Who i am and how

Well i thought it was about time i put my story onto paper so to speak , Iam Zoe and i am a mature Transvestite , where did it all start i say , well , I first got the urge to dress when i was about 10or 11 years old , my mother used to have a chest of drawers in our kitchen that all odds and sods were placed , and being the usual nosy sod that i was one day i was looking through it , in the bottom drawer it was full of old stockings and i loved the feelling of the material and after time i got to the stage wheni was in my bedroom i would slip them on , and i loved the feel of them against my legs it was lovely , i was only just getting into the stage of puberty and quite soon i would have a erection , to young mentally to realise that this was the start of a life long pleasure , and i used to have a good old wank wearing them , it was later that i got to the dressing stage .
I was much older them just discovering the joys of sex , i still thought girls were silly , but boys being boys with a close friend i got into the mutual wanking contests and then it all started there .
I kept the secret of my desires about stockings and such to my self as i thought it was wrong but couldn't stop , My friend was more mature sexually and in age from myself but we used to play in his bedroom and that is where it all really started from .
We used to look at nude magazines , and invaribly got to the stage of wanking , one day i for no reason reached across as he was wanking and started to wank him ,he was shocked at first but let me continue and i gave my first hand job it was lovely , it progressed from there to him asking me if i had ever sucked a cock , isaid no and he asked if i would suck his , i was hesitant a first but i went down on him and i realised i loved the sense of power i had over him , i sucked him off on a regular basis and i let him finish off in my mouth every time he eventually fucked me up the ass after that i was hooked , the serious dressing part came later , but i shall add to that later.
As the years progressed i got more adventurous ,sexually i mean , i had gotten to the stage of borrowing stuff from my older sister, old suspender belts so i used to go to bed wearing my purloined stockings and wank basically . oh what fun , little did i realise it would progress even further , it was about this age i was about 14 then that i found out that boys that wore girls clothing were called trannies , so i thought i must be one but at that stage i only wore stockings and a bra never fully dressed occasionally a little lippy , i was hooked for life by then .
I was about this time i found out about toilet sex , i had gone to watch a movie and during the film i had to go to the loo , and while i was pissing an older man came in and i had a semi hard on , he was next to me before i realised he had a hold of my cock and was wanking me it responded a bit frightened and shocked but i didn;t stop him i shot my load all over the urinal and i left quickly and left the cinema , i was in total shock , but later on i realised i had secretly enjoyed it , not long after that i realised i could possibly be gay , but then i took an interest in girls so i realised i was bisexual , but that is another story.
As the years progressed i didn't real indulge much into the gay side but i was still hot on the wearing womans clothes i adored being my female self though at that age i didn't really understand it at all , but realised it was not the normal thing to be doing soi told no one .
When i was much older i was in the forces and had a regular girlfriend and the sex side was good , but one night out on the town met up with an another guy from the camp we both got drunk , i had always noticed that he was a bit effeminate and i ended up giving him a blow job and him fucking me hard up the ass , and i loved it but gays were not allowed in the forces then so it was something one always kept secret .
Later i got married and did all the usual things but after two years i finally confessed of my tranny leanings to the wife , it broke her heart but she realised it was a part of me , so i was finaly able to become Zoe properly with a lot of help from my wife ( still married to her ) , after i came out of the mob iworked in a job that i was away al the time , it is then i fully slipped into my gay side , as i used to visit gay bars and some some really good times ,so over the years i have sucked a few cocks to completion and been ass fucked a few times too , never to keen on being the penetrator more of the reciever , now once during a train journey i was in Peterborough station and needed the loo so sitting in the cubicale and a cock appeared through a glory hole i hadn't even noticed without thinking i went down on him and sucked him off till i got a nice hot creamy load of hot cum , i loved it , he left i was just thinking about leaving and i noticed the door had closed again an lo and behold another juicy cock came through the hole , needless to say i sucked him off as well another juicy mouthful, i had a train to catch otherwise i would have probably sucked off a few more juicy cocks .So when i eventually got home i went out next day to see if our local loo's had glory holes. but this time i went prepared i had a suspender belt black stockings and a thong and a bra on , and es there was one . but to small for cock insertion but one can be watched so i started to wank in my undies as i saw someone watching , few moments later knock at door ,i let him in ( it was a sunday so not many people about )he had a cock restraint on and so i sucked him off as he started to come he held my head so i couldn't stop him shooting his load into my mouth ( i wouldn't have moved ) anyway , but while i was sucking him off another guy was watching , i had just had one full mouth of cum and in he came he shoved his hard on into my mouth grabed my head and litrellaly just shagged my mouth shot his load and left another guy watched he came in and he was my type he had on a basque and stockings and i gave him a good long blow job rubbing his legs he started to shoot his load and was going to pull out i grabbed his ass and held him in and sucked every last drop of hot cum out off him and i loved it he gave me his telephone number and the next time i ssaw him i was totally dressed full make up the lot as Zoe and we had some great sucking and fucking sessions the most tiemes i sucked him off was four times after a little break and he could make me squirm when he fucked me he was good , but unfortunately he moved away otherise i would still be sucking and being fucked by him still . over the years i have had a few liassons some just sucking somebody off in a layby some when i could do it dressed as Zoe and a nice long sexy session , it always amazed me how many so called straight guys loved getting sucked off by a tranny , or fucking one and still try to mantain they are totally hetrosexual ( in their dreams )even i thought that once before i became ralistic and realised i am a bisexual transvestite and i wouldn't change for the world i love being Zoe and i love sucking hot hard cock,