Out In Public pt.2 (12-23-13 first apperance)

Friday late night was swiftly approaching and I was chatting with a guy online that was gonna come over and play. so I shaved and deusched and showered. did my makeup and put on sexy clothes and wig, the whole shebang. he was to show at 1130 then emailed me and said 12 then never messaged back.determined to not let the whole night be wasted with me looking so sexy I jumped in the suv and went one town over to the gay club. there online site said they had drag shows Friday. a gay bar with a drag show what a perfect sissy gurl hangout, or so I thought.....
Upon entering first I had to show my "guy" id to the doorman," I look quite different on my id but its me, hun." I whispered into the doormans ear.
A heavy set short lesbian approached me checking me out.
"Hi honey how you doing?"she said.
"good" I assured her and went and seated myself at the bar.
The doorman was conversating with a few guys and I ordered a beer and looked out at the dance floor and surrounding tables. I noticed a few lesbian couples but the only gay men I saw were the bartenders, but the place was packed with str8 cpls or rather str8 guys with there bi Gfs. I sipped on my beer enjoying sitting in a bar in full sissy drag for the very first time. About half a beer later a heavy set blk girl hit on me and I must say I did admire her thick ass quite a bit....kinda pictured her showing me how to make that ass clap better(ive been working on it) at this time a male gay cpl finally came in. I immediantly noticed the tall blk man, his other was a little white boy. they walked right up and said," hi",my heart fluttered. I said," hi."
Suddenly my arm is grabbed by a drunken girl and she hugs me and says or rather slurs,"there you are im sooooo sorry"
All the while she is grinding her boobs against my chest and holding onto me. the cpl order their drinks and someone comes up they know and starts talking to them. they wander away. drunk girl's bf shows up and escorts her away from me. alone again I downed my beer and ask for directions to the bathroom. the bartender looks me up and down for a long minute then points me to the guys. I walk in go to the stall and squat an pee then I go to the mirror to fix my lipstick. I notice a young man(boy) finishing at the urinal I step back and tell him he can wash his hands so I don't hold him up. he steps back and gets a screwy mean look in his eyes looks up at me.
"WHAT THE FUCK,"he bellows slurring the whole while,"don't you fucking like girls."
The small part of my sissy mind that was still a guy could hardly keep from reaching out and throwing him through the wall but my fem side quickly composed me and I replied,"of course I do I love them they're awesome."
Now readers if you think I was antagonizing or bullshitting you are wrong. This thing I said to him was truer for me than him....I love girls so much I choose to emulate them. his kind choose to use them....not saying anything about gender roles, or using because what good sissy doesn't like being used. anyway I digress. even though I put on a fem air and took the high road I did stand up straighter so he would notice I was about a foot taller than him. he decided to exit the bathroom but went straight up to the doorman who was talking to some other guys. I returned to the bar and ordered another. it is at this point I am approached by another girl she rest her ass right against my knee and nearly sits on my lap as she orders her drink and smiles at me and says,"hi cutie"
"hi,"i replied back as I gazed across the dance floor again.
As I did so I noticed my ass clapper still checking me out but I also notice two blk men. one portly and bald, the other short but in shape with long dreads. the later was showing the former dance moves and I mean to tell you he knew them. one of the guys that was talking to doorman comes over and grabs the girl off my lap and escorts her away. it dawns on me that some guys have noticed I was a "gurl" but the girls either thought I was a genetic girl or were transbian type females :)
now the dancer saunters over to the bar. I compliment him on his dancing and he gets a big smile and thanks me, checking me out. it is now last call.
wish I didn't have to drive a town over. wish I had seen and talked to the dancer sooner.wish first drunk girl hadn't run off first mixed gay couple alas.....but at least I had an adventure. I down my beer and head for the door as I leave several guys are standing outside the door smoking. they all look at me and roll their eyes and kinda chuckle.....I kinda rear up... they kinda back down but I hear them whisper as I walk to my ride. As I drive home I contemplate what it means that my worst treatment received as a CD sissy gurl was at a gay bar.....oh life and its beautiful ironies.
~June Bonney
(first appearance 12-23-13 Club Sissy)

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tsadmiration
tsadmiration 1 year ago
to bb49 : Ive been a vegetarian for 42 freaking years. I noticed 1 thing. people who are all preaching stupid, ESPECIALLY in areas AND forums and Situations that have NOTHING to do with that subject NEVER LAST. (Because psychologically they're only preaching because they themselves are having a hard time and struggling to keep going, so they are really just trying to talk themselves into keeping going through repetitive reenforcement)! you're not A vegetarian anymore, I guarantee it! Give us an update! Bwah ha ha ha!
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tsadmiration
tsadmiration 1 year ago
to bb49 : Wtf are you talking about?
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tsadmiration
tsadmiration 1 year ago
to bb49 : Shut the HELL UP!🙄
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tsadmiration
tsadmiration 1 year ago
to bb49 : Shut the Hell up!
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tsadmiration
tsadmiration 1 year ago
Its not ironic or baffling at all! Gay guys HATE US still! (Yes im Generalizing, but that's what we're doing here); Because it's a lot of it's out here now and We take all the straight 1st times from them! Just go to boystown in Hollywood and try to go dancing you'll be the only 1 there and maybe 1 or 2 guys will look at you Without distane. Order no matter where you are go into grinder and look at the suggestion section look how long and big the suggestions are to try to get Grindr to get us off that site! LOL! Why? All together now!  Because we're taking all the straight 1st timers from them!
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Leomoore
Leomoore 2 years ago
Well done June, at least you went out there.  And survived.  
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to dougadoo1976 : yes. non inclusiveness. silly concept. as if any part of the universe could exclude the universe. or one person another
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dougadoo1976
dougadoo1976 8 years ago
great experience and it is ironic that you find prejudices in a gay club isn't it I heard about this happening to some tgurls I dated or was picked up by and I found it was very sad but a lot more true than the average person thinks so hey you find non inclusiveness everywhere
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to bb49 : you are correct in assuming I would appreciate this info, lol. and because of it i will be trying to wean myself from some of the things listed on here. Can't believe arbys has their bacon sandwich back right now though, lmao.... very tempting. And I am interested in water fasting also. We'll see how it goes.
I really enjoy our banter and I have learned much from our conversations, but I am also interested to know if any of my content, other than this, appeals to you. if so would love some comment on those also. I'm sure it will turn into quite the dialogue.
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bb49
bb49 8 years ago
to junebonney : I find myself coming back to your response quite often, you are very literate and use your higher concise, something that still surprises me when I run across it, the points you make of having "different facets" of personality is really amazing, what my research has just led me too is parasiticall influence of personality, this may sound far fetched, maybe even like sci-fi, but I'm learning parasites influence our personality in a BIG way, the trick of envisioning the process of the life of your food is a very "smart" idea, see parasites release microbes, these influence the brain, when the belly rumbles, is that your body that's hungry or the parasites?, even emotions can be controlled by these critters, the emotions release brain chemicals that in turn effect hormone and glandular excretions which these creatures use to feed, depending on where they live, so belligerent behavior CAN be attributed to this, parasites wanting adrenaline so trigger a response to the brain, this is very wild stuff, I'm just finding this and it concerns me very much, specially if one eats pork, no matter if it's grass fed, free range or whatever, same with beef,chicken, fish or shellfish, the protocol to rid the body of such things is extensive, the idea is not to kill them all at once, that could be very toxic to our bodies, all the dead flesh within us, we must starve them through water fasting, upper and lower colonics and such, in water fasting we don't just drink plain water but water infused with plant based vitamins and minerals, like "Blue Green Algea" with a flora minerals, I've seen some who fasted for 18 days +, they were still drawing out parasites, you could see it in their bowel movements, the craving for sugars & carbohydrates could be these critters telling your brain it's feeding time and this is what I want!!!
I know this is very different from where your incredibly intelligent statement started from, but if anyone would appreciate it, I thought it might be you,,,lolz...
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to bb49 : I do appreciate these thoughts. And the prejudices I have run up against are many. Partially I believe because of my fluidity itself. I like many people have multiple facets. different attributes. I have learned or maybe been conditioned to display the least hostile or most acceptable facet of myself dependent on the crowd or situation only to find to my chagrin that after a short time a new group of these people find some problem with that aspect. I think there is some Hegelian dynamics at work there also. Like this, you are free to express either opinion of hate or love. you are free to be unique in a materialistically confined landscape. you are free to be different, and the differences will be pointed out to you so that you can likewise be free to hate them.
Misogynism, "sexual" empowerment, feminism, and even sissydom is set up in such a fashion. sometimes you can climb the mount of the bones of "ism"s and just manage to see above the heap. Beyond the hype. Like this, true gender neutrality has zero to do with the sexual, but so many are trapped in the "dialect" that they have no other way of expression, and that in itself holds it up for inspection and ridicule by the masses. So much so that a transcendent exercise becomes the very thing that binds us to the flesh.
Enough on that subject for the moment. I'd like to use some space to agree with you on the thoughts on raw living food and other things. I am still a babe when it comes to the knowledge of glutamates and their role in inflammation but will research it. And i'm also bound to my love of sugar and chocolate but I work at it. One exercise that I have used, kinda like a food meditation is to sit and envision the processes that brought my food to me before I eat it. Try not to watch TV or read while you eat like this. Your thought should be solely on the living processes and being thankful for it.
A perhaps oversimplified example but a good one anyway is this, say your eating any vegetable. Envision the seed it started from, the soil and minerals, the sunlight, the rain, and the manpower. All of this energy residing in it, waiting to be harnessed and used. Of course the fresher, more organic, and less processed the better usually. That said, I think that food prejudices are as hard to conquer as societal prejudice sometimes. Telling people to not eat the wrong things is akin to telling people to not treat people different because of skin tone and asking for your support of this group. WHAT GROUP IF WE ARENT DIFFERENT?
I didn't even want cake until you explained to me how dreadful it was :wink:
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bb49
bb49 8 years ago
I thought you might appreciate these thoughts...
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bb49
bb49 8 years ago
to junebonney : I have a few more random thoughts I think may explain my feelings concerning food and the toxins mixed with such,
Processed denatured cooked and chemical
laden food affects the mind negatively
in subtle ways leading to denatured
thoughts and an artificial mode of
thinking,
The living foods connects you with the
eternal wisdom of nature and her life
giving ways. Raw living food imparts the
divine knowledge to your body, mind and
spirit through its structured energy
patterns.
Cooked processed food loses its divine
energy pattern once it is fragmented,
packaged and heated.
Living food builds and purifies your
blood and that pure blood made from
fresh living fruits, herbs, nuts and
seeds regenerates and illuminates the
mind with the living eternal wisdom
contained within the DNA of the plants.
If you want to see the effects of our
unnatural eating habits just look at how
our world is today. No animal has ever
veered from natures laws the way humans
have, which is partly what we've been discussing.
Raw living foods is a huge part of my
personal regeneration. After a lifetime
of wrong living I am finally coming into
alignment with the Divine Intelligence
as I simplify and release gluttony and
excessive mixing of food for pleasure
which arises out of spiritual
starvation.
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bb49
bb49 8 years ago
to junebonney : Yup, I suppose so, but you know I'm kinda poor, but I've found a way to do it, eat and drink healthily, but I'm also thinking the two are entwined, like without good food, drink or air the brain can't really function properly, seriously, the glutimates an such create inflammation in the brain and body as well, I wouldn't have believed it before, but now I've got all the soy,corn, gluten and artificials out of my body I can see my and feel my heart like never before, really amazing, but I DO think you made an excellent point, most folks have walled themselves in so no ideas however progressive just won't make it, I also think there's a Hegelian Dialectic at work here, I don't believe these things happened by mistake, like misogyny for all people, not just woman,
I am truly sorry you've run against so much prejudiced, that's truly a shame, you have a very sharp intellect with the ability to express your written thoughts, plus your very photogenic, that's allot of pluses!!!
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to bb49 : thank you for the positive words but to say you digress is quite the understatement. it is just unfortunate that the choice between unhealthy and healthy food is often the choice between affordable food and unaffordable. Further preventing the poorer classes from being able to provide a sort of preventive maintenance, to their own wellbeing, in place of the quality insurance most are denied. Insuring all is no help when it creates degrees to which the medical professions will or will not help you. the toxins in the food, water and air are only part of the problem. the pollution in our hearts is the biggest obstacle. remove that and we'll figure the rest out.
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bb49
bb49 8 years ago
It's a real shame you came upon so much ignorance at the place you'd least expect it, but I think in general folks have there heads buried deep in the sand, take nutrition for example, there's an independent study done of the top burger chains in this country, the person, a journalist chose to do this study, he gathered burgers from the top ten servers across this country then had them studied by an independent forensic group to see exactly what was in that so called food, only one (1) burger had 4% actual beef, the rest a concoction of chemicals some of which were toxic, but I consider glutimates toxic so I'd say most of what they are is toxic, the other 99% burgers had between 1%-2% actual beef and that was tainted with amonia, the very same kind used in household and industrial cleaning, they apparently bath the beef in it to kill e-coli and other harmful bacteria, the bread not really bread at all, or rather very little, and the cheese filled with a silly putty like silicone plastic, all loaded with glutimates to trick and fool the mind into thinking it's tasting something good, but when I try to warn people I get criticized and laughed at, it's one of the reasons hospitals are filled to maximum capacity, just look at any hospital parking lot, there all filled to max!, never before in our human history has air,food and water been so filled with toxic poisons, when I was a child the rate of cancer was 3 out of 10 people, now it's 7 out of 10, chlorine & fluoride have no place in our water supply, there's actually safer methods for purifying water that are allot healthier, artificial flavorings, colorings and sweetners have no place in our diets, they are excitoxoxins that overwhelm the adrenal glans and brain, causing hyperactivity & hypersensitivity, try to tell people to stop eating corn and corn byproducts like HFCS(High Fructose Corn Syrup) and see what reaction you get, it shouldn't be eaten or drank, it's been GMO since the mid 1970's, but I suppose I digress, I understand where you're coming from and appreciate your position,
Stay positive and strong!!!
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to nstyboywpg : :smile: yes I do.
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nstyboywpg 8 years ago
to junebonney : yw you hottie and of course you do now
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junebonney
junebonney Publisher 8 years ago
to nstyboywpg : thank you. Ive been back since and received well. Of course I use the girl's potty, now, lol
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nstyboywpg 9 years ago
Such a sexy gurl in the club
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