Jealousy vs. Arousal
Most everyone experiences jealousy. Often it's related to girlfriends, boyfriends, wives, husbands.
Married or not, you likely will encounter the feeling of being "cheated on". Pretty common occurrence. Coworkers, ex's, parties, drinking, business travel, all kinds of situations. Boredom.
Once you sense something is "off", changed, or unusual, you eventually face off and just ask. After the odd excuses and denial, you eventually get an honest answer. Initially, you feel small, unimportant, secondary, hurt, and trust is missing.
But after a while, does your feeling change? You start to imagine what happened. You visualize it, maybe it becomes a fantasy. Hurt goes to intrigue.
My wife had sex with a coworker once, maybe more. She eventually admitted going to his apartment. I let it go, even had to see him on occasion. She eventually changed jobs.
I sensed it again. Asked her, she denied it. Eventually again, she admitted it. She had sex with her manager in his car after work. They worked at a restraunt, and often drink after closing.
She claimed to feel bad, said he was a good guy, just had no girlfriend and she felt sorry for him. In fact, she said I should meet him after work. So, we drove there,and had a couple drinks, and my wife suggested we all three return to our house for a drink.
We did, and chatted for a while. I sensed something was going on. I went to the bathroom, about 20 feet down the hall from the living room. They seemed awfully comfortable, he ssemed confident considering the situation. I listened from the bathroom. I could hear the words "he won't care." I stayed in longer giving them time. I was getting aroused, excited. I was not sure what was going to happen.
I walked out to find them naked on the carpeted floor, kissing, making out. I was a bit stumped. As I walked toward them, they looked at me,, not saying much. My wife said "go put in an x rated movie," so j did. As they made out, his hand between her legs, hers on his tanned cock, he said j should go first. I got naked and proceeded to fuck her with him watching. I then turned her over to him, and he had her moaning as he pumped her.
He finally pulled out, and came on her. I then proceed to lick her pussy while she had his cum on her tits.
This was the beginning of the desire to share her and watch it all. What was jealousy, now became erotic fantasy and pleasure. A year later we joined a couple at a hotel. We stayed the night. In the mrning as I got out of the shower, i walked out to see her being fucked on the bed, her legs spread wide, his was ass pounding her as his wife sat and watched encouraging him.
That again was so erotic. I watched her get fucked three times during that stay. I was hooked. No jealousy at all.
Married or not, you likely will encounter the feeling of being "cheated on". Pretty common occurrence. Coworkers, ex's, parties, drinking, business travel, all kinds of situations. Boredom.
Once you sense something is "off", changed, or unusual, you eventually face off and just ask. After the odd excuses and denial, you eventually get an honest answer. Initially, you feel small, unimportant, secondary, hurt, and trust is missing.
But after a while, does your feeling change? You start to imagine what happened. You visualize it, maybe it becomes a fantasy. Hurt goes to intrigue.
My wife had sex with a coworker once, maybe more. She eventually admitted going to his apartment. I let it go, even had to see him on occasion. She eventually changed jobs.
I sensed it again. Asked her, she denied it. Eventually again, she admitted it. She had sex with her manager in his car after work. They worked at a restraunt, and often drink after closing.
She claimed to feel bad, said he was a good guy, just had no girlfriend and she felt sorry for him. In fact, she said I should meet him after work. So, we drove there,and had a couple drinks, and my wife suggested we all three return to our house for a drink.
We did, and chatted for a while. I sensed something was going on. I went to the bathroom, about 20 feet down the hall from the living room. They seemed awfully comfortable, he ssemed confident considering the situation. I listened from the bathroom. I could hear the words "he won't care." I stayed in longer giving them time. I was getting aroused, excited. I was not sure what was going to happen.
I walked out to find them naked on the carpeted floor, kissing, making out. I was a bit stumped. As I walked toward them, they looked at me,, not saying much. My wife said "go put in an x rated movie," so j did. As they made out, his hand between her legs, hers on his tanned cock, he said j should go first. I got naked and proceeded to fuck her with him watching. I then turned her over to him, and he had her moaning as he pumped her.
He finally pulled out, and came on her. I then proceed to lick her pussy while she had his cum on her tits.
This was the beginning of the desire to share her and watch it all. What was jealousy, now became erotic fantasy and pleasure. A year later we joined a couple at a hotel. We stayed the night. In the mrning as I got out of the shower, i walked out to see her being fucked on the bed, her legs spread wide, his was ass pounding her as his wife sat and watched encouraging him.
That again was so erotic. I watched her get fucked three times during that stay. I was hooked. No jealousy at all.
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