When l first became sexualy aware

l was 7 when l had my first sexual release.
at the time l was not aware of what or how deeply it would alter me forever
some say for the worse /some say for the better,l say yea and ney
my foster sisters used me as a dress up toy
taking pleasure in my shame/thinking they were degrading me for a naughty boys desire to be one with them/panties/bra/skirt/showering with them ,wishing l was a girl ,desperatly wanting to make love as only another female could
wishing to gently curl up to sleep,cuddlying pressing myself against her ,reaching over to cup her breast in my hand,caressing her nipple,starting to drip as it harddens in my hand