Confession: I am a Faggot

This post was made by my fellow Fag brother (pourlamourdeshommes), who gave a permission to post it.

By chance a couple of years back I came across a book called The Faggot Bible by an Alpha who calls himself FagMaster. It was after reading the first few chapters of this book that I was compelled to start acknowledging my nature, and conversations with Alphas and fellow Faggots on this site have reinforced my conviction that: 1) there is a relatively stable, durable configuration of urges and lusts which may justly be called a nature, an essence, a state of being; and 2) although this nature, when found in the human male, has likely been given many names down the ages, it is in our current age appropriately called a Faggot nature or faggotry, and those who have this nature are rightly deemed Faggots. There are many who will take offence at the use of this term, but I do not and nor, I think, should they; words always operate in context, social and linguistic, and we must attend to these contexts if we want to interpret usage correctly. The man who dismissively calls me a Faggot simply for having affections for or sexual urges whose object is other men is a bigot; the Alpha who calls me a Faggot while he lets me feast on his cock, suck his balls, and lick, tongue, and suck on his arsehole and taint is a man who understands my nature and seeks to reinforce it. For the first man, all Faggots, all faggotry is bad; for the second man, the Alpha, there are good and bad Faggots like there are good and bad dogs; 'Faggot', like 'dog', merely describes a species of being, and just as a dog is a dog regardless of whether it is good or bad, so a Faggot is a Faggot, and there is no more offence in calling the one than the other precisely what it is.

So what is the configuration of urges and lusts which define the faggot? Well, FagMaster lists seven:

1. An obsession with cock and cum
2. Dreaming of being a total slut
3. Knowing or deeply sensing you're not a real man
4. The desire to be depersonalized and treated like an
object, a thing, an it
5. Fantasizing about being r***d or gang-r***d
6. The desire to be degraded, humiliated, misused and
abused
7. Fantasizing about being enslaved, exploited, or utterly
controlled

To these items I respond as follows:

#1. An obsession with cock and cum: Yes. It's what I think of most often throughout the day. When I see an attractive man, my head is immediately filled with thoughts of his cock and how I'd like to lick it, suck it, swallow it, bringing him to orgasm, and then suck every last pearl of cum from his moist throbbing cock before cleaning him up with my mouth and letting him get on with the rest of his day.

#2. Dreaming of being a total slut: Yes. If ever I were wealthy enough not to have to work, I would consider every waking minute without at least one cock in me a waste of my life and talents.

#3. Knowing or deeply sensing you're not a real man: Yes, if by "real man" we understand "Alpha male". I have always stood in awe of Alpha males, their authority and force of will, and in their presence I am always overcome by a desire to please them in every way I can.

#4. The desire to be depersonalized and treated like an object, a thing, an it: Yes. FagMaster says it best: "When you think of a Real Man fucking your Faggot face or ass, you want him to treat you not as someone he is fucking . . . but as an object he is using. You want to be a hole for cum, a fleshlight, a thin that exists for Cock, a non-person, an It. This may translate into you seeking out, or
fantasizing about, sexual encounters that are especially anonymous, objectifying, depersonalizing---where you no longer are forced to think of yourself as a person at all, but just a hole or an object that is being used by Cock. Some typical examples of this desire to
be turned into a fuck-object include: Being used at gloryholes, where you are a truly anonymous hole; wearing gimp masks or hoods to cover your faggot face, and thereby turn you into basically a living fuck-doll and nothing more; having strangers breed you blindfolded,
where 'what I see can't hurt me,' and therefore I'm no longer a 'me' at all, but just an indiscriminate, anonymous fuck-thing; getting bred in bath hours dark rooms, where no one can see each other and, again, you become just an anonymous hole for anonymous Cocks
to shoot anonymous Loads into; fantasies of being hypnotized or brainwashed, to the point of losing your sense of self entirely and just becoming a pliant fuck-zombie with no will of its own." In short: I see myself as an instrument of Alpha pleasure, nothing less.

#5. Fantasizing about being r***d or gang-r***d: No. (r****ts should be behind bars!) What I DO fantasise about is being taken by an Alpha or group of Alphas right up to the r-line---where "Yes!" risks becoming a "No!", where "Keep going!" risks become a "Stop!", where pain and pleasure start to meld with each other---and being ridden for hours along that line by those Alphas, pushing it and riding me farther and farther
into darker and darker realms, stretching the fabric of my mind and body and teaching me to relish and long for that pleasure which lies on the far side of pain.

#6. The desire to be degraded, humiliated, misused and abused: No.
#7. Fantasizing about being enslaved, exploited, or utterly controlled: Yes. Bondage and domination.