Are you proud to be a Cocksucker? My Answer to th
This is a rather lengthy post I just made on Flickr in a Group called Sissy Cocksuckers2 in response to "I am Proud that I am a Cock Sucker is any of the rest of you feel the same way?".
I realize many of my posts here overlap and are sometimes redundant, but you also should be able to read each one on a standalone basis.
Thought since I spent so much time on it there, that I'd post it here too. Hope you enjoy!
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I aplogize in advance for the length of this post, but I hope it instills pride in all you other sissy cocksuckers too!
Yes, I am proud to be a cocksucker!
The first time I sucked a man he said, "Are you sure this is the first time you have sucked cock?"
And I said, "Yes, but I have sucked a bazillion of them in my dreams and fantasies!"
He said, "Well, you are a good cocksucker and quite the natural. You obviously love it and you are going to be pleasing a lot of men!"
It's funny. Being called a cocksucker had forever been something I associated with something bad and that someone was attempting to insult you, so my first gut reaction was, "I am not a cocksucker!"
WHILE I had a cock in my mouth and was quite enjoying it!
Just shows how powerful our beliefs are! But reality kicked in almost as fast and I thought, "Oh my gosh! I DO have a cock in my mouth! I AM a cocksucker!" And almost simultaneously, I felt a sense of pride that someone thought I was good at it!
Then several minutes later, he PROVED it when he orgasmed and shot his load into my mouth! And I was just somehow thrilled that I could really and truly give a man that level of ultimate manly pleasure! It was a very strange thought, but I think I almost loved making him cum, more than cumming myself! In fact, I got some sort of orgasmic high WHEN he orgasmed! Mindblowing to say the least for someone who once thought he was so super str8!
But it was with my first longterm sexbud, of almost 5-years, named Mike (who I often refer to as Daddy1, since he was the first Daddy-type man I ever had) that I really accepted I was a cocksucker (as well as even more as you will see) and that I should be proud of it.
First of all gurls, you should have seen this man -- 6'3, 220 (compared to my 6', 160), perfect 7-8" cock that made mine look like a little boy next to a grown man [and mine's not tiny!]), broad hairy chest and had a smile that lit up the room. He reminded me of a young Sean Connery, but even better looking! I promise you, I think he was the kind of man that could melt anyone, male or female! He just exuded masculine power and prowess! Look up "alpha" on Wikipedia and his photo should be beside it! Yet, he was ever the perfect gentleman too and that, to me, made him even more powerful. The nicer he was to me, the more I wanted to please him!
From our first encounter, when he opened up his robe and I just automatically dropped to my knees and began sucking him, I became instantly submissive and devoted to him! And that's all I did! Suck him off and leave! Like a cocksucker! Yet he invited me back just a few days later!
Several years later, he told me that he knew I would someday be his malegurlfriend just from the way I sucked his cock that first time! Had he told me that then, I probably would have run for the hills! Because I sure didn't think I would EVER in a bazillion years someday wear panties, et al, and someday be his sissy cocksucker and pussyboy!
Secondly, how could anyone not eventually accept they are a cocksucker when time after time after time, I kept ending up on my knees sucking this wonderful man off!? It just began to feel like an honor and privilege to be ALLOWED to!
There was also the "lectures" or "training" talks he gave me while sucking his cock and looking up at him.
From the get-go, he seemed to know more about me, than I knew about myself.
He told me that not every guy had the ability to sublimate their masculine pride and suck dick, much less love it, as I obviously did. He told me he could never do it, but was glad that I could.
Once again, my belief system kicked in and I thought, "Was having a lack of masculine pride a good thing?!" He is somehow making it sound as if it was! As a guy, shouldn't I have more masculine pride? Isn't that what I was taught and supposed to have?
But, he's right! He is the one enjoying something all men are supposed to, getting his cock sucked, while I am enjoying something that men are NOT supposed to! Thus clearly NOT demonstrating the text book example of what it means to be a man! Then I'd swallow yet another load and somehow be thrilled that I pleasured him so much! It was sort of confusing at first.
But, it was becoming very clear, that even though we were both males, our sexualities were quite different!
Not only was Mike one of the most handsome studs on the planet, he seemed to be super wise and enlightened and caring. And he knew, while I loved sucking his cock and swallowing his loads, that my background and upbringing was causing some conflicts over what I was doing versus what I was taught I "should" be doing!
So, during our "lectures" he began reassuring me that I couldn't help the sexuality I was born with, anymore than he could! He told me that just because I was male, didn't mean I was born with the sexuality of a real man! He made a clear distinction over being male and being a man in the sexual sense. He was a male that was a real man in the sexual sense and was trying to explain that just because I was male, didn't mean that I should or was supposed to perform sexually like most men do and make that Ok for me. Not an easy task for me, as you will see.
Mike told me that there was no way I could stop my desires and cravings for cock, anymore than he could stop craving what a man does! He told me I could resist all I wanted, but it wouldn't change the fact that my sexual wiring was the way it was!
He also told me that guys like me had been around since the beginning of time, and would ALWAYS be around, pleasing real men like him! He told me that yes, while sucking cock was considered "queer" in societal terms, it was NOT "queer" for me personally and why it felt so right and natural for me to suck him off!
He told me my embarrassment and humiliation that I sometimes had that I was a cocksucker, stemmed from my false beliefs versus the reality of the facts!
Now mind you, I am listening to all this WHILE his cock is in my mouth! Whenever he said something, it was like it was totally so! It actually DID feel right and natural for me to be kneeling before him and lovingly sucking his dick! It DID feel like this was my lot in life and where I belonged! It was almost like brainwashing or something! And in a way it was, it was "washing" all those false beliefs about myself and what I "should" be doing! It was actually cleansing my brain of all those false beliefs over what I should be doing and how I should be as a male!
He further told me, What could be 'wrong' with pleasuring another man while I was also loving pleasuring myself too!?
"You are performing a very valuable service for men!" He told me that all real men need that release and relief of cumming, that that was what they were biologically wired to do. And that the more men got that relief and release, the happier this ol world would be!
So, I was performing a very high calling -- service to my fellow man! WHILE doing what came right and natural for me too!
He told me that the more men I sucked off, the better this ol world would be! I had to laugh about the thought that I was sucking cock for world peace! But it certainly did help me feel better about what I was doing!
I also got that he not only liked me in spite of the fact I was a cocksucker, but BECAUSE I was! He liked and accepted me for being who I was. Now, he was trying to get me to feel the same way about myself!
A man liked me for BEING a cocksucker! While I still wasn't quite sure whether I should like myself because I was. But he just kept reassuring me and reinforcing it with yet another wonderful mouth full of his hot cum and I just totally loved it and each time made it easier to swallow (grin -- sorry for the double entendre!).
I know this is a long post, but it's hard to condense something that actually happened over several years.
And along the way, obviously, I began doing more than "just" sucking his cock. I remember when he first told me I was good 'pussy' too and I balked big time telling him I was not a girl and didn't have a pussy!
Naturally, it was "lecture" time again and he told me he was very clear I was not a girl! He said he didn't say I had a vagina, but that I had FUNCTIONED as good pussy for him! And that if anyone asked what the hole was called that men fuck and cum in (with a condom at first -- we later dispensed with that too and nothing, but nothing will remove any lingering thoughts about not being a gurl when you have been bred and feel like you have a wet sperm filled pussy!), the answer would always be 'PUSSY'!! He said that vagina isn't the only hole that can FUNCTION (that word again!) as a pussy! He said my mouth had even been good pussy for him too! He told me that I have just got to get over the fact, that while I am male, I am not much of a real man sexually because I simply don't perform nor FUNCTION sexually as one!
Mike said, "Let me put it this way. In a few minutes, after you have sucked me rock hard, I will want some pussy. And what is it that my cock will be entering and enjoying and that you want?"
"Oh gawd", I thought! I sheepishly said, "My pussy!"
Oh great! Now I have a pussy too!
"That's what I thought! Now baby, suck me like you want me to fuck your pussy!"
And so I did! And was! AGAIN! But the first time I thought about it in those terms!
I think it was the very next time that I showed up at his place that he said he had a surprise for me and led me to the bedroom and there laid out on the bed was a bra & panties and thigh high hose.
Needless to say, as was my wont, I balked big time! I told him again, I wasn't a girl nor was I a sissy!
"Lecture" time again! I kneeled before him, took his gorgeous cock into my mouth and listened. He reviewed all our sexual encounters from almost the get-go with me and told me he didn't want to make me into a girl, just have sex like one and dress like one to reflect that FACT!
He told me to think about the very fact that, in the hardware store, they call the plug with the prongs the male plug and the one with the holes, the female plug and what FUNCTION did I sexually always now perform closer as!? The answer, of course, was the female plug!
But "just" naked, someone might mistake me for a real man! Whereas wearing panties, et al, would instantly resolve that mistake!
He told me, once again, he knew I wasn't a girl, but that I clearly never performed nor FUNCTIONED sexually as a real man with him. That I pleased him as well as and usually better than any real girl had, thus a male that pleases a man like a girl would was almost the very definition of a sissy!
I just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that I was really a sissy! Because in my mind, I was once a jock stud athlete and if there was anything worse than being a fag, it was being a sissy fag!
But here I was AGAIN with a dick in my mouth, the same dick that had enjoyed fucking my 'pussy' and certainly couldn't argue that I had performed sexually as a man would ever remotely do, with him each and every time! I had certainly demonstrated ZERO masculine pride many, many times!
Then he said the thing that actually got me to do it.
"I tell you what. It would make me very happy if you donned those things for me and I promise, if I don't make you happy you did, you never have to do it again!"
Well, to make a very long story a tad shorter, think about me kneeling before him with his hardening cock in my mouth and how much I loved pleasing this wonderful man and how it was fast becoming impossible to ever say 'no' to this man anyway. And I just have to do this this one time and I never have to do it again.
So, I did it and HE did it! Make me VERY happy, that is! And I never balked again!
To the contrary, I even began to look forward to what gurly things he'd buy for me next! We used to play naked, but now every time, I was in something only a girl or sissy would wear! It was so strange -- it made me feel almost more naked being in panties or whatever than when I was naked! It was like it instantly communicated to anyone that saw me, as well as myself, that I was a cock and cum lover! And clearly NOT a real man like Mike clearly was!
The real deal maker was that he dispensed with a condom for the first time ever too.
We had talked about it for months and both tested and he really and truly bred me! I now had a soaking wet pussy when he pulled my panties back up and it was the most wondrous feeling I ever had! As you can imagine, I no longer had one shred of evidence left that I could argue that I was anything BUT a gurl! Male gurl, but gurl nevertheless! A damn sissy! And dammit, I loved it! I had just been REALLY good pussy for a REAL man! It just felt somehow very appropriate to be in those panties and somesuch now!
For the next year or year and a half, before he got promoted and transferred to another state, I was now his sissy cocksucker, pussyboy, malegurlfriend or whatever label you prefer for a male that pleases a real man as well as and what he said, BETTER than, real girls do for men. And I loved every second of it!
He had always told me I would be much happier when I fully accepted my sexuality and realized that was my purpose in life! And though I was very resistant to it, I had a man that very patiently (years! but it's the only way it would have worked with me!) led me and helped me do it.
So, yes, I am proud to be a cocksucker and that I have that ability to please real men (and even other gurls! it's so fun to hang out with another CD and be with someone like yourself!).
And I really do think cocksuckers, be they male, female (I still find it interesting that while there are exceptions, most real girls aren't as wired sexually to crave sucking cock as almost every single male gurl is!) or gurls, serve a very valuable purpose and that the more men got a decent blowjob now and then, the better off this ol world would be.
I don't always dress to suck cock, but I now know and love that I am a cocksucker for men and can provide such a valuable service!
There is even a website that must feel this way too because it is called, Suck Dick, Save the World and it is at suckdicksavetheworld dot com. It seems like it is just getting going, but I sure hope it catches on and we can save the world by doing what we love! Sucking more cock!
I realize many of my posts here overlap and are sometimes redundant, but you also should be able to read each one on a standalone basis.
Thought since I spent so much time on it there, that I'd post it here too. Hope you enjoy!
===
I aplogize in advance for the length of this post, but I hope it instills pride in all you other sissy cocksuckers too!
Yes, I am proud to be a cocksucker!
The first time I sucked a man he said, "Are you sure this is the first time you have sucked cock?"
And I said, "Yes, but I have sucked a bazillion of them in my dreams and fantasies!"
He said, "Well, you are a good cocksucker and quite the natural. You obviously love it and you are going to be pleasing a lot of men!"
It's funny. Being called a cocksucker had forever been something I associated with something bad and that someone was attempting to insult you, so my first gut reaction was, "I am not a cocksucker!"
WHILE I had a cock in my mouth and was quite enjoying it!
Just shows how powerful our beliefs are! But reality kicked in almost as fast and I thought, "Oh my gosh! I DO have a cock in my mouth! I AM a cocksucker!" And almost simultaneously, I felt a sense of pride that someone thought I was good at it!
Then several minutes later, he PROVED it when he orgasmed and shot his load into my mouth! And I was just somehow thrilled that I could really and truly give a man that level of ultimate manly pleasure! It was a very strange thought, but I think I almost loved making him cum, more than cumming myself! In fact, I got some sort of orgasmic high WHEN he orgasmed! Mindblowing to say the least for someone who once thought he was so super str8!
But it was with my first longterm sexbud, of almost 5-years, named Mike (who I often refer to as Daddy1, since he was the first Daddy-type man I ever had) that I really accepted I was a cocksucker (as well as even more as you will see) and that I should be proud of it.
First of all gurls, you should have seen this man -- 6'3, 220 (compared to my 6', 160), perfect 7-8" cock that made mine look like a little boy next to a grown man [and mine's not tiny!]), broad hairy chest and had a smile that lit up the room. He reminded me of a young Sean Connery, but even better looking! I promise you, I think he was the kind of man that could melt anyone, male or female! He just exuded masculine power and prowess! Look up "alpha" on Wikipedia and his photo should be beside it! Yet, he was ever the perfect gentleman too and that, to me, made him even more powerful. The nicer he was to me, the more I wanted to please him!
From our first encounter, when he opened up his robe and I just automatically dropped to my knees and began sucking him, I became instantly submissive and devoted to him! And that's all I did! Suck him off and leave! Like a cocksucker! Yet he invited me back just a few days later!
Several years later, he told me that he knew I would someday be his malegurlfriend just from the way I sucked his cock that first time! Had he told me that then, I probably would have run for the hills! Because I sure didn't think I would EVER in a bazillion years someday wear panties, et al, and someday be his sissy cocksucker and pussyboy!
Secondly, how could anyone not eventually accept they are a cocksucker when time after time after time, I kept ending up on my knees sucking this wonderful man off!? It just began to feel like an honor and privilege to be ALLOWED to!
There was also the "lectures" or "training" talks he gave me while sucking his cock and looking up at him.
From the get-go, he seemed to know more about me, than I knew about myself.
He told me that not every guy had the ability to sublimate their masculine pride and suck dick, much less love it, as I obviously did. He told me he could never do it, but was glad that I could.
Once again, my belief system kicked in and I thought, "Was having a lack of masculine pride a good thing?!" He is somehow making it sound as if it was! As a guy, shouldn't I have more masculine pride? Isn't that what I was taught and supposed to have?
But, he's right! He is the one enjoying something all men are supposed to, getting his cock sucked, while I am enjoying something that men are NOT supposed to! Thus clearly NOT demonstrating the text book example of what it means to be a man! Then I'd swallow yet another load and somehow be thrilled that I pleasured him so much! It was sort of confusing at first.
But, it was becoming very clear, that even though we were both males, our sexualities were quite different!
Not only was Mike one of the most handsome studs on the planet, he seemed to be super wise and enlightened and caring. And he knew, while I loved sucking his cock and swallowing his loads, that my background and upbringing was causing some conflicts over what I was doing versus what I was taught I "should" be doing!
So, during our "lectures" he began reassuring me that I couldn't help the sexuality I was born with, anymore than he could! He told me that just because I was male, didn't mean I was born with the sexuality of a real man! He made a clear distinction over being male and being a man in the sexual sense. He was a male that was a real man in the sexual sense and was trying to explain that just because I was male, didn't mean that I should or was supposed to perform sexually like most men do and make that Ok for me. Not an easy task for me, as you will see.
Mike told me that there was no way I could stop my desires and cravings for cock, anymore than he could stop craving what a man does! He told me I could resist all I wanted, but it wouldn't change the fact that my sexual wiring was the way it was!
He also told me that guys like me had been around since the beginning of time, and would ALWAYS be around, pleasing real men like him! He told me that yes, while sucking cock was considered "queer" in societal terms, it was NOT "queer" for me personally and why it felt so right and natural for me to suck him off!
He told me my embarrassment and humiliation that I sometimes had that I was a cocksucker, stemmed from my false beliefs versus the reality of the facts!
Now mind you, I am listening to all this WHILE his cock is in my mouth! Whenever he said something, it was like it was totally so! It actually DID feel right and natural for me to be kneeling before him and lovingly sucking his dick! It DID feel like this was my lot in life and where I belonged! It was almost like brainwashing or something! And in a way it was, it was "washing" all those false beliefs about myself and what I "should" be doing! It was actually cleansing my brain of all those false beliefs over what I should be doing and how I should be as a male!
He further told me, What could be 'wrong' with pleasuring another man while I was also loving pleasuring myself too!?
"You are performing a very valuable service for men!" He told me that all real men need that release and relief of cumming, that that was what they were biologically wired to do. And that the more men got that relief and release, the happier this ol world would be!
So, I was performing a very high calling -- service to my fellow man! WHILE doing what came right and natural for me too!
He told me that the more men I sucked off, the better this ol world would be! I had to laugh about the thought that I was sucking cock for world peace! But it certainly did help me feel better about what I was doing!
I also got that he not only liked me in spite of the fact I was a cocksucker, but BECAUSE I was! He liked and accepted me for being who I was. Now, he was trying to get me to feel the same way about myself!
A man liked me for BEING a cocksucker! While I still wasn't quite sure whether I should like myself because I was. But he just kept reassuring me and reinforcing it with yet another wonderful mouth full of his hot cum and I just totally loved it and each time made it easier to swallow (grin -- sorry for the double entendre!).
I know this is a long post, but it's hard to condense something that actually happened over several years.
And along the way, obviously, I began doing more than "just" sucking his cock. I remember when he first told me I was good 'pussy' too and I balked big time telling him I was not a girl and didn't have a pussy!
Naturally, it was "lecture" time again and he told me he was very clear I was not a girl! He said he didn't say I had a vagina, but that I had FUNCTIONED as good pussy for him! And that if anyone asked what the hole was called that men fuck and cum in (with a condom at first -- we later dispensed with that too and nothing, but nothing will remove any lingering thoughts about not being a gurl when you have been bred and feel like you have a wet sperm filled pussy!), the answer would always be 'PUSSY'!! He said that vagina isn't the only hole that can FUNCTION (that word again!) as a pussy! He said my mouth had even been good pussy for him too! He told me that I have just got to get over the fact, that while I am male, I am not much of a real man sexually because I simply don't perform nor FUNCTION sexually as one!
Mike said, "Let me put it this way. In a few minutes, after you have sucked me rock hard, I will want some pussy. And what is it that my cock will be entering and enjoying and that you want?"
"Oh gawd", I thought! I sheepishly said, "My pussy!"
Oh great! Now I have a pussy too!
"That's what I thought! Now baby, suck me like you want me to fuck your pussy!"
And so I did! And was! AGAIN! But the first time I thought about it in those terms!
I think it was the very next time that I showed up at his place that he said he had a surprise for me and led me to the bedroom and there laid out on the bed was a bra & panties and thigh high hose.
Needless to say, as was my wont, I balked big time! I told him again, I wasn't a girl nor was I a sissy!
"Lecture" time again! I kneeled before him, took his gorgeous cock into my mouth and listened. He reviewed all our sexual encounters from almost the get-go with me and told me he didn't want to make me into a girl, just have sex like one and dress like one to reflect that FACT!
He told me to think about the very fact that, in the hardware store, they call the plug with the prongs the male plug and the one with the holes, the female plug and what FUNCTION did I sexually always now perform closer as!? The answer, of course, was the female plug!
But "just" naked, someone might mistake me for a real man! Whereas wearing panties, et al, would instantly resolve that mistake!
He told me, once again, he knew I wasn't a girl, but that I clearly never performed nor FUNCTIONED sexually as a real man with him. That I pleased him as well as and usually better than any real girl had, thus a male that pleases a man like a girl would was almost the very definition of a sissy!
I just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that I was really a sissy! Because in my mind, I was once a jock stud athlete and if there was anything worse than being a fag, it was being a sissy fag!
But here I was AGAIN with a dick in my mouth, the same dick that had enjoyed fucking my 'pussy' and certainly couldn't argue that I had performed sexually as a man would ever remotely do, with him each and every time! I had certainly demonstrated ZERO masculine pride many, many times!
Then he said the thing that actually got me to do it.
"I tell you what. It would make me very happy if you donned those things for me and I promise, if I don't make you happy you did, you never have to do it again!"
Well, to make a very long story a tad shorter, think about me kneeling before him with his hardening cock in my mouth and how much I loved pleasing this wonderful man and how it was fast becoming impossible to ever say 'no' to this man anyway. And I just have to do this this one time and I never have to do it again.
So, I did it and HE did it! Make me VERY happy, that is! And I never balked again!
To the contrary, I even began to look forward to what gurly things he'd buy for me next! We used to play naked, but now every time, I was in something only a girl or sissy would wear! It was so strange -- it made me feel almost more naked being in panties or whatever than when I was naked! It was like it instantly communicated to anyone that saw me, as well as myself, that I was a cock and cum lover! And clearly NOT a real man like Mike clearly was!
The real deal maker was that he dispensed with a condom for the first time ever too.
We had talked about it for months and both tested and he really and truly bred me! I now had a soaking wet pussy when he pulled my panties back up and it was the most wondrous feeling I ever had! As you can imagine, I no longer had one shred of evidence left that I could argue that I was anything BUT a gurl! Male gurl, but gurl nevertheless! A damn sissy! And dammit, I loved it! I had just been REALLY good pussy for a REAL man! It just felt somehow very appropriate to be in those panties and somesuch now!
For the next year or year and a half, before he got promoted and transferred to another state, I was now his sissy cocksucker, pussyboy, malegurlfriend or whatever label you prefer for a male that pleases a real man as well as and what he said, BETTER than, real girls do for men. And I loved every second of it!
He had always told me I would be much happier when I fully accepted my sexuality and realized that was my purpose in life! And though I was very resistant to it, I had a man that very patiently (years! but it's the only way it would have worked with me!) led me and helped me do it.
So, yes, I am proud to be a cocksucker and that I have that ability to please real men (and even other gurls! it's so fun to hang out with another CD and be with someone like yourself!).
And I really do think cocksuckers, be they male, female (I still find it interesting that while there are exceptions, most real girls aren't as wired sexually to crave sucking cock as almost every single male gurl is!) or gurls, serve a very valuable purpose and that the more men got a decent blowjob now and then, the better off this ol world would be.
I don't always dress to suck cock, but I now know and love that I am a cocksucker for men and can provide such a valuable service!
There is even a website that must feel this way too because it is called, Suck Dick, Save the World and it is at suckdicksavetheworld dot com. It seems like it is just getting going, but I sure hope it catches on and we can save the world by doing what we love! Sucking more cock!
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