My manifestation of Sex Addiction
My name is Marie and I am a sexaholic. Really, I have been diagnosed with a form of sex addiction. This condition can be more harmful and dangerous than one thinks, as a person that is compelled to have sex with strangers can put themselves at risk in a number of different ways. Fortunately, my addiction does not compel me to have sex with others, I truly do not desire to have sex with anyone other than my husband. But my desire makes me obsess about masturbating. Even though my husband and I still do it 3-6 times per week (not bad for a man his age), I must have more orgasms in a week than he (or any other human) can provide.
For me, the orgasm is my d**g of choice. And, like with any d**g, there have been times of moderation, as well as times of significant indulgence. When I was studying for exams in law school, I would go at myself 5-6 times every day. On one particular day, I engaged in 10 separate masturbation sessions, each session with a minimum of 3 orgasms. Do you know any other woman who can have over 30 orgasms in a day?
Over the years, the occasional ther****t would tell me I should try to masturbate less. If they can find a reasonable substitute for the sheer pleasure of the orgasm, I’ll try it. Until then, I’ll be getting myself off constantly, thank you. I get their point, though. Any excessive and obsessive habit can create harmful consequences, and that thinking is indicative of something deeper in the mind. But, in much the same manner in which pro-marijuana advocates extol the positive physical and psychological benefits of cannabis, I would encourage everyone to masturbate more often and with more purpose. It is not merely a substitute for sex, it is a beautiful form of sex itself.
When I am loving myself, I can truly let go and give myself to the sensation. There is no partner to think about having to please. I am the focus of it all. This allows to me to almost go into a meditative state, letting the sexual pleasure flow over me. I try my best to turn my addiction into a positive influence in my life.
You only hear about the extreme cases of sex addiction, because they make for better Lifetime Network movies. I may have well become one of those extreme cases if not for masturbation. I have a real need for the type of orgasms that satisfy deep within my soul, to feed my addiction. You can see that urgency in my face as I am pleasuring myself. In a sense, masturbation is my medicine, and the good news is that addiction is good in this case!
xoxo Marie
For me, the orgasm is my d**g of choice. And, like with any d**g, there have been times of moderation, as well as times of significant indulgence. When I was studying for exams in law school, I would go at myself 5-6 times every day. On one particular day, I engaged in 10 separate masturbation sessions, each session with a minimum of 3 orgasms. Do you know any other woman who can have over 30 orgasms in a day?
Over the years, the occasional ther****t would tell me I should try to masturbate less. If they can find a reasonable substitute for the sheer pleasure of the orgasm, I’ll try it. Until then, I’ll be getting myself off constantly, thank you. I get their point, though. Any excessive and obsessive habit can create harmful consequences, and that thinking is indicative of something deeper in the mind. But, in much the same manner in which pro-marijuana advocates extol the positive physical and psychological benefits of cannabis, I would encourage everyone to masturbate more often and with more purpose. It is not merely a substitute for sex, it is a beautiful form of sex itself.
When I am loving myself, I can truly let go and give myself to the sensation. There is no partner to think about having to please. I am the focus of it all. This allows to me to almost go into a meditative state, letting the sexual pleasure flow over me. I try my best to turn my addiction into a positive influence in my life.
You only hear about the extreme cases of sex addiction, because they make for better Lifetime Network movies. I may have well become one of those extreme cases if not for masturbation. I have a real need for the type of orgasms that satisfy deep within my soul, to feed my addiction. You can see that urgency in my face as I am pleasuring myself. In a sense, masturbation is my medicine, and the good news is that addiction is good in this case!
xoxo Marie
7 years ago
