When I was a boy

one of my first memories of gender differences that i have with typical people was after watching a nature video on pbs. i think i was about 6 years old. i watched a program about jellyfish and their life cycle. you see, jellyfish change their sex during their lifespan. this really threw my world perspective topsy-turvy. i have a very clear memory of looking out my bedroom window, mulling over this new information. i was not sure if i would be a boy for my whole life. i had already started crossdressing, but after being caught i was told boys don't do that. this new idea of being able to change your sex filled me with fear and excitement at the same time. i wondered when the change would come, how old would i be and what it would be like to be a girl. i stared out that window for a long time thinking of all the consequneces until i was rousted from the trance like state by someone calling my name.