Me being me
I've been doing some thinking and wondering how I became me, first off i always knew in my heart that i was gay but I really wasted until I was 30 to have enough confidents to come out and be me and let a guy have me, I gave myself to Bill the first time because he had been so good to me giving me things and I knew I could never repay him all the things he gave me so I decided to let him have something no one else had ever dad my virgin ass, now I ha sucked his cock a few times but I wanted him to have my a so i let him even letting him cum inside me my very first time and Ioved the feeling of how it felt with his juice flowing in me.
For a couple months he was fucking me about 4 or 5 times a week but i had a desire to go to a club dressed as a girl and wanted to do it with him but he was happy fucking me in my apartment but I wanted to see if I could really be around people so I went out one night dressed and was surprised the attention I got out especially from these white me getting so buzzed and talked into going out to a car with a guy and he pushed my head down and I sucked him until he came in my mouth with him holding my head down and I just did what I never did or BIll let him cum in my mouth and I swallowed his load taking it all in my belly and enjoying it, now I had sucked Bill a few times but spit it out but swallowed a complete stranger.
Back in the club I went dancing with several guys being asked to go out side with another guy I started sucking him but he said he wanted my ass i told him no but he just pulled my panties own down in back entered my ass pounding me for a few minutes cumming in my ass not a little but quite a bit surprising me filling my ass up with his cum, it scared me at 1st because he didn't have condom on and he shot it deep in me then told me thanks for the hot fuck leaving me in the car feeling like a cheep whore .
I went home and thought about it not telling Bill what I did at first but fiinally told him I went away and he asked if I had sex with anyone I couldn't tell him the truth just told him some playful touching but I had a desire to go back and I told myself this time only just playful touching dancing then back to my hotel but well drinking and hearing the hot talk and being felt up by by the guys as I danced I ended up letting 2 white men go back to my hotel with me and they fucked me a couple time each though out the night, I never knew a white guy could have a large cock and they both were well endowed again I gave in on my word getting fucked by 2 complete stranger and neither used a condom cumming in me scaring me again.
Back I went again seeing Bill and letting him fuck several times me but he told me something was different about me especially when I gave him a blowjob letting him cum in my mouth and swallowing him for the first time, I just told him it was from the movies we had been watching,but I couldn't help myself going back out several times but because of my pass history going out I decided I should invest in some condom keeping them in my purse and good thing because it seemed every time I was out I ended up letting some guy have me in one way or another for several months either being fucked or giving a blowjob, I liked giving blowjobs and getting a guy to cum in my mouth it seemed it gave me power over them and feeling the juice was wonderful, then I met the man I thought I feel in love with James, he was tall so good looking and I always wondered why a man this good looking was in a gay club that catered to crossdressers and why me, but I guess I should have know better than to fall in love with him because the first time he did me in his car he wouldn't use a condom and told me he never would, but I was ok with that doing whatever he asked and when even giving him a blowjob and letting him fuck me at a booth in the back of the club even letting him fuck me a few times in a stall in the bathroom coming out with people there and they knew what we did.
then he asked me to let his friends fuck me I told him no at first but he said if I loved him like I said I would do it for him so well to prove my love I gave in letting a few of his friends have me when he told me too even letting him video me being fucked by him and his friends I always wanted to see what I looked like being fucked and it was just as hot as any porn movie I ever, I ended up making 4 videos with him and his friends now I was thinking why am I letting this man have his way with me I wasn't young i was 30 and I was whoring for him and he always called me his whore telling me to answer to it in front of people.
Well you think it couldn't get any worst with him at least I thought it couldn't but one night we were in a club and I sucked him off at a booth in back then he went and was talking to a guy and he told me that guy offered him money to go back to his hotel and fuck me, I told him no way but he told me to do it for him it would be the ultimate way to show my love for him besides it would be fun after all I did his friends for free so why not make some money and he would split, I didn't want to but went as he told me and well that guy fucked me for a couple hours then took me back to James at the bar, I felt so cheap wondering how did I let myself get in a situation like this and I knew I shouldn't have let it happen.
I really was in love with him and I didn't want him to leave me so on a couple more ocations I did what he asked and let some other guys have me for money and I knew basicly being a whore for him with him telling me my baby a pro whoring for him he was pimping me out, I told him I didn't like it but he said just a couple more times then I could stop but it was more than a couple then I stopped answering his calls and it hurt because I missed him so much then he told me if I didn't answer him and come back he told me he had Bill's email and he would send him pictures of me with other men.
I didn't think he would but he kept his word sending Bill some pictures and a couple snips of the videos with me and several men it devistated him and when he showed it to me I couldn't and didn't know what to say other than I was sorry, he told me to get out his apartment and said some of the most crude things to me but I guess I deserved it and should have known better from the beginning than to ever let it be seen on film or fall in love with James, Bill quit talking to me and he died a few years ago, I didn't know for a while and I was and still am disturbed by what he thought of me in his death,I Iknew at one time he really loved me and told me over and over but I let him down may he rest in peace and forgive me
For a couple months he was fucking me about 4 or 5 times a week but i had a desire to go to a club dressed as a girl and wanted to do it with him but he was happy fucking me in my apartment but I wanted to see if I could really be around people so I went out one night dressed and was surprised the attention I got out especially from these white me getting so buzzed and talked into going out to a car with a guy and he pushed my head down and I sucked him until he came in my mouth with him holding my head down and I just did what I never did or BIll let him cum in my mouth and I swallowed his load taking it all in my belly and enjoying it, now I had sucked Bill a few times but spit it out but swallowed a complete stranger.
Back in the club I went dancing with several guys being asked to go out side with another guy I started sucking him but he said he wanted my ass i told him no but he just pulled my panties own down in back entered my ass pounding me for a few minutes cumming in my ass not a little but quite a bit surprising me filling my ass up with his cum, it scared me at 1st because he didn't have condom on and he shot it deep in me then told me thanks for the hot fuck leaving me in the car feeling like a cheep whore .
I went home and thought about it not telling Bill what I did at first but fiinally told him I went away and he asked if I had sex with anyone I couldn't tell him the truth just told him some playful touching but I had a desire to go back and I told myself this time only just playful touching dancing then back to my hotel but well drinking and hearing the hot talk and being felt up by by the guys as I danced I ended up letting 2 white men go back to my hotel with me and they fucked me a couple time each though out the night, I never knew a white guy could have a large cock and they both were well endowed again I gave in on my word getting fucked by 2 complete stranger and neither used a condom cumming in me scaring me again.
Back I went again seeing Bill and letting him fuck several times me but he told me something was different about me especially when I gave him a blowjob letting him cum in my mouth and swallowing him for the first time, I just told him it was from the movies we had been watching,but I couldn't help myself going back out several times but because of my pass history going out I decided I should invest in some condom keeping them in my purse and good thing because it seemed every time I was out I ended up letting some guy have me in one way or another for several months either being fucked or giving a blowjob, I liked giving blowjobs and getting a guy to cum in my mouth it seemed it gave me power over them and feeling the juice was wonderful, then I met the man I thought I feel in love with James, he was tall so good looking and I always wondered why a man this good looking was in a gay club that catered to crossdressers and why me, but I guess I should have know better than to fall in love with him because the first time he did me in his car he wouldn't use a condom and told me he never would, but I was ok with that doing whatever he asked and when even giving him a blowjob and letting him fuck me at a booth in the back of the club even letting him fuck me a few times in a stall in the bathroom coming out with people there and they knew what we did.
then he asked me to let his friends fuck me I told him no at first but he said if I loved him like I said I would do it for him so well to prove my love I gave in letting a few of his friends have me when he told me too even letting him video me being fucked by him and his friends I always wanted to see what I looked like being fucked and it was just as hot as any porn movie I ever, I ended up making 4 videos with him and his friends now I was thinking why am I letting this man have his way with me I wasn't young i was 30 and I was whoring for him and he always called me his whore telling me to answer to it in front of people.
Well you think it couldn't get any worst with him at least I thought it couldn't but one night we were in a club and I sucked him off at a booth in back then he went and was talking to a guy and he told me that guy offered him money to go back to his hotel and fuck me, I told him no way but he told me to do it for him it would be the ultimate way to show my love for him besides it would be fun after all I did his friends for free so why not make some money and he would split, I didn't want to but went as he told me and well that guy fucked me for a couple hours then took me back to James at the bar, I felt so cheap wondering how did I let myself get in a situation like this and I knew I shouldn't have let it happen.
I really was in love with him and I didn't want him to leave me so on a couple more ocations I did what he asked and let some other guys have me for money and I knew basicly being a whore for him with him telling me my baby a pro whoring for him he was pimping me out, I told him I didn't like it but he said just a couple more times then I could stop but it was more than a couple then I stopped answering his calls and it hurt because I missed him so much then he told me if I didn't answer him and come back he told me he had Bill's email and he would send him pictures of me with other men.
I didn't think he would but he kept his word sending Bill some pictures and a couple snips of the videos with me and several men it devistated him and when he showed it to me I couldn't and didn't know what to say other than I was sorry, he told me to get out his apartment and said some of the most crude things to me but I guess I deserved it and should have known better from the beginning than to ever let it be seen on film or fall in love with James, Bill quit talking to me and he died a few years ago, I didn't know for a while and I was and still am disturbed by what he thought of me in his death,I Iknew at one time he really loved me and told me over and over but I let him down may he rest in peace and forgive me
9 years ago
