Nov 2019 Update: lifestyle realities

It's been a while since I posted, and friends have been PMing, so here's an update: The last 6 months have been rough. T and I broke up. She is now in what seems to be a very serious relationship. Yes, he is someone I shared her with. And yes, he's black and hung.

I struggled with depression after we broke up. Started relying heavily on drinking and coke to get me thru. I was feeling very isolated. When M and I split, I lost most of our mutual friends in the divorce because I was the one to call it and because I started dating soon after.

I tried to reach out to M, thru a former mutual friend. M had completely ghosted me and I hadn't heard from her for months. The friend told me that she'd gone off the deep end and basically become a sex addict/slave. I asked if it was a particular bull she used to love, but the friend said she didn't know because she hardly heard from M either. I gave up trying to reach M after that.

Three months ago, I started seeing someone new, R. Met her through a lifestyle website, so she's experienced, which is good (it was a thrill to introduce T to the lifestyle, but also really challenging). Yes, she plays with black men -- about once a week.

Anyway, I'm happier and excited in this new relationship, but keeping my expectations in check and trying to take things as slow as I can. Will see how it goes.

Happy to answer any questions anyone has.