Just a vent

Hey guys, so i've never been this click or need to in a gang person, but i understood why some do it, Im going to get in some trouble for saying this but I'm finding within my americanized african community there is something really wrong and off with MANY Blk men especially those who claim their identity in lgbtq+ .. there's this inward hatred within and this shame for enjoying man on man intimacy, its anger in parts, there's this DO THIS FOR ME FINANCIALLY AND I'LL FK U MENTALITY. Low grade vibration that i just can't be involved in. Fear of connecting emotionally, not trusting our mirror reflection and even sick desire to expose one another, i've been so faithful to the black dick and in the majority of cases been very disappointed. Even in the porn vidz Blk tops are more willing to be sexually passionate with other ethnicities than their own. WTF is going on with us? Its as if some of us will do anything to belong elsewhere..