subfusta

I missed writing so much. I missed the wave of inspiration that fills my body with adrenaline and my mind with a state of calm. My fingers run on the keyboard and notepad, writing ideas that I hope I will be able to develop. i don't know why I am so eager of creating new things on and on. I am not a fan of recycling content, and I want to always have the new ideas. Is not very easy to find new ideas. Actually is almost impossible to fin the right ideas. The is to find the perfect content for the people that follow you. And here is my problem. I am not sure what kind of content people want from my pov. But then I am back, searching for ideas, talking with people, avoiding rude people again and explaining to others that I am not here neither to masturbate or to marry someone. But otherwise, life is good, and there are a few more days until September is here. I was very lazy this year, but maybe, we all need a break from time to time. love, me.

I don't know when all these days have passed, but I am guilty of ignoring you for so long. I am guilty of having doubts if I want to continue this project or just let it go. I am guilty of all the plans I've made to help myself to evolve and let them just pile up and get a lot of dust.
I am lazy and insecure, I have a lot of things going around my life and I let them every moment to get me down, so then I just start complaining I have to get up again.
The truth is, there is no light at the end of the tunnel, you need to light up that light and explode that tunnel in order to get your life to the way you want. Your dreams will only come true if you make something about them, or you can just sit and complain and see how other people build and live your dreams. Your ideas, my ideas, everyone ideas are good enough to change a small part of the world, but we are all missing that someone that will  tell us that we can do it.
As a famous songs said it: I WILL SURVIVE!
But in order to survive, you need to live, and in order to live , you need to do everything like you love every single day of the week, not only hating Monday and expecting the weekend just as another reason to complain and hater your Monday - AGAIN.
I started and I will continue having some videos in Romanian, but I will keep my JOI videos in English. I will improvise in every moment while laying with video editing and discovering a good way for me to make more people smile.
In this moment, I don't know what kind of content I will have, but I know, that I can't stop creating, because every time I stop doing this, I feel depressed as fuck.
So see you in the comment section, here, or on my videos, I think I will skip answering and reading my inbox, and just continue to be glad that you can't upload photos in a message - YET
love, me.

I was in a weird weeeird moment. Had to choose with what JOI I will come now. What I will do now, some games, or some better script, panties or just some pantyhose. What to wear is my biggest problem every time I am going for a new video. This moment, I think I will try something new. I will go with some pink outfit, some red nails. A few new things in the video too. I am learning video editing just by playing with the videos and then, wanting to do everything perfect for you guys.
I have all the props ready, I just need to decide on the script. I am thinking of on it, and then coming later with the big idea.
I don't know how much you want this. I don't know if even my videos are so good as you say!
But I want to thank you, for all the moments you spend, jerking off on my JOI!
You know, I am thinking of making some special content for people who start to use the "tips" section. But until then, there's a lot more JOI's to do, fans to get masturbating, and even plans for New Eve.
When did this year go almost away?
It's September, and you guys, you deserve my best inspiration!
love, me.

This platform made a new and nice changes for us, all the users from here. Starting from regular ones, and then going to the "models" and "porn stars". My page looks like I am, or I will be some important person around here. I am not sure I want that. I am not sure about a lot of things, but, for the moment, I think that changes help us improve. Help us explore more. This site I hope will help a lot of people explore their sexuality and discover a lot of new things. I am guessing that some will remain blocked in a some-how of loop of porn movies that might ruin a part of their sex life.
But there is life after this site, there are people with the same fetishes and desires, with the same or close feelings about a lot of things.
The users from this site are real people, with frustrations, jobs, some of them with families. Is really weird how a social network, a porn site, can get all these kinky people along. Even the rude ones.
Let's make it a september to remember, and have a lot of fun!
love, me.

Step by step, is going to be Monday soon all over the world. People shuffle porn before going to work on a Monday, or going to in a late Sunday. What does it matter anyhow? You go online, search your lover, message that kinky member and discuss about horny  things. 
I am waiting for my horny fan to come online, to see how his weekend was. I have a few members around that inspire me with all the nice adventures, the horny talks and the inspiration that I have around.
I don't know it I will stop fighting the not nights, but for sure, I will not stop working and writing, and inspire people. Well, most of it, inspire myself for a good sexual nights. Still have a little wonder about a couple of dudes that come around my path,maybe they've earned their way into my bed too.
Is nice to have around a male figure to inspire all your sexual desires, to make you want more and more with every kiss and every touch, every discussion, full ashtray, morning coffee, late tea.
Have an inspired Monday you horny ones,
I posted a video about my weekend yesterday, and the sequel of that one is for sale 😉
love, me.

I realized I like to write a lot, but basically I write most some combination of bullshit motivational, while I try to get myself more motivated to stop thinking and some erotic experiences that I have. I write happy stories, but most of them are happy because are ending in an orgasm. Did you ever noticed a sad person having an orgasm? Indeed my point.
So I got now into a contest, but you have to write a happy story, and I don't think they will appreciate the porn I write, so I went back into a text I wrote few years ago. Is a short love story, and some time travel, some warrior fighting and a happy ending. Actually is a vague ending, that makes you smile and want for more. Or at least I want more from that story. 
I've decided I don't love myself as much as I say, because I keep the bad energy with me. I keep the weird vibe and the laziness, I have such a bad motivation of getting out of bed and really started doing things. All the equipment is ready for me to start the next videos, but omg, doing some cleaning, or cooking or just reading seems to be more interesting. Then I realize it's morning, my favorite part of day, I've been awake all the night, and I promised myself that I will stop in the morning. I would stop being the girl who puts herself to when everyone is going to work.
As I try to see the sunrise behind the clouds, I notice the spider that drew a web outside my window,  nice flowers  and t he birds singing, so basically, it's a good moment to . Before everyone goes to work, and not to the whole day.
see you soon guys!
love, me.

As I stay in bed, laying here and answering e-mails. Preparing for another marathon of lack of , tons of new people to talk to, cute guys being around, loud music in my office. As I stay here, I am wondering a lot of things. Should I fight for the new job, should I give up some projects for a while and just go with the flow. Is the next chapter of my life, just sitting here waiting to start? 
I know, I know I can do anything I want. We all can do anything we love. But damn, we love to overreact, overthink and forget to just say "yes", and go with the flow.  
Oh, deep in my heart, I wish for a full week of and miss the reality. Stop checking what is happening around, just sit, and read. And then, I realize, that nothing really happens as we wish. I am an energy vampire. I am feeding my ego with compliments from strangers of people around me. I am feeding my ego with a lot of pron. Watching porn, creating porn, sitting in my room, and just thinking of the perfect angles for the pictures. But, somewhere, in the way of thinking about what to do, I think I lost the way to myself.
I will find it again, I will find my way back to the life I desire and urge so much. 
Miss you guys, miss you as much as I miss having time with myself.
love, me

We spend a lot of time, to smell fresh. To be a pleasure in the moment of a hug, or of a nice person getting closer to us. We love to smell fresh, and to have nice perfumes on our body, to drive some people crazy and to remain in a memory of something. A smell. 
The smell of spring, the smell of rain, the smell of perfume when I hug you. 
The urge I have to strip you naked and fuck you, just by smelling your perfume. To have all your body over me, to be a blanket with my naked body. We will transform all the perfume in a sexual smell, our bodies will transform everything within a second. The air will be full with the smell of our orgasms, the sheets will smell like happiness and our faces will smile for a moment.
I don't think I can get enough of kissing and feeling you, of feeding my fantasies with the smell that you leave behind, on my body, on my sheets.
but then again, water will come and wash it all, and then, everything goes back to building the perfect smell of your skin in my mind, until I can put back my head on your shoulder and smell it again.

Loneliness is just that moment when you realize how much you feed yourself with the attention of the people around you. Then you discover this paradox. You have a lot of people around you, tho you should not be alone.
Loneliness is the moment you look around you and all you see is the noise. There is all this noise everywhere. You want to get out from everything. You want to get away, just to get away. You look behind you, to catch that hand and runaway from all the noise. You discover you are alone. Completely alone, no one near you to grab your hand and take you away from all this mess.
Then, in that moment, when all the noise is starting to be disturbing. You start building walls around you, bubble soaps, art, painting. Do something with all the noise and it will just go away. Transform everything in one way of expressing yourself, or even in art.
The noise will not go away, but it will have a shape with whom you can get used to.
You will accept everything more easier.
Love, me.

Would you do a leather joi video? Just wondering

As I've told you already, I was testing some new thing around here. some of you wanted some content from me, other had special requests. There is no way I can get everyone happy, but I did some testing and I've made some special content. Is true, my muse was very good, and had a good inspiration for the mask on my face, for the orgasms, for the masturbation. 
Yes, I play with myself, that is no secret. Everyone does it. I do not like so much to film it, or to make pictures of it. Most of them were when we were having fun and  testing around some games. I see masturbation as a private thing, you open a movie, or go with your imagination. touch yourself and let all the stress out. One orgasm, a few minutes, and that's about it.
Thank you so much, for your support, for the views, for the messages.
I will come with a new JOI soon. maybe some CEI, will play some games. In the end I just want some people to enjoy these vids.
Love, me.