How I became a real cockslut - Part 1.
Hello, I'm Lisa, a crossdresser of now 37 years old. In this true story I will explain I became the real cockslut that I am today.
Since I was a teenager, I have always enjoyed porn movies. At first I was just a classic heterosexual teen who was jerking off while watching women getting fucked by one or several men.
But I've always been curious and over the years I felt the need to discover what it meant being one of these sluts rather than fucking one. I was fascinated by all the cum sluts that you can see in porn and I wanted to know what it meant sucking cock. But I wasn't attracted to men (nor am I today really - I'll explain later) so in my young mind - though I had absolutely nothing against gay men - it was inconceivable that I would do that with real humans. Oh how stupid you can be when you're young and how much time I wasted looking back now.
Anyway when I was about 19, I bought a dildo. It was very small and my intention was simply to suck it. It was funny at the beginning but quickly it just bored me. In the meantime the idea of shoving it in my ass was growing as I was watching porn.
The first times did not go well. I did buy some lubricant and was able to fit a finger in my ass. But the dildo was hurting me every time I was pressing it on my asshole and I was stopping my sessions almost immediately - persuaded that even if I'd manage to get it in, anal would be painful no matter what. But on the 4th attempts I decided to be braver and pushed a little bit harder than usual. I'll never forget my total surprise when suddenly the entire dildo disappeared in my ass. I was shaking like crazy and took it off immediately. After I recovered from my emotions I started again and it immediately got in. My cherry was popped !
Looking back - compared to the kind of dildos that I can fit in my ass - it's ridiculous how tiny this dildo was. Barely larger than a finger really!
For few months I kept fucking myself with it and eventually I felt the need to try a real cock. Again I was not attracted to men... I wanted a cock. I discovered gay adds on the internet and eventually talked with an old guy and we met at his place. It was understood that we would go straight to the point, that I would suck him and if I was feeling like it, I'd let him fuck me.
It was a terrible experience... not the one that traumatize you, just a sad first time with a dick. After a 5 minutes empty chit chat we went to his bedroom and I sat on his bed while he gave me his cock to suck. He was coming back from work and did not take the time to clean it up a little, so it was quite smelly... to the point that I told him. He went to the bathroom and when he came back it was smelling better. But for a lof of reason the vibes were not here. I told him that I would rather stopped and he asked me if he could at least jerk off while watching me, and I agreed.
As soon as he came I left, telling myself that I got my answer and that I was not made to play with dicks.
But the need for cocks came back and I tried again this time with a younger guy. We both sucked each other on his bed in 69 but I was just not having it. He asked me if he could at least finish me and I let him suck my cock until I came in his mouth and face.
This time I knew... cocks - old or young - that was not for me!!!
But... then I needed it again and found another guy online- this time it went better and I took my first cock in my ass. I actually like being fucked but still was not satisfied. I was still missing something and did not really want to pursue it.
But at home, the porn kept making my need for them bigger no matter what. Until one day it hit me. I did not just want to try cocks like the sluts I was watchings, I wanted to be one of these whores I used to see on my porn movies. First I was borrowing my mom's panties and stockings - but it was really sexy and anyway it was weird to do that with her clothes. So I bought a sexy dress online, a wig, and stockings.
I was so excited when the box arrived. Somehow I knew that I would love it, which I immediately did. I watched myself in the mirror and here I was, dressed as a nice bitch, ready to eat some dicks. From then I was always dressing up when playing with my dildo. But quickly this small one was barely giving me any sort of pleasure. So I bought a bigger one and then another one...
For months I was practicing being a good cock whore. I was easily taking my big dildos in my ass, fucking me hard and fast. I was ready to try a real cock once again though I was sure if men would be willing to play with another man dressed as a woman.
To be continued...
Since I was a teenager, I have always enjoyed porn movies. At first I was just a classic heterosexual teen who was jerking off while watching women getting fucked by one or several men.
But I've always been curious and over the years I felt the need to discover what it meant being one of these sluts rather than fucking one. I was fascinated by all the cum sluts that you can see in porn and I wanted to know what it meant sucking cock. But I wasn't attracted to men (nor am I today really - I'll explain later) so in my young mind - though I had absolutely nothing against gay men - it was inconceivable that I would do that with real humans. Oh how stupid you can be when you're young and how much time I wasted looking back now.
Anyway when I was about 19, I bought a dildo. It was very small and my intention was simply to suck it. It was funny at the beginning but quickly it just bored me. In the meantime the idea of shoving it in my ass was growing as I was watching porn.
The first times did not go well. I did buy some lubricant and was able to fit a finger in my ass. But the dildo was hurting me every time I was pressing it on my asshole and I was stopping my sessions almost immediately - persuaded that even if I'd manage to get it in, anal would be painful no matter what. But on the 4th attempts I decided to be braver and pushed a little bit harder than usual. I'll never forget my total surprise when suddenly the entire dildo disappeared in my ass. I was shaking like crazy and took it off immediately. After I recovered from my emotions I started again and it immediately got in. My cherry was popped !
Looking back - compared to the kind of dildos that I can fit in my ass - it's ridiculous how tiny this dildo was. Barely larger than a finger really!
For few months I kept fucking myself with it and eventually I felt the need to try a real cock. Again I was not attracted to men... I wanted a cock. I discovered gay adds on the internet and eventually talked with an old guy and we met at his place. It was understood that we would go straight to the point, that I would suck him and if I was feeling like it, I'd let him fuck me.
It was a terrible experience... not the one that traumatize you, just a sad first time with a dick. After a 5 minutes empty chit chat we went to his bedroom and I sat on his bed while he gave me his cock to suck. He was coming back from work and did not take the time to clean it up a little, so it was quite smelly... to the point that I told him. He went to the bathroom and when he came back it was smelling better. But for a lof of reason the vibes were not here. I told him that I would rather stopped and he asked me if he could at least jerk off while watching me, and I agreed.
As soon as he came I left, telling myself that I got my answer and that I was not made to play with dicks.
But the need for cocks came back and I tried again this time with a younger guy. We both sucked each other on his bed in 69 but I was just not having it. He asked me if he could at least finish me and I let him suck my cock until I came in his mouth and face.
This time I knew... cocks - old or young - that was not for me!!!
But... then I needed it again and found another guy online- this time it went better and I took my first cock in my ass. I actually like being fucked but still was not satisfied. I was still missing something and did not really want to pursue it.
But at home, the porn kept making my need for them bigger no matter what. Until one day it hit me. I did not just want to try cocks like the sluts I was watchings, I wanted to be one of these whores I used to see on my porn movies. First I was borrowing my mom's panties and stockings - but it was really sexy and anyway it was weird to do that with her clothes. So I bought a sexy dress online, a wig, and stockings.
I was so excited when the box arrived. Somehow I knew that I would love it, which I immediately did. I watched myself in the mirror and here I was, dressed as a nice bitch, ready to eat some dicks. From then I was always dressing up when playing with my dildo. But quickly this small one was barely giving me any sort of pleasure. So I bought a bigger one and then another one...
For months I was practicing being a good cock whore. I was easily taking my big dildos in my ass, fucking me hard and fast. I was ready to try a real cock once again though I was sure if men would be willing to play with another man dressed as a woman.
To be continued...
4年前