Having Owner Back

My history with subtrainer has been up and down. I walk away from him, afraid of who he is, what he can do to me. But i always come back to him. I'm back with him yet again. He understands accepts me for who I am. There's no denying as soon as I hear his voice how my pussy reacts. All I have to hear is his hello my pussy shivers quivers with excitement. This morning was first time I've talked to him maybe month maybe little longer. I wasn't prepared, didn't have my clips or dildo next to me. I should of known what he have me do. We just talk normal not like we talk dirty but within 5 minutes my pussy was dripping wet. Than he said what I was hoping he say put the clips on. As soon as I put the clips on my pussy throbbed, I felt so horny, in a way only he can make me feel. Why, how does he do this? No idea. He knows what I need, want, even though yes i have fought against him and probably still well at times. But slaves pleasure comes from pleasing her Owner. And I suffer through pain to please him. I will get gang banged,
be humiliated, to please him because he knows no matter what I claim I need to be treated a certain way. And he isn't afraid to treat me in a way I need. Pain brings pleasure. Boy my clit hurts, nipples sore but love it. I need him in my life. Relationship between Property and Owner is unique.
I gladly open the door. Knowing full well what that means. Part of me is scared fearful, part is excited, part knows this is what I must do.
Thank you subtrainer. You've helped me probably more than you'll ever know.