Swhat I search..just a thought

Sometimes I feel confused about my self. Sometimes April inside me wants to come out and be the bitch she is, most of the time I am a man, I like women in love situation, but sexually I am bi. I like being fucked as a man too, but April is special because is a woman and I have to prepare and leave a bit the man I am behind... like shaving my face and all my body. I think I would like to find a good fuck buddy for spend a good time together sexually, watching some porn, I like to be full bottom when I am with a man and enjoy his cock (is my fetish ... cock, I think they are beautiful, the bigger the better and black is perfect), that is why is special for me when I want to be April and meet with someone, and secondly I need privacy for my man identity, someone I can trust and release my desires and the other desires. I don't want to be someone property but I want to feel free and release all inside me and help the other satisfy himself too. I just don't like pissing and shitting, and no extreme v******e, but I feel horny being dominated, tied up, used and ****d ... kinda like role play. **** game ... or a schoolgirl .... imagination is the limit ^_^ ... I live in Berlin and I am looking for maybe a long term fuck buddy only relationship ... My request is that has a great cock and sex mind and above all who know what respect and enjoy life is.