Buck
What's up with Buck? I honestly have no idea
So years ago buck and I started as more than friends but I was looking for more than just sex and told him I needed friends. He wanted to give me what I wanted. He came and hung out with me and watched shows like Dr Who that he would never have watched otherwise. He proved that he didn't just wanna fuck me and that made me want to fuck him. When I tried he wouldn't go for it he said I'd been very clear about what I wanted and he refused me.
HE REFUSED ME!!!
Since then we chat a bit I see him around sometimes but he's always a gentleman. Well except when he asks about new cosplays I'm working on that's his way of asking for pictures and I send them to him. Nothing explicit but maybe a little suggestive. The same thing can be said about our conversations. I think he wants me but he won't act on it.
It all confuses me but also makes me respect and want him more. We haven't really done anything physical together in a long time I told him once he should kiss me but he didn't. He knows I'm in a long term committed relationship with Ragnar and has said he doesn't want in the middle of that. Ragnar was there I told him he should kiss me in front of him that I'm not hiding anything or being dishonest but still no. Last time I went out without Ragnar and he was there he talked about how he never saw me alone anymore and started saying some wildly inappropriate things about the physical things we'd done together before ( we never fucked but we did other things). Honestly he had me quite flustered but he never touched me.
So years ago buck and I started as more than friends but I was looking for more than just sex and told him I needed friends. He wanted to give me what I wanted. He came and hung out with me and watched shows like Dr Who that he would never have watched otherwise. He proved that he didn't just wanna fuck me and that made me want to fuck him. When I tried he wouldn't go for it he said I'd been very clear about what I wanted and he refused me.
HE REFUSED ME!!!
Since then we chat a bit I see him around sometimes but he's always a gentleman. Well except when he asks about new cosplays I'm working on that's his way of asking for pictures and I send them to him. Nothing explicit but maybe a little suggestive. The same thing can be said about our conversations. I think he wants me but he won't act on it.
It all confuses me but also makes me respect and want him more. We haven't really done anything physical together in a long time I told him once he should kiss me but he didn't. He knows I'm in a long term committed relationship with Ragnar and has said he doesn't want in the middle of that. Ragnar was there I told him he should kiss me in front of him that I'm not hiding anything or being dishonest but still no. Last time I went out without Ragnar and he was there he talked about how he never saw me alone anymore and started saying some wildly inappropriate things about the physical things we'd done together before ( we never fucked but we did other things). Honestly he had me quite flustered but he never touched me.
1 year ago
