3 Years ago today

It was 3 years ago today, New years Eve day, that I was all a flutter about going with my boy friend to a big New years Eve Ball at the Hyatt. I was just 21, an adult now, and I bought a new sexy little dress, lingerie, had my hair and nails done, everything. We had been dating for over a year by this time and the sex was awesome. He picked me up and I felt like a queen walking into the ballroom.

It was just an hour or so when my world came crashing down. He also made sure his new future love was going to be there so they could bring in the new year together. He actually introduced me to her earlier in the evening. She was older than me - his age - 24. Taller than me and wore a glittery short dress which showed off her legs nicely. I started to feel like I should now be sitting at the k**s table if you know what I mean. They talked, they shared a slow dance together. No big thing I thought. I went to the ladies room and when I came out I saw them share a quick kiss. He saw me looking at them. He didn't say a word ... he didn't have to. I let him off easy.

I left without saying a word and caught a bus home. After years of taking public transportation around the city I knew many of the bus drivers. I got on the bus and he recognized me right away. I was the only person on the bus. "where to Miss Noelle", he said. "home" and then I broke down crying. I cried my eyes out. He knew I just wanted to cry. When it came to my stop I didn't get off. It was 2 more trips around the circuit until I had enough nerve to get off and walk home ... alone ... before midnight.