt up saying it's going to be ok and he starts rubbing my back again , then i feel him start kissing my back and shoulders as he's moving my bra straps down , i have little titties , he unhooks my bra all the while kissing the back of my neck , then i feel his hand going down the back of my panties and now he kissing my ear and my cheek and i feel his finger going in me and he kissed me on the lips , the second kiss i feel his tongue touch my lips and our mouths open and it was the most gentle slow kiss as his finger was going deeper in me , i never experienced this , first time kissing , he was being very gentle with me , i laid back on the bed , he got up got undressed , he's all ready hard and came over and helped me out of my panties ,I'm laying there with my lags spread I'm small and real wet from leaking . i leak a lot , he rubs his cock in it and then i feel him going in me , he lays down completely on me and takes me all the way , he asked if he could cum in me before he did , i just whispered in his ear , that i wanted it , the feeling of that last deep push when it happens is the most beautiful feeling in the world , we just laid there until he went soft and slid out ,then we showered together after , that to was my first , couldn't believe how our wet body's felt together , i did get on my knees and suck his cock while we showered , that was the first time for that too , I'm glad i went though with it , that's as honest as i can get about it
i miss being with someone , really bad ,