Finally giving in

I am a 61 MWM who for over 30 years has fought the desires and fantasy of being with another man sexually. My wife and I have always enjoyed sex together but something was always missing. We have had a healthy sex life which has included sharing fantasies, watching porn together and incorporating toys. I found myself sharing fantasies but never the one I kept, wanting to be with a man. As we watched porn, I finally realized I was more interested in the cocks than the women. A few times my wife would say something about she would love to ride or suck a cock as the porn was on and oh how I wanted to do the same thing. Fast forward to April 2016. I was in Dallas for a business meeting. As most meetings are, this one too was boring and a waste of time. As usual I did dinner at the hotel and went over to the bar for a drink or 3. A guy comes in and sits next to me, mainly because it was the only seat left. He was like me, a few pounds overweight, alone and on a business trip. I had a beard that matched my hair, salt and pepper while he was bald and had a moustache. We sat and had a couple of drinks then moved to a table where it was a little more private and less noisy. As we sat across from each other talking, I began to think he's a nice, clean pleasant guy. He would buy a round then I would. After about 4 drinks my wife called. I excused myself and said I have to talk to the ball and chain, he was laughing as I answered the call. Listening to her rambling for about 10 minutes, my buzz was wearing off and I thought my new friend would be gone. I was surprised he was still there and I swear he had unbuttoned a button or 2 because I had not noticed his hairy chest before.. This along with another drink caused my mind to spin thinking I'd love to rub my hands across his chest and nipples. I just realized I was rock hard. It was getting late, the conversations had taken a sexual tone and I needed to do what I had for 30 years, run. I said it's almost 11pm and I needed to hit the hay. He asked what are you heading in so early for and I responded, still until this day I can't understand why or how I said it but I responded " I need some stress release",. He laughed and I froze when he asked you want some help. I sat back down and explained I'm not really sure why I said that but for the first time in my life I told another person what I had been fighting for years. He was a great listener and non judgmental. He then begin to speak and after a couple more drinks and midnight approaching he explained a year earlier he was exactly where I was tonight. He wasn't pushy or overbearing but said something which made since to me. " If you experiment and it's not what you really wanted, what have you lost but if you continue to fight it haven't you really punished yourself. He said if you want a helping hand, let's go. I said I wanted to go to my room and it was only going to be a hand job, he agreed.. As we entered my room he asked. if he could undress me and l said yes because I don't know if I have the nerve. He unbuttoned my shirt, unbuckled my belt then ever so slowly began taking my pants off. He was a gentleman and asked if I was OK to continue while he was rubbing my cock through my boxer briefs, I nervously said yes. He asked if he too could undress and jack off and like a dummy I was shaking my head yes because I couldn't say it. He undressed completely and turned to face me as for the first tlime I was minutes away from touching another man's cock. Our cocks were about their same length but mine was thicker and uncut while he was cut..He lead me to the bed and layed besides me. Not sure if it was the alcohol that gave me the courage but I reached over to rub his hairy belly, chest and nipples. He fondled my balls, gently squeezed them them took my cock in his hand. I told him I wouldn't last long and apologized. My god he was an expert as he slowly stroked me, running his thumb across my cock head smearing the pre cum. I didn't even realize I now had his rock hard cock in my hand and his balls felt like velvet. He asked if he could suck my cock but I said no, at least I haven't lost all control. As he layed next to me stroking my cock he began flicking his tongue across my nipples. I told him I was going to cum and he asked me to cum on his face or in his mouth. I straddled his chest and came more than I have ever cum before I believe. He had cum all over his face, in his moustache and in his mouth. I immediately slid down sucked his nipples. and grabbed his cock and began jacking him off as my other hand cupped his balls.. He screamed out he was cumming and I jacked faster. He came all over his stomach and chest and I begin rubbing it in. No guilt had set in yet and I think I was the happiest I had been in years. I rolled over on my right side and he rolled over next to me with his left arm pulling me against him. I thought I was going to pass out as I felt his cock, still hard, rubbing against my ass. I knew then I had wasted so many years of my life fighting my desires. The story continues another day.