Being a good sissy

Watching porn, not touching my dicklette, clamping and pulling ny nipples and crushing my useless balls. Sometimes it isnso hard to remember i have to, i don't deserve orgasms. Especially when i watch other sissy/crossdressers cumming hard. Seeing all that cum they have, hearing them moan in pleasure, knowing i can't have that anymore.
Trying to be a good sissy, but somedays it is hard to do.