Finalgon treatment

Finalgon punishment, 400 words, yes, in English, because ''l'' and ''a'' counts as words too :)
Hope you won't count though :D
Before
After reasonably telling what is wanted from me (and me not arguing, brownie points for me :)), well, what can I say, it sounded terrifying, it made me panic and my hands were shaking and working was pretty much impossible. Not that I didn't know that it is a mindfuck, but knowing how it feels not even on a butt plug and added humiliation part (writing on a paper and filming it) made me more nervous than about anything that has been done before. Hate - yes, swearing - hell, yes, but actually the worst part was no choice part, knowing that you knew that I will do it - not fun. Of course there is always a ''go to hell'' choice, but as we both know that l am a sucker for challenges then here I am, writing this BEFORE the terrible showtime. What else was going on in my head on days before this moment - why the hell am I doing this, I must be crazy, you must be crazy, why I decided to explore all of this, maybe I could fake the heart attack (yeah, I am not joking, but you know that I like to exaggerate), how can someone enjoy this and things like that, but you probably know all of this, just trying to calm down a bit with some of my best thoughts about this punishment :) And one more thing that helps me go through this is you saying that I can do it and me wanting to prove that I can do it, I know I can, there won't be much options then to go through with it when Finalgon is applied. But brainfuck is something new to me and feelings are interesting :)
During
As always - I am honest, I was procrastinating and screwed up my courage for 15 minutes at least, 5:25 was the right time. Needed more than 5 minutes for nipples to start react, as always reaction on a butt, instant and effective, when you feel like it calms down a bit, it just comes back double stronger, who invented this!? But it was doable, I even got into subspace for a while, NOT saying that I enjoyed it, but it is doable. It didn't last as long as I expected on a butt, but in the middle somewhere nipples started to react, ''nice'' add to sensations. And as my butt calmed down sooner than my time limit, I might have done something else for entertainment. You will see, I was brave :)
After
Happy that it is over of course, relieved, light headed as I was out of this world a bit (nothing new there :D), it wasn't so bad as I remembered, but still not a walk in a park. I am happy that I could exclude from my mind that it is punishment, I concentrated on feelings only, that made it more tolerable. Brainfuck makes me more tired, but feeling of ''it is over'' is amazing, smile is back on my face again. Rate the experience - I actually liked it more than I thought, not sure how healthy it is, but it was interesting, something new and definitely worth repeating someday :)