Taking that first step.
I had thought about it since I was young. I don't know why, but the idea of sucking cock has always been such a turn on to me. As I got older, much older, the desires, the cravings, only got stronger, kinkier. I had begun to crave things that I would not have before. Things like kissing another man, wanting to feel his warm cum load on my face and in my mouth. Even anal, never before, but now, I wanted to feel a man inside me. Watching porn as an older man had moved from "straight" and imagining what it would be like to be the girl, getting cock and cummed on, to sometimes watching hardcore "gay" porn and everything in between. Oh, yes, the in betweens. Whenever I felt the most horny, the most kinky, I watched "sissy porn." The slutty, submissive videos where it was all about doing anything to please their men. I had started to become infatuated with the ideas of it. The feelings, the desires. It seemed an insatiable urge, at times. I had begun to want to be intimate, to do the things that I had lustfully watched the pornstars do. I felt desperate to feel cum filled balls on my lips. To make a sexy soft cock hard. I could imagining myself moaning as I ran my mouth along it's length.
I started to realize how attracted to ass I had become. Searching out videos of guys getting rimmed, only I wanted to be the one giving. I wanted to fuck guys. Yes, I had begun to want to be fucked, too. Thinking about feeling thick, wonderful dick pushing into me, filling me. How had it come this far? My desires, my fantasies had taken a 180.
However, going from fantasy to reality seemed like this huge, impossible step. It is one thing to imagine being with another guy and another to actually going through with it. The urges were just so strong, though! Would I, could I actually give into my lusts and fantasies? I joined a gay dating website, just to see what it was about and who was out there. Scrolling through the photos and profiles was such a turn on! Very quickly, I received several messages saying hi and asking about meeting up. One guy was close. We agreed to meet at an address. A house that, I think, he was only watching.
I thought I would be more nervous. He might of been more so than me! I don't think he had done this before either, at least not in awhile.
Undressing in front of each other, I could feel myself becoming aroused. I could sense all my desires welling up. It was my first time being nude in front of another man with this kind of intention, and it felt surprisingly wonderful and natural. We had agreed that we would touch and stroke each other, but that quickly simply was not enough. All my thinking about this, all my dreams of this, it was like by muscle memory or maybe instinct, I gave into my lusts and nothing else mattered.
My eyes became glued to his dick. The object of so much fantasy. All I wanted was to pleasure it. I made the first move, so ready to live out my biggest urges, to give into my deepest, incredible cravings. I moved my mouth to his tight balls. I kissed and licked and sucked them like it was the most natural, and amazing thing for one man to do the another, in the world. How could this be so sensual and overwhelming? I felt that amazing sensation of my precum beginning to flow, I was so aroused! I felt his hardening shaft on my face and breathed in the intoxicating scent. Licking and mouthing his cock, making him so wonderfully erect. I could not help myself, I sighed and moaned as I took it between my lips. Oh, how I had wanted this! So much more erotic than I even imagined! I tasted his own precum, now. It made me feel almost euphoric! I loved sucking cock instantly. It was just that incredible. I had know many beautiful women and had many amazing sexual encounters, but I knew that cock surpassed them all. I knew that nothing had ever turned me on more.
My openly giving into my desires, I think, gave him the encouragement to give into his, also. He pulled his wonderful cock away and gently laid me back. He licked my nipples, I am sure that he knew how it could arouse and heighten pleasure. I watched him as he also explored his hidden, cock obsessed fantasies. Having a man's mouth on my balls and shaft, so much more thrilling and sensual than with a woman. It seems most women only do it because they feel like they must, most men do it because they simply love it. Sensual moans as he tongued me and ran his hands up and down my body. I knew those lusts. I laid back and let him fulfill them. I laid back and let him fulfill his cock craving needs. A man's warm, wet, eager mouth. Fuck, it felt amazing! I knew I could not hold off my orgasm much longer and I told him so. Most women I have known would of pulled away, hearing my words only made him suck my cock harder. My orgasm exploded into his mouth. My whole body shook, it felt so intense, so amazing. I came harder and more than ever! Warm, white cum spilled out the sides of his mouth, it looked so sexy! Why did I have such a powerful urge to kiss him?
We quickly switched positions and I was greeted by the sight of his beautiful cock glistening with his dripping, sweet precum. I quickly licked it off of him. It tasted so good and made me feel as if in a euphoric trance. I sucked my lover's veiny cock until he fed me his cum. Why did I wait so long?
When I got home, I took out a dildo and lowered my cock craving ass down onto it. Bouncing up and down, grinding back and forth, edging ever closer to another orgasm. Imagining his balls slapping against me as his dick used my hole. My cock was so hard again. I imagined riding my gay lover's dick and calling out his name when I came, once more. I felt like such a total f*g, and I loved it. I had never been so turned on before. It wasn't because of him, though. Not exactly, he could of probably been anyone, I realized. It was for my hypnotizing infatuation with cock, with ass, with gay sex.
We met again. This time, we both knew that we would explore further. We both had to experience more. He laid down on his stomach. His hairy, shapely ass in the air. My instinct took over. I found it such a turn on. Gently spreading his cheeks apart to expose his hairy hole. Yes, I was gay, I knew it, I could not deny it. Rimming may not be for everyone, but I absolutely had come to crave it. I licked my first guys asshole and it tasted incredible! Licking and lapping at it until I could not take it anymore. I called out, "Will you fuck me?" I was just so very ready and aroused. I was ready for that next, passion filled step.
I started to realize how attracted to ass I had become. Searching out videos of guys getting rimmed, only I wanted to be the one giving. I wanted to fuck guys. Yes, I had begun to want to be fucked, too. Thinking about feeling thick, wonderful dick pushing into me, filling me. How had it come this far? My desires, my fantasies had taken a 180.
However, going from fantasy to reality seemed like this huge, impossible step. It is one thing to imagine being with another guy and another to actually going through with it. The urges were just so strong, though! Would I, could I actually give into my lusts and fantasies? I joined a gay dating website, just to see what it was about and who was out there. Scrolling through the photos and profiles was such a turn on! Very quickly, I received several messages saying hi and asking about meeting up. One guy was close. We agreed to meet at an address. A house that, I think, he was only watching.
I thought I would be more nervous. He might of been more so than me! I don't think he had done this before either, at least not in awhile.
Undressing in front of each other, I could feel myself becoming aroused. I could sense all my desires welling up. It was my first time being nude in front of another man with this kind of intention, and it felt surprisingly wonderful and natural. We had agreed that we would touch and stroke each other, but that quickly simply was not enough. All my thinking about this, all my dreams of this, it was like by muscle memory or maybe instinct, I gave into my lusts and nothing else mattered.
My eyes became glued to his dick. The object of so much fantasy. All I wanted was to pleasure it. I made the first move, so ready to live out my biggest urges, to give into my deepest, incredible cravings. I moved my mouth to his tight balls. I kissed and licked and sucked them like it was the most natural, and amazing thing for one man to do the another, in the world. How could this be so sensual and overwhelming? I felt that amazing sensation of my precum beginning to flow, I was so aroused! I felt his hardening shaft on my face and breathed in the intoxicating scent. Licking and mouthing his cock, making him so wonderfully erect. I could not help myself, I sighed and moaned as I took it between my lips. Oh, how I had wanted this! So much more erotic than I even imagined! I tasted his own precum, now. It made me feel almost euphoric! I loved sucking cock instantly. It was just that incredible. I had know many beautiful women and had many amazing sexual encounters, but I knew that cock surpassed them all. I knew that nothing had ever turned me on more.
My openly giving into my desires, I think, gave him the encouragement to give into his, also. He pulled his wonderful cock away and gently laid me back. He licked my nipples, I am sure that he knew how it could arouse and heighten pleasure. I watched him as he also explored his hidden, cock obsessed fantasies. Having a man's mouth on my balls and shaft, so much more thrilling and sensual than with a woman. It seems most women only do it because they feel like they must, most men do it because they simply love it. Sensual moans as he tongued me and ran his hands up and down my body. I knew those lusts. I laid back and let him fulfill them. I laid back and let him fulfill his cock craving needs. A man's warm, wet, eager mouth. Fuck, it felt amazing! I knew I could not hold off my orgasm much longer and I told him so. Most women I have known would of pulled away, hearing my words only made him suck my cock harder. My orgasm exploded into his mouth. My whole body shook, it felt so intense, so amazing. I came harder and more than ever! Warm, white cum spilled out the sides of his mouth, it looked so sexy! Why did I have such a powerful urge to kiss him?
We quickly switched positions and I was greeted by the sight of his beautiful cock glistening with his dripping, sweet precum. I quickly licked it off of him. It tasted so good and made me feel as if in a euphoric trance. I sucked my lover's veiny cock until he fed me his cum. Why did I wait so long?
When I got home, I took out a dildo and lowered my cock craving ass down onto it. Bouncing up and down, grinding back and forth, edging ever closer to another orgasm. Imagining his balls slapping against me as his dick used my hole. My cock was so hard again. I imagined riding my gay lover's dick and calling out his name when I came, once more. I felt like such a total f*g, and I loved it. I had never been so turned on before. It wasn't because of him, though. Not exactly, he could of probably been anyone, I realized. It was for my hypnotizing infatuation with cock, with ass, with gay sex.
We met again. This time, we both knew that we would explore further. We both had to experience more. He laid down on his stomach. His hairy, shapely ass in the air. My instinct took over. I found it such a turn on. Gently spreading his cheeks apart to expose his hairy hole. Yes, I was gay, I knew it, I could not deny it. Rimming may not be for everyone, but I absolutely had come to crave it. I licked my first guys asshole and it tasted incredible! Licking and lapping at it until I could not take it anymore. I called out, "Will you fuck me?" I was just so very ready and aroused. I was ready for that next, passion filled step.
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