Hi! A little bit of the history of 'beth'
Hi! I’m beth, and after being on XHamster for three weeks and having so many comments and messages I thought it about time to utilize more than just the picture and video posting aspects of the site, and tell you a little more about me. I am the ‘slave’ behind the profile. I have Merc’s permission and encouragement to post here, but just about everything you see is posted by me. He’s a bit too busy.
Many people have asked; "Beth - what is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?” or “What is your wildest crazy fantasy which turns you on the most?" The answer to the first question is, I hope I haven’t done it yet; and I’ve done a LOT of things people would consider “crazy”. The short answer to the second quesiton, as well as the broadest, is that I am living out my wildest crazy fantasy. You see, I always wanted to be a used by my partner. Ever since I can remember, my favorite 'games' growing up always involved being 'captured' and taken prisoner and made to do things by my captives. Growing up on a large remote farm plot of land I had plenty of opportunity to play out those scenarios with friends and siblings.
I was also an 'early bloomer'; must be a 'red-head' thing. I was 6 the first time my mom caught me masturbating. "Good girls don't do that!!" she said. Well, I've been a 'bad girl' for a LONG time! When nobody else was around to capture me, my mind did. There wasn’t much do to growing up but play with myself and I did so daily and almost constantly; continuing to do so though 2 marriages and any number of relationships in between. I only stopped because since I’ve been with Merc, my orgasms don’t belong to me. Merc controls when and how I cum; or in my current phase of training to be his piss receptacle, ‘flush’. How well trained am I? Well, just typing out this last thought made me wet at the thought of his pee in and on me, and I want to beg to be able to hump his leg. But he says I must finish this and post it first.
You see, the people I was with could never understand, let alone appreciate or take advantage of my sexuality or my desire to submit to anything they desired. My ‘fantasy’ and ultimate sexual turn on is being used. I am a masochist, who had to indulge in self bondage and self inflicted painful stimulation because men were afraid or unwilling to inflict it upon me in the frequency or intensity I needed. Then I met Merc.
I found him by trying to quit smoking. The doctor I went to said I should “change my lifestyle”. Returning from my appointment I put “lifestyle” into a web-search. Guess what came up? After a prolonged masturbation session I completed a profile ad on one of the ‘BDSM’ websites I found; 45 days later I met Merc. The rest is history...Oh and by the way, I still smoke!
I’m one of the lucky few living my fantasy. I serve Merc 24/7 as his ‘slave’ as he defines the label. He requires that I only serve one Master. For him, that means I don’t work outside the house. We have a pretty big place and managing it for him requires full time attention. He also requires 24/7 availability whether that means to accompanying him on a trip to Europe, or a trip across town for a business luncheon with me in the car so he can use the commuter lanes. He manages as much of my life as possible. For example he even controls my manner of speech. I’m required to communicate using the third person reference to myself at all times. (He’s made an exception for this blog post.) He controls as much as he can. I like it that way and appreciate the more control I relinquish the better I feel about myself and my life.
Of course the fun parts are how he uses me at his whim for his sexual, as well as sadist, desires. I’m here to amuse and entertain him as well as anyone else he deems worthy. I’ve even helped him close a business deal or two over the years. I am used, but not abused. It has been FUN! I am fulfilled as a woman and a masochistic submissive. He has taken me places, mentally and emotionally, as well as literally, where I never dreamed I’d go. I go “deeper” into myself every day under his guidance and authority. As a ‘slave’ I’ve never been so free.
I hope this little introduction provides some insight of the woman/slave behind the pictures and videos. If you like to know more – feel free to ask. If there is any interest and activity generated from this post, I’ll post more, especially if there are any questions about my life or lifestyle.
Many people have asked; "Beth - what is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?” or “What is your wildest crazy fantasy which turns you on the most?" The answer to the first question is, I hope I haven’t done it yet; and I’ve done a LOT of things people would consider “crazy”. The short answer to the second quesiton, as well as the broadest, is that I am living out my wildest crazy fantasy. You see, I always wanted to be a used by my partner. Ever since I can remember, my favorite 'games' growing up always involved being 'captured' and taken prisoner and made to do things by my captives. Growing up on a large remote farm plot of land I had plenty of opportunity to play out those scenarios with friends and siblings.
I was also an 'early bloomer'; must be a 'red-head' thing. I was 6 the first time my mom caught me masturbating. "Good girls don't do that!!" she said. Well, I've been a 'bad girl' for a LONG time! When nobody else was around to capture me, my mind did. There wasn’t much do to growing up but play with myself and I did so daily and almost constantly; continuing to do so though 2 marriages and any number of relationships in between. I only stopped because since I’ve been with Merc, my orgasms don’t belong to me. Merc controls when and how I cum; or in my current phase of training to be his piss receptacle, ‘flush’. How well trained am I? Well, just typing out this last thought made me wet at the thought of his pee in and on me, and I want to beg to be able to hump his leg. But he says I must finish this and post it first.
You see, the people I was with could never understand, let alone appreciate or take advantage of my sexuality or my desire to submit to anything they desired. My ‘fantasy’ and ultimate sexual turn on is being used. I am a masochist, who had to indulge in self bondage and self inflicted painful stimulation because men were afraid or unwilling to inflict it upon me in the frequency or intensity I needed. Then I met Merc.
I found him by trying to quit smoking. The doctor I went to said I should “change my lifestyle”. Returning from my appointment I put “lifestyle” into a web-search. Guess what came up? After a prolonged masturbation session I completed a profile ad on one of the ‘BDSM’ websites I found; 45 days later I met Merc. The rest is history...Oh and by the way, I still smoke!
I’m one of the lucky few living my fantasy. I serve Merc 24/7 as his ‘slave’ as he defines the label. He requires that I only serve one Master. For him, that means I don’t work outside the house. We have a pretty big place and managing it for him requires full time attention. He also requires 24/7 availability whether that means to accompanying him on a trip to Europe, or a trip across town for a business luncheon with me in the car so he can use the commuter lanes. He manages as much of my life as possible. For example he even controls my manner of speech. I’m required to communicate using the third person reference to myself at all times. (He’s made an exception for this blog post.) He controls as much as he can. I like it that way and appreciate the more control I relinquish the better I feel about myself and my life.
Of course the fun parts are how he uses me at his whim for his sexual, as well as sadist, desires. I’m here to amuse and entertain him as well as anyone else he deems worthy. I’ve even helped him close a business deal or two over the years. I am used, but not abused. It has been FUN! I am fulfilled as a woman and a masochistic submissive. He has taken me places, mentally and emotionally, as well as literally, where I never dreamed I’d go. I go “deeper” into myself every day under his guidance and authority. As a ‘slave’ I’ve never been so free.
I hope this little introduction provides some insight of the woman/slave behind the pictures and videos. If you like to know more – feel free to ask. If there is any interest and activity generated from this post, I’ll post more, especially if there are any questions about my life or lifestyle.
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