Journal 2022.11.29
Well had a dream last night… hasn’t had any for a long time now, I don’t know have things gotten that bad?
Other then that went looking for a job and just cuz I could I decided to go live.. After all some company is always welcome even if it’s just comments on stream…
after all day mailing and delivery the few CV’s around in a vain attempt to “get a job” I’ve tried LinkedIn various local job sites, emails calls you name it. Even foolishly thought I could help my uncle with his business/social media promotion. All the while being put on “notifications have been silenced” treatment.
Yah I know I probably got backlisted by him after my last miserable failure at set task. But never being the one to give up I figured I’d try at least. And try I did then turned around and ninja bread maned the whole thing around into a… Promotional exercise shall we call it…
Regardless there I was sipping my overpriced caffe and not knowing what else to do with myself but stream. When I noticed that I got a 1$ donation… Idk somehow it made me so happy, I’ve earned that. Not the anspinnt but the point, I did that. On my account which I’ve built myself and did/do everything for… A kind of “yes I can” feeling…
as for the dream at lest I remember something… Then again suppose all those audio books are rubbing off on me… How I was there why I was there idk.. But I remember it was the tranches and at Combrai but instead of the lumbering slugs of ww1 what I saw was monster of tank baring the German colours.
But this was abesst with a mini gun on its top turret, now roaring to life and dreaming like a bancho and normal tank gun mounted on it’s classy, before getting pulled into a dug out by a man (don’t remember any of they’r names or faces. Yet I somehow knew them and they knew me…) and asking what’s going on.
What I can remember from the explanation is that after the Russian revolution a technically advanced faction called the “They’d” had somehow been “freed/released” out of Russia and had given some of they’re knowledge and technology to the Germans as a reward for “freeing” them. Wounding how any of that made sense at some point I mention the Keyser (Wilhelm, yes I know he was Wilhelm the second) by name. At which point the men around me looked bewildered at me corrected me that Philip was the Keyser…
Other then that went looking for a job and just cuz I could I decided to go live.. After all some company is always welcome even if it’s just comments on stream…
after all day mailing and delivery the few CV’s around in a vain attempt to “get a job” I’ve tried LinkedIn various local job sites, emails calls you name it. Even foolishly thought I could help my uncle with his business/social media promotion. All the while being put on “notifications have been silenced” treatment.
Yah I know I probably got backlisted by him after my last miserable failure at set task. But never being the one to give up I figured I’d try at least. And try I did then turned around and ninja bread maned the whole thing around into a… Promotional exercise shall we call it…
Regardless there I was sipping my overpriced caffe and not knowing what else to do with myself but stream. When I noticed that I got a 1$ donation… Idk somehow it made me so happy, I’ve earned that. Not the anspinnt but the point, I did that. On my account which I’ve built myself and did/do everything for… A kind of “yes I can” feeling…
as for the dream at lest I remember something… Then again suppose all those audio books are rubbing off on me… How I was there why I was there idk.. But I remember it was the tranches and at Combrai but instead of the lumbering slugs of ww1 what I saw was monster of tank baring the German colours.
But this was abesst with a mini gun on its top turret, now roaring to life and dreaming like a bancho and normal tank gun mounted on it’s classy, before getting pulled into a dug out by a man (don’t remember any of they’r names or faces. Yet I somehow knew them and they knew me…) and asking what’s going on.
What I can remember from the explanation is that after the Russian revolution a technically advanced faction called the “They’d” had somehow been “freed/released” out of Russia and had given some of they’re knowledge and technology to the Germans as a reward for “freeing” them. Wounding how any of that made sense at some point I mention the Keyser (Wilhelm, yes I know he was Wilhelm the second) by name. At which point the men around me looked bewildered at me corrected me that Philip was the Keyser…
2 years ago
